I now knew not only that I was gay, but I preferred to bottom. Shagging Jack was great, but not as good as having a dick inside me. I even enjoyed Mr. Jennings. There were problems. I lived at home and wasn't out to my parents, yet, so I couldn't have guys at home. Sam was lovely, but lived the other side of town, and was also in the closet, so sex with him was nearly impossible.
There was a sauna in town, but I'd heard it was mostly old men in there. I joined a hook-up site. This solved the problem of getting fucked. As a young twink, I had plenty of offers. These were mostly of guys in their 20s and 30s. I set an upper age limit. Names were never exchanged. It was go to a house, get fucked, and leave.
The first time, I walked up and down the guy's road for ages, plucking up the courage. He couldn't have been nicer, realising how nervous I was and taking a lot of time with foreplay, kissing me and finding erogenous places I never knew I had. He was the first person to genuinely make love to me. He let me take control. We did it in every way possible. I stayed all evening and we came twice, once doggy, and later missionary, which I preferred as we could kiss. I change my profile to insist on kissing. I also went on PrEP. Saturday mornings were reserved for Jack and Emmanuel.
I started cruising and cottaging, but I found it too dangerous and degrading. I told myself that I'm worthy of something better than a shag in a public loo.
I still wanted a boyfriend. My saviour, I also met at college, through a friend of a friend, at an eighteenth birthday party. At the beginning, I felt like a spare prick at a wedding. After a few beers, a cute lad called Alex started chatting me up. He had dark, curly hair, about an inch taller than me, was 20, and out to his family, who didn't care.
We moved into the garden, and found some bushes to lay behind. We daren't get completely undressed, so dropped our pants and made out, kissing and sucking until we satisfied each other. He only lived down the road. So it was, we became boyfriends and lovers. I gave up the hook up site. Alex still allowed me to see Jack and Emmanuel, but it petered out as I fell in love.
And that's the end of my coming out story, I hope you enjoyed the read.
