Finding Nicholas

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My alarm clock woke me from a deep sleep, I slapped at the snooze button and debated for a moment then pulled the bedcovers over my head and turned away from the clock.  On the third slap at the alarm clock,  I remembered!!!.  

OH MY GOD!  It's my birthday...I'm 35 years old, and still a single gay man, seemingly with little to no hope of ever finding my life partner. I'm Garrett  Sutton, III, as an only child, I was the sole beneficiary of my parent's estate when they were both taken in a horrific auto crash on I-95.  

My parents and I were very close all of my adult life since college. The loss of them numbed me for months.  My Mom and I were always close but with Dad, it was the summer between high school and college that we became friends as well as father and son.  I absolutely adored my Dad.  He was always teaching me in his very subtle ways.

We had frequent sessions talking about things I had questions about, People with wildly divergent political views confused me the most. Dad was always there to counterbalance any wild notions or ideas that popped into my already crowded head.  I still miss them both, terribly.  Now, my closest living relatives are my Mom's sister, Aunt Delores and her two daughters Terry Ann and Sharon Elizabeth.

It took a few months for me to rebound from this, the first major crisis I would face alone  For months I would go to bed and the tears trace down my face as I missed them both so very much.  I was into my second month of grieving the loss of them when I began to remember some of the lessons my Dad had taught me. I remember him telling me that “ Grief, like emotion,  is just an escape valve to let us regroup and recover from the devastating losses we must learn to cope with. 

Having a business to run has helped to speed my physical recovery, the emotional recovery would last much, much longer, I discovered.  make my living buying, renovating and selling houses.

With excellent advice from my father and my broker as advisers,  I've made a very good living buying and renovating houses. Plus I inherited my childhood home and all the assets from my parent's estate.  I absolutely love doing what I do, it allows me to use both, my mind and bodybuilding homes instead of just houses.  

I renovated, then moved into the home I grew up in.  I've kept the three cars my parents had, a 1964 Studebaker Gran Turismo coupe,  A 1965 Mustang convertible that was my Mom's and my Dad's pride and joy, a rare, Canary Yellow.  1971 Jaguar XKE Convertible.  I keep the Jaguar and the Mustang under wraps and stored in a temperature controlled steel shipping container garage in a storage facility downtown. downtown except for the Studebaker,  It has been subjected to a full body off restoration and now is essentially a brand new 1954 Studebaker Gran Turismo Hawk.  The El Camino is my work truck and the Studebaker is used when I want a stylish car instead of a truck.  When I drive one of them it is usually the Studebaker.  The XKE is too rare to take a chance on being in an accident.  

I'm 35 years old, at the apex of my manhood and sadly, all alone, human wise.  I do have the love and adoration my dog, Ross. the world's best companion.  (yes he's named for THAT Ross, from the TV show),  On days when it isn't too hot, Ross goes to work with me except for summertime.  He much prefers the cool shade of his favorite tree in the fenced back yard

All I've ever truly wanted is to love and be loved by the man of my dreams  It seems so simple when written out but so very hard to accomplish in the real world. However, at this point in my life, I'll settle for a couple of nights cuddled up on the couch with a total stranger.  There are times when I think I'll lose my mind if I don't have someone hold me.  If it weren't for my dog, Ross.  I would have been committed to the loony bin years ago.  

I know I bitch and gripe about the sad state of affairs my mon-extent called love life is in, but thankfully, I do have some really great friends in addition to Ross, my dog, a tried and true companion,

Now about those great friends I mentioned earlierr...I've been alerted that seven of them are taking me out to dinner and some sort of special surprise later tonight.  I just hope the surprise isn't some young hunk hired to do a striptease in public.  

The ones I've seen all have perfect bodies and fabulous faces and bodies plus enormous bulges promising BIG things to come but with them 'later' never seems ti comet.   The young ones aren't for me.  I want a man, one near my age who is kind, funny and thinks I supervised and helped hang the moon.  He'll be adventurous and completely devoted to us and our relationship.

I'll never be one to burst his bubble so to speak if he wants to think I helped hang the moon, who am I to shatter his dreams.  

At my age, he'll probably knock me over as he tries to flee from this group of grumpy old gay men.  It's a shame that there isn't a demand for over forty, nearly naked dancers. Uh...maybe not now that think about it.  I see enough old and tired flesh looking back at me in the mirror each morning.

With loads of time after work and before tonights 'special surprise 'I went straight to the shower after work.  Once out of the shower I put on loose fitting boxer shorts that let my cock move freely as I puttered about.  The combination of the silk shorts and the constant contact with my turgid cock kept me on edge for quite some time as it juggled about in the silk shorts.

