I’ve always been a clever boy who can see between the lines and probe people well and understand their intentions and needs. My name is Ilyas oldest son of a Moroccan household of 5 with me being 21 years my younger brother, Adam being 20 and my youngest sister being 18 called Aya . My parents migrated to the Uk when they were younger and had 3 children with both my younger siblings being tall and with an athletic build taking characteristics of my father while I took the characteristics of my mother being short and more stocky through out my childhood.
Now being smart, a trait I picked up from my mother who is a nurse I moved out for university a thing that is usually frowned upon in a Muslim household however due to their trust in me and me being a boy they were not worried and allowed me to go. During my first few months in university I began having feelings that God made me different to everyone else it was a feeling I always had due to my emotional intelligence however I began to have gay feelings once I realised every time I got out of the shower I would stare at my curvy hips and very fat and jiggly ass while having a small waist size of 29 and big milk mounds on my chest my brother always pokes me about saying ‘bro you got bigger tits then Aya’ which I used to shrug off.
however the fact I am alone a lot now with no religious family always keeping a watch I began to masterbate a lot for the first time in my life since I had my own studio apartment. However the more porn I watched the more I realised my descent into depravity with it starting with normal porn just scrolling to within a couple months I was watching transgender porn. This made me very shameful and the post nut clarity was horrible however my horniness always won and i would redownload my vpn everytime and keep taking small steps until i eventually started watching gay porn. However watching gay porn as exciting as it was I never wanted to fuck a man. I eventually realised I would fantasize and be able to relate more to the bottom that would be submissive and take the big dick and lose himself in pleasure.
Understanding this I ordered a dildo to my studio apartment and used one for the first time and it blew me away.Every Day after university I would be excited running to my room and going under a storage box under my bed in a hidden area under a couple of old module books I had laying around and use some body oil I got gifted from my mom from Eid and rub it on it and spend 10-15 minutes just trying to get it past my hole. Eventually after a week or so the 5 inch dildo was sliding really easily and my ass was growing hungrier by the day ordering a bigger inch dildo every week until by the end of January I was on 9 inch thick dildos and bouncing on them on my studio flat floor with my mouth agape drooling on the floor playing music loud so my flatmates couldn’t hear me moaning. this depravity didn’t stop finally free of my religious shackles and post nut clarity I started ordering feminine lingerie and a webcam and began to shake my fat round ass on camera for men on gay sites and fuck myself with a dildo listening to their wild commands of go in your studio apartment corridor and piss on your own face in the shower while recording yourself.
However as everything after a while I started craving a real connection with someone who understood me and my sick fetishes. However, there was an issue, probably related to my still belief in Islam I wouldn’t fuck anybody and I didn’t want to be under someone I didn’t know as my fantasies was always sick to say the least. As much as I tried to put it to the back of my head whenever I was really fucking myself with my dildo I would be screaming my brothers name and also wishing my sister would control me as a dominatrix as she is taller then me and has always been outgoing and confident and I would love if she would accept me even though I’m so different from my two siblings I really love them and would love to find out if they would accept me for who I am. A confused Muslim with a very feminine thick body who loves to sin and fuck his brains out with his dildo and wants to be fucked and controlled by his siblings and friends.
Not being able to hold in my feelings and lifestyle anymore I devised a plan to slowly introduce myself to my siblings however this was to never reach back to my parents or people that would expose me or let the wider world know about me being a Dl cross dressing bottom. Out of all my friends I have this one friend called Kevin he grew up in the area and is sort of close to my siblings however not close enough to tell them anything if we fell out. He is 5 foot 10 slim build and is a very kinky and horny friend (only through text and conversation ) always making them gay jokes while playing video games and slapping my ass as a joke in the gym and very open minded. He isn’t Muslim and I could tell from my ability to read people that he was either bisexual or open minded and even if he wasn’t open to what I wanted he would find it cool and would empower me. So my plan started.
