I Love Being a Faggot

I wasn't convinced I was gay until I was in my mid twenties. I have always been attracted to woman. I still am actually. Shortly I started watching porn, I started to focus less on the girl, and more on the big cock in whatever sex scene I was watching. I started to fantasize about being the girl in the video. I would fantasize that I was that little blonde busty slut, getting my tight little ass banged. I wouldn’t even be able to cum unless I fantasized like that, while I jerked off to porn. Eventually I started to pick out what scene to watch because of what the girl was wearing. I dreamed about slipping into a cute little pair of pink panties, and a pair of thigh highs. It wasn’t long before I started experimenting in cross dressing. My step sister, who wasn’t really my sister, she was just a close family friend. She was good friends with my Mom, but she was closer to my age. She was only about 9 years older than me. And she was totally hot. Her name was Mellissa. She was a party girl in her mid twenties. She was your typical busty blonde bimbo, with big fake tits, and the body of a pornstar. I started to think less about fucking her, and more about being her. I use to stay up late at night and listen to her and my mom party. Melissa would tell my Mom all about the string of boyfriends she had, and how much she loved sucking cock and getting fucked in the ass. And her lingerie collection was incredible. The first time I ever tried on a g-string was one of hers. We had pretty much the same body type so it fit me perfectly. I loved the feel of the string on my ass. I have an incredibly small dick, so it cupped my little package perfectly. It felt so right when I put those panties on. And that was just the beginning. I use to borrow all kinds of clothes and lingerie from her. Tight black pants that showed off my feminine figure and ass. A teeny tiny pair of daisy dukes. Micro miniskirts. Little Black dresses. I started to become a pro. I was falling in love with crossdressing. It even got to a point where I started to buy my own stuff, and I couldn’t get off with out it. 

The biggest thrill of my early sexual years was when I found Melissa’s dildo. I was looking for a pink pair of panties to wear one night, going thru Melissa’s things when my hand found something rubbery. I took it out to find that it was a big, fat cock. A 8inch flesh colored, thick dildo with a suction cup base. I couldn’t wait to get it to my room. As soon as I got to my room, I put on a cute little outfit and wrapped my lips around that thick rubber cock and started to practice my blowjob skills. I bobbed my head up and down on it. Licked and slobbered all over it, wishing it was the real thing. You could say that was the beginning of my  journey to becoming one of the best little cock suckers around.

I sucked on that fat rubber duck for what seemed like an hour. My little cock was harder than ever poking up thru my panties, but so small it was hardly noticeable. I wanted to get fucked. And he only lube I had was Vaseline. So I started with spit and fingered my ass, adding another finger every minute or so, until I thought my tight little ass was open enough. I lubed up the cock, got on all fours, and firmly pressed it to my tight, eager little hole. And it opened and accepted the fat dick without much effort. And soon I was fucking my hole with the fat cock, giving it to myself good and hard. God it felt amazing. My little cock was so hard, and I felt like I was going to burst. I continued fucking my little hole, until my hard little dick spasmed and spat up. It wasn’t much. My little cock and balls are tiny and I never cum that much. But I had just had my first Sissygasm. I didn’t even know what it was called that back then. All I kept thinking was how I now understood why gay guys loved to have sex with other men. Getting fucked feels amazing. At that point, Mellissa’s thick rubber dildo had pretty much became my boyfriend. When Mellissa wasn’t home, I had it up in my room. And it had me bent over, making me its little bitch. All the while considering the fact that I very well might be gay! One thing was for sure, was that I fucking loved it.

I continued like this throughout high school. Mellissa eventually found out I was borrowing her clothes. She was drinking one night when we were the only ones home. So she confronted me. She was convinced I was stealing her panties to sniff and jerk off. She thought I wanted to fuck her. But she loved it when I told her the truth. That I was stealing her panties to wear them. I kept myself clean always, and always washed the clothes I borrowed. She got a kick out of finding out I was experimenting with crossdressing. And when I told her about her dildo she didn’t believe me at first. So I wrapped my lips around it and showed her my blowjob skills. Then it was her turn and she showed me her blowjob skills. The way her eyes looked at me while she was sucking dick, for a second I thought she was coming on to me. The I def knew she was coming onto me when she asked me if I wished that was my dick, while she bobbed up and down on the cock. I got to admit, my little dick did get rock hard. And eventually her panties and panties came off, and she fucked her wet pussy with that thick cock. She even took it out and asked me If I wanted to taste her, and she practically shoved the dildo down my throat. Then she asked me if I was a virgin. Of course I was, but I was a junior in high school and almost 17 years old. I told her the truth that so was, and then she asked me if I ever eaten pussy before. And as soon as I spoke my head No, she pulled my head down to her pussy, and I began to lick her wet twat. I had no idea what I was doing. She tried  to guide me as best as she could, but her constant laughter made it pretty obvious I wasn’t doing it for her. She had me stop and told me that was OK, I will get better at it. The we kissed. And I had been going to keg parties since freshman year, getting drunk and making out with girls. I am a pretty good looking guy. I’m small, and thin, but I’m pretty damn good looking. I never had a problem attracting girls, and I had a girlfriend often, but I never really got past second base. Anyway, I was a good kisser. And so Mellisssa, and all of her lovely nakedness got on my lap as we started a hot makeout session. My shirt came off, and she rubbed my chest as we made out. I gripped and pawed at her big, juicy, fake tits. And I reached back and pawed at that hot ass of hers too. I always thought of myself as an ass guy, but so couldn’t get enough of her boobs. They were big and wonderful. This chick was all woman, and in the back of my mind I kept thinking about all the dirty things I would do if I could be her for one day. She started to dry hump me, and she got really into it. She moaned lightly i my mouth as we kissed and she grinded on my lap. She started talking dirty, like how much she wanted my cock, and she started telling me that she wanted me to fuck her. And eventually she got off my lap, got me up, and started to undo my pants. The she teasingly asked me if I wanted a blowjob as she tugged on my belt with one hand, as She traced my crotch with her fingers from her other hand. She got my pants down to my ankles, as I quickly sat down to take off my shoes, and pants around my ankles. Then she got me up and got down on my knees in front of me. She was surprised I wasn’t hard yet, and mentioned it, but told me not to worry and that she would change that. Little did she know, I was rock hard. I don’t think I have ever been harder. You just can’t tell when I’m wearing briefs, because my dick is really, really small. And she was about to find that out for herself. But, hearing her say that made me even more nervous. She looked up at me longingly as she kissed stomach and rubbed my inner thighs. I had a 25 year old, smoking hot, little slut with those big juicy boobs, and a hot, fat ass. I had her on her knees, buck naked in front of me begging for my cock. Her pussy was dripping wet, and she wanted more than anything to fuck her that night. 

So there she was, naked in front of me, on her knees getting ready to wrap her lips around my cock. She started to pull at my shorts and she asked me retoricly if I had a big cock. And the she said you do don’t you! I knew it! The she asked me in a cute little voice if she could have it? And told me she wanted it so bad, as she gently tugged at the waist band of my shorts. She was toying with me