Remembering one of my Dad's favorite sayings I told  Robert that “If it's worth doing, then we have to do it right.”

Robert made some phone calls and suddenly we were all to dress in Tuxedos for the evening.

 There was a bit of a delay when we arrived at the best restaurant in the entire city.  We waited in the Limo for a few minutes before Robert called to announce our arrival, we were to be escorted to our table in a private alcove off the main dining room.

There were a few audible gasps when Robert gave the word and the limo driver held the door while the eight of us exited the limo and entered the restaurant.  Inside, eyes constantly turned to us trying to figure out who we were.  Robert had executed an entrance that would be the talk of the town before morning.  I must admit that we were an impressive sight each in his own right, but as a group, we were absolutely stunning.

There was even a blurb in the Trib's entertainment section the following morning posing questions about who, what and why those eight men in the expensive Tuxedos were.

Robert phoned first thing the following morning laughing and surprised that our little entrance last night made the Trib's 'On the Town section of the newspaper.

It was a wonderful evening of fun and camaraderie with seven of the best men I know.  Of the eight of us, all were paired with a soul mate except for two of us, Nick Azzara and myself. the lone bachelors in the group 

Nick was one of the very first gay men I met when I came out. Predictably, we met at one of Robert's fabulous parties.  I was young and very shy, completely intimidated by this sophisticated group of men.  I've always been attracted to Nick but always too shy to even carry on a conversation

As I rush towards forty, cute young twinks have become just eye candy to me.  I want a fully grown, hot and hairy Daddy of a man to be my life partner, not a dependent.  My ideal mate would be near my age, a virile stud of a man who is successful, productive, playful, and a joy to know and care about as well as being fun to be with,  Like me, he'll be wanting a committed monogamous relationship.  

In addition. I would prefer him to be the  King of man kissers. . Kissing is my Kryptonite, the quickest and surest ways to get me into bed. (Anybody out there listening)?  

Hey! “It's my birthday, my turn to make a few wishes of my own!”

My first birthday wish is that someone will shut off the god awful noise they call music these days and bring back music we can dance to or just listen to.  A bass beat that rattles the windows, as well as my bones, just doesn't cut it for me.    

Where's Barry White when we need him?

When the doorbell chimed I gathered my keys and put on the Tux jacket, turned out the lights and was escorted to the waiting the limo.

I was the only person in the Limo other than the driver.  He had an set itinerary because we stopped several times and picked up a friend. We ended with a total of seven of my closest friends and buddies, we were delivered to one of our city's finest restaurants.

y friends a bit as we sat there with our first drinks of the evening, taking the time to remember the reasons that each of these wonderful men has come to mean so much to me.  They're family really, maybe even better than family, they surely will not hesitate to let me know when I'm right or especially when I am wrong. I decided long ago that I couldn't have picked a better group.  

I was surprised when I saw a server roll a drinks cart to our table to deliver the elixir of the gods to all of i\us at the table.  

Somehow, my friends got started listing the merits and/or the demerits of my past boyfriends.  Of course, there was much laughter as they took aim at my misguided attempts at finding Mr. Right.  They even threw in a couple of guys that I had always classified as a 'Mr. Right Now type of guy, more than three came to mind and one of them was in this group of friends taking me to dinner, His handsome profile was only three chairs to my left.

I noticed him looking my way several times during the evening.  He's Nicholas Azzara, a tall, slim handsome man of Italian descent with dark brown hair and green eyes,  Every time I've been around him I turn into the village idiot, unable to string two sentences together in his presence.

But, there is a glimmer of hope.  When I was washing up in the men's room Nick came to stand beside me.  He winked at me in the mirror and I felt the blood rise in my neck.

“Oh, by the way,  Happy birthday Garrett, I hope you've had a good day.”

I nodded my response responded and thanked him for his part in tonight's celebration. I immediately realized that I had spoken to him without stammering and stuttering like before.

Turning to him I smiled and said...

“I can't believe it, but I've actually talked with you without sounding like an idiot.  And just so you'll know, you should wear a Tux more often. You look especially very handsome man tonight, Nick.

I smiled at him in the mirror as it was his turn to blush.

“Thank you, Garrett, I've always thought you didn't care for me very much.”

“It's quite the contrary Nick with the exception of tonight, I've always felt inadequate with you in the room.”

“Well, it is a surprise and a treat to find that we have a mutual admiration for each other.”  

“Would it be too forward of me to ask you out for dinner one night soon?”