Me and Alex had lectures together every Wednesday and after our lectures we would go to the gym and back to my studio apartment as it was bigger then his and play video games and I’d always allow him to shower at my apartment and we would talk and he would sleep on the sofa and go back to his apartment in the morning as our sort of routine.We had our lectures and being in the back of a somewhat half empty lecture hall we would talk and me starting to create conversation and edge towards my goals of getting him to blow my brains out I started asking questions that are half guided half masked as banter like bro how much would it take to suck a dick and he would laugh and say ‘bro I would never’while giggling and I would giggle and say nah seriously everyone has a price. He said 1 million as a joke and I said surely if you would do it for 1 million you would do it for 600 thousand and he said sure I would. I said hypothetically if I sucked a dick for a hundred thousand and got the money in my account would you not also do it. He said fuck yeah bro I would because I would be jealous . I said ok what if I got 10 thousand . He said no that’s not enough I said what if you saw me pay off my second year university rent all know your slaving away at your part time job. He said when you say it like that bro I would do it. I tried my hardest not to blush and laugh and I said ‘bro within a minute you have gone from 1 million to 10,000 you sure you wouldn’t suck dick for free.’ He looked nervous and said nah bro it’s just cause it’s you asking the question and getting money I would want the same as you. I made a joke like sure buddy. That was the first phase of my plan.
Then next we went gym and I made sure to start off our split with legs and I wore the tightest shortest shorts I had. Kevin said ‘bro you sure you wanna do leg day you already have the fattest ass in university and that’s including Emily in the law department. I laughed and said bro we train our whole body in our split. He made a joke saying would it be weird if legs was my favourite day. I said ‘ why?’ With a smile on my face . He said ‘ To see your fat ass go up and down and shake while you struggle to lift the weights.’ Me feeling extra brave and risky instead of saying woah stop being gay I said ‘No one’s looking bro can you spot me.’ With me thinking I went too far instead he went right up behind me with his well built body and helped me squat the weight while making sure his body was pressed against my ass and I made sure to arch more then necessary to make him understand what he is missing out on. Later after the session was over we went to my house to shower and play games. While showering I forgot that last night I played with my dildo all night long and might have left some of my lingerie on the bed so I hoped that Kevin is in the living room area on the sofa waiting for his shower however instead I feel a shadow looming over me. As I turn around I see Kevin with a huge smile saying I guess you would suck a dick for 10,000 as he waves my biggest black 10 inch newly bought dildo in my face with my panties with cum on them wrapped around his face. I felt humiliated and closed the shower curtains and started crying saying the generic stuff when you get caught like ‘No’ ‘I’m a Muslim I would never’ however instead of a mocking grin or a look of disgust Kevin smiles warmly and says Bro I never knew if you were gay however I’ve been obsessed with that crazy body of yours. You always told me you got the shit genetics from your mum but I’m so happy you got those genes cause your body is so fucking sexy I just wanna fuck the shit out of you everyday .
I felt so happy and heard I didn’t even wipe my body down I ran to him and hugged him with my fat titties and ass jiggling as I ran to him standing at the open door to
my apartment. I kissed him passionately and started rubbing his thick meat between his jeans. He said Bro let me shower atleast before anything and are you sure you wanna do this with me even though I won’t tell anyone you are Muslim. I said I am but God made me this way and gave me this feminine body greedy for sin and I can’t keep away from you. I bent down on my knees and opened the zip to his jeans. While pulling down the zipper my bussy was dripping with juices reassuring me I’m making the right decision and my heart was beating from how excited I was.
When I pulled down on his boxers his fat white dick slapped me on my face with all 7 of his inches which made me feel embarrassed. I sucked his dick which I was used to from all the dildo shows I did on gay sites and had him moaning real quick. Even though this was both of our first gay encounters we both had experience. He has fucked a lot of women at university and I’ve fucked a lot of dildos.Alex then went on top of my bed and grabbed the lingerie set that I left there by accident and said put it on now you dirty Muslim slut. It turned me on so much and he went to my computer that I left on and pressed play on the gay sites and put a mask on both of our faces and he fucked the shit out of me while we were on camera from what started being 10 people to eventually 1000. He ended it by cumming on my face and then ending the stream however we fucked again right after the stream ended and he went to shower and I came up from behind him and was stroking his large meat while cleaning his back for him.
the next couple of days my friends saw us around each other a lot which wasn’t unusual however definitely more then beforr
sndnmade everyone see us as a duo. little did they know after lectures Kevin would destroy my hole and have me crawling around the apartment naked and it got to a point we were so kinky I would suck his dick in lecture halls in the back and even once on a specific Friday he told me to go to my Friday prayer wearing panties under my thobe while wearing a vibrating butt plug. It was hard to hide my moans as I was praying while having a vibrator in me .With even a couple uncles telling em to turn off my notification sound as we are praying and isn’t good. Little did they know I was dropping juices on the floor as my ass was being played with. Specifically last day of term during lecture I was sucking his dick then he pulled me by my arm in front of everyone including the lecturer which made my face warm red and took me to the boy toilets and when no one was looking we went to the same stall not that anyone would come during lecture times and he sat me on the toilet and then said open wide. I opened my mouth thinking he wanted me to suck his dick however I saw a golden juice spraying out of his swollen penis head right into my mouth and I began to swallow it like a good little whore. However, to surprise me even more he started aiming badly by purpose getting piss all over my face and hair and clothes and then said oh clean yourself you dirty Slut and said clean the floor and toilet aswell so I started licking the toilet and the toilet floor while he fucked me in the stall. I tried my best to be quite however I’m sure someone heard us in the corridor thinking a girl was getting fucked by her boyfriend and didn’t think nothing of it as sex was the usual in university. Within a month I went from a DL boy to a submissive dirty slut for Kevin which made me feel so happy however all good things come to an end and he informs me his family is moving to Australia and he won’t be able to see me for a year .
For the next few weeks during the summer holiday I felt lost and didn’t know what to do however eventually I was done moping around and my sex drive picked back up again and I remembered my initial target my brother however the easier choice was to see if my sister Aya was down to be my dominatrix as that is the easier goal.
She is a 5’10 girl which makes me feel tiny as I’m 5’6 with long slender legs, fat ass which runs in the family and small tits and a confident perosnality to Match her towering size over me. Through my younger years she never took me serious as a older brother as I was always shorter then her with a fiery temper and she used to always make fun of my body however always made sure to not do it in front of my brother to save face for me .
One summer evening I was changing getting ready for a shower while she walks into my room by accident and sees me naked and just stands there. I said sis get the hell out. She giggled and walked over and started poking me and then took a firm grab of my chest saying your tits are amazing I wish I had tits like yours and then I was so ashamed I said this is haram while turning around and then she took the lollipop out of her mouth and stuck it up my ass while taking a firm grab of it which made me
Jump and I said sis that isn’t funny.She said what’s funny is the box of lingerie you have under your bed which keeps getting bigger because you steal mine and moms panties and she thinks it is me. First I thought it was your brother stealing moms to give it to his girlfriend to wear however imagine when I suprise my oldest brother has his own stacks of lingerie in his room. I first thought maybe you have lingerie for a girlfriend you have but I’m very curious and wanted to know so I stuck a small camera in your room. I check the camera last week and I find you with a full lingerie set fucking the shit out of your fat wobbly ass with a fat black dildo while screaming your brothers name. I always thought you have the body of a women and might become a fag because I knew you had a small dick but it is so different seeing it on a video. I lunged tried to grab the camera however she instead grabs my small dick and pulls down making me wince and bend my knees on the floor and she said brother I love you however these videos have made me so horny and as a Muslim you need to be punished. My sister took off her panties from her long slender legs and wiped her pussy juice from her panties all on my face while she used her foot to rub my small knub cock. Once I came after 2 mins she laughed and said brother omg your so pathetic no wonder your a sissy now. She then grabbed my dildo and grabbed a belt and stuck it to the belt and said bend over over your bed you dirty fag I’m gonna punish you right now with the door open. I said no close the door I don’t want mum and dad finding out. She started crying of laughter saying so you do not care if I fuck uou with the strap on or if your brother sees you then . Me not having a good enough retort I bend over and hope my parents don’t come upstairs and I thought I was in the clear as my brother was at football practice. She inserts in me which was very easy as I was a dildo whore and she said not even a moan or painful reaction you really are a submissive little slut. She fucked me for 30 minutes before I nutted for the second time all over my bed and she pushed me to fall on top of it and spun me over and sat on top of my small dick and road me for another 10 minutes until she came all over my face and body saying thanks for the small stick. Then walked out the door leaving it open. I cleaned my self up and switched my bed sheets and had a shower when I came out my room my brother gives me a weird look which had me shaken because why was he home already so much earlier then usual and it made me think DID HE SEE ANY OF THAT’