Immediately my mouth went dry and I couldn't speak for a moment.  Taking a sip of water I managed to smile and tell him that dinner with him soon would be perfect, as well as a good start in getting to know each other better.

The first dinner with Nick turned into the two of us cooking a meal at his place and at mine the next night.  We learned that we both love to cook, especially for someone.   There were a couple  of nights when we went out to a nice restaurant that one of us had heard about and  after a couple of weeks we realized that we're dating

Somehow it seemed so natural that we were together almost every night. of the week.  Then last Saturday as we were cleaning up the kitchen it happened.  I was carrying dirty dishes to the sink where Nick was cleaning them off.

I've often wondered how I managed to get over my clumsy and incoherent ramblings back when he intimidated me so.  Now he's the most fun guy I know.  

We were cleaning up after a wonderful Surf & Turf meal.  When I turned to go back to the table, Nick grabbed my arm and spun me to face him.  I knew that this was it as soon as I saw his face.  His eyes devoured me and with his hands-free, he pulled at my hips and ground against me, as we both leaned in to have our first kiss.

I had to put my arms around his neck to keep from falling, our tongues began their first battle.  I felt Nick's hard member at my hip as we ground against each other.  Our bodies molded together perfectly. we finally broke apart, he held me close and whispered in my ear.

“It's taken almost ten years, but that kiss was worth every second of the wait, Garrett.”

“Do you want to wait any longer. Nick?” I  can't remember the last time I felt like this. I'll try anything you want as long as you hold me and keep kissing me.  It's been so long since I've wanted to be held. I want you to hold me, Nicky, these past few weeks have been magical. We've progressed from nodding acquaintances to preparing to make love.  I can't remember being so excited now that you and I are so into each other.

Nick stopped at the bedroom door.

“You're sure Garrett?”

“Yes, I'm positive.  I've known you for years, I know the man you are...the man I want”

Inside the bedroom, Nick slowly undressed me down to my tee shirt and boxer shorts. In turn, I undressed him and I became very excited when I saw the dark curls of hair at his throat.

We both entered the bath and brushed our teeth.  Once we finished in the loo, Nick threw back the bedcovers and we lay together on his bed.

We were both nearing a fever pitch of emotion.  For me, I've never wanted anything like I want Jick Azzarra right at this moment.

“I'll do anything you want as long as you keep kissing me, Nicky,”

Opening the bedside table Nick pulled out an unopened container of Ultraglide and a box of condoms.

When I pulled Nick's tee shirt over his head I gasped out loud. His chest is a dense mat of dark chestnut curls on his pecs and a dark, thick Treasure Trail of that silky dark hair split him down the middle.  Dark hair covered his legs and was on his perfect little butt cheeks as well, dark tufts also showed on his toes and the tops of his big sexy feet.feet.  

"Dear God.  I do love a hairy man on top of me, Nick." 

Tugging at my shorts he got them free and jerked my tee shirt off as well. He started kissing at my right ear and eons later his lips have reached my lower legs and their wiry dark hair.

Once we were naked we were all over each other.  We tried a '69' then Nick lay between my legs as he took my leaking corona into his mouth as he looked directly into my eyes.

Seeing his face filled with my cock distorting his handsome features almost put me over the edge.  The sight of him looking up to me, with my cock filling his mouth and throat was too much, I filled his mouth to overflowing as my semen covered my crotch and testicles  I looked down to see his beautiful face distorted with my cock filling his lips and throat.

When I covered his knee with my mouth and tongue he nearly bolted from the be,  Who knew his knee caps would be an erogenous zone?

“OH! you are so not what I expected Nick.  Being here with you like this is absolute heaven, Nicky.  I want you inside me, please. Fuck me now, please.”

Turning me onto my stomach Nick's tongue began at my earlobe and licked and kissed my body until he reached my rounded butt cheeks.  I lightly nibbled and bit at his perfect little butt, hard, round and furry cheeks, making gooseflesh skitter across his rump.

Time had stopped for me, I had never felt any sensation come near feeling like I did with Nick readying my butt for his cock.   I do know that I will never, ever get enough of Nick Azzara.

Either minutes or maybe it was hours seemed to pass by and Nick flipped me onto my back and devoured my leaking cock.  As I neared ejaculation I tried to pull him up but Nick was a man on a mission.  He wants my cock and its semen inside him.  My climax was so big that it hurt.  

We dozed off and Nick woke with his substantial cock deep in my throat. Groping to feel the size of him I knew that I would have to sit on his cock again and very soon.

For reasons that I can't even guess, I have always preferred to bottom in the sex act.  I was taken by complete surprise when Nicky straddled my hips and slowly sat down on my sheathed cock.

My efforts to buck him off were unsuccessful no matter how much I bucked and thrust against my cock deep in his bowels.  After this, I may never bottom again.  “JEEZ  nothing has ever felt as good as my hard cock deep in his butt.”

Nick and I were glued together with the dried semen coating our bodies. My cell rang just as we were about to go back to sleep.

“Hello, Garrett.  Where have you been keeping yourself lately, we've begun to worry about you.”

“No nothing much to get excited about, here,” I said as I turned the sound on so Nick could hear as well.

Nick poked at my hip with his hardening cock, as I fought to keep from giggling.

We're calling to ask you to dinner.  It's been weeks since your Birthday dinner.  Can you come for Dinner at eight tonight.”

Looking over to Nick, he nodded is assent and I mentioned to Robert that I had some new gossip to let him in on as well.

Now Garrett, no need to keep us in suspense...what's up?”

Not until tonight Robbie (he hates it when anyone calls him Robbie)

“Now Garrett, be nice, see you at eight, Ta!”

“Now you've done it Nick said., you'll have to tell him about us now.”

“Telling them about you and me is the reason I said we'd come.  I would much prefer to lay here and take protein injections from you. “

“Okay then, we'll stay until 10, 10:30 at the latest and when we get home, you're getting the face down on the mattress treatment you gave me earlier.  Your chest on the mattress and your perfect little butt in the air.  JEEZ, Nick, I'm hard and leaking already I can't believe I need you so much and so soon."

  I know I can't say anything yet but Jeez I'm so absolutely crazy about him already.

We took a leisurely shower, enjoying the touch of each other's body. Once dried, we just stood there in the bedroom, naked and each holding the other tightly to him.

“I want more of you Nick, I want you in my bed tonight,  every night, I want to be with you every day.

A bashful little smile spread over Nick's beautiful face.

“I know Garrett, I love you too.”

Two steps and I was in his arms, lips, and tongue probing.

“You know?  How?  

“I've wanted to say that for a week at least, I've been biting my tongue afraid I would run you away.”

“Never, Garrett, I'll always run to you.  I love you. I love us !”

We took our time dressing and arrived at Robert and Gerald's condo at five until eight.

When the door opened there was a look of shock that crossed the faces of Robert and Gerald, his partner.  It only took a few seconds for the look of shock to become wide smiles from Robert and Gerald. Then change into to smiles of happiness and acceptance..

Chuckling to himself Robert said.

“Well, it's about damn time!  We had begun to think you two would never realize how good you will be  together.”

“Thanks to you two and that outrageous party stunt of yous.  We had our first real conversation that night and we've been dating since.”

“So how long have you been sleeping together?”  Robert asked,

Nick laughed, looked at his watch and said...

“four nights, 22 minutes, and 16 seconds.  But truthfully, there's only been 12 hours of sleeping during that time.

“Well, tonight will be your first meal at our table as a couple.

Gerald raised his glass...“A Toast to Nicholas and Garrett, may you live long, love long and prosper.”

“Thank you guys, you two are the first to know, we knew that you guys would be happy for us.”

“Now it will be your time to host a dinner party, Garrett.  Sometime soon. The others in our little group will be just as happy as Gerald and I for you.

Or is it Nicholas that cooks?  With that wonderfully renovated home of yours, the two of you and a dog or two should fill that place perfectly,”

The house is ready, all we need now is to move Nick's thing's into it.” Looking first to  Nick Garrett turned to Robert.  

 everyone over for dinner soon.  There are some lose ends at work to tie up but we will get things started soon.  Robert and Gerald, I'll need your help o... Please!  I've never planned a large dinner party and I wish to defer to the master here in getting things going.

We will need to make this party something very special.

This will be the first time that the eight of us will be partnered.  We're all partnered and happy with our chosen mates..

Nick showed off his cooking skills with a superb Standing Rib Roast and I prepared Baked Alaska for dessert

(With instructions from both Robert and Gerald)

Robert and Gerald lingered until the four of us were alone.

“Gerald and I are so very happy for the two of you we've been hoping that you two would realize what a terrific pairing you will make.  Our entire little group has tried to get each of you to open up and see the magnificent qualities the two of you together possess.  We will wait until your dinner party to announce your pairing to the group.

“OH...wait...dodon't leave just yet.”

Robert disappeared into the condo and came back with his cell and took a picture of Nick and I.  Now our little group is complete.  However, we are always on the lookout for like-minded friends.  We are eight very fortunate friends.

The End