I find myself taking care of business more and more every day. What I mean by that is the sex life with my wife has all dried up, unless you consider once in the last eight months a good thing.
So what's a man to do but watch porn and jack off, that's been good if you don't mind using your own hand.
What I have found is that it can only go so far before that it becomes boring. So you find that watching more and more porn fixes it but only for a short time.
One day while watching a hot red head getting fucked by two men I found myself looking more at the men and their hard cocks. Even though the woman was hot with her huge tits, nice ass and hot fuckable pussy.
What's that about? I wondered to myself as I continued watching them shove their cocks deep into her open and eager holes.
I finished bowing my load and going to sleep shortly after. When I woke up in the morning I remembered that I had one hell of a dream.
In short I had been sucking cock and just about the time he was going to fuck my ass my alarm clock woke me up. Yes I did have one hell of a hard cock, in fact it was harder than it had ever been in a long time.
I went through my normal day but I found my mind wandering off thinking about the dream that I had and my cock responding to that dream.
I finished my day and went home to the same old thing with no end in sight. She goes off to bed and I sit watching TV and eventually start watching porn.
But this time was a little different for me, instead of watching straight porn I started searching for gay porn.
I came across a treasure trove of men on men action but what I found more interesting was some of those videos were supposedly gay brainwashing videos. So yes being very intrigued about these types I watched one. I didn't get super aroused like I thought I might, in fact my cock stayed semi hard but not fully erect.
I finished watching and said quietly to myself, not like I thought it would be and went off to bed. I woke up the next day and had no dreams that I can remember.
I repeated this same thing for the next week, I would change up the gay brainwashing videos. Some more subdued, some more intense and aggressively gay. Never once did I jack off nor did my cock get raging hard. I finished what I thought was a joke, I mean come on, brainwashing is not a real thing at least I thought this at the present moment in time.
I went back after three weeks of watching nothing but gay brainwashing porn videos to regular straight porn.
As I watched my cock did not get hard, not even on the hottest scenes. I even had my hand fondling my balls and nothing ever happened. So disappointed I went off to bed and had the most intense dream I had since I started watching the brainwashing videos.
I was in a local bar having a drink or two watching the game when I saw a man that I looked at and found that he was very good looking. He came over and sat at the bar next to me, and said can you believe those idiots and the way they're not playing.
Yeah hard to believe I said back with a groan, my name is Steven he said as he held out his hand. I paused for a second and reached out my hand to grab his, good to meet you my name is Michael.
When I grabbed his hand my cock leaped like it had been shocked back to life.
I woke up suddenly and found that I had cummed in my underwear, what the fuck I mumbled as I cleaned myself up and threw my underwear in the dirty clothes.
I got into the shower and started to wash my body. I drifted off and was remembering my dream and the shock that caused me to wake up. When I came to my hand was jacking off my cock and two more seconds I was cumming blowing my sperm all over the shower wall.
Holy fuck, what just happened? I said as I finished shooting cum out of my still hard cock. My cock stayed hard unlike before where it would deflate quickly after a release. It took another five minutes for it to finally go limp and man did it kinda hurt after the fact.
What had happened? Was it the videos? Had they really worked? I finished showering, got dressed and went off to work.
I went through my day without any thoughts of my dream, no thought of my shower or anything else for that matter. I got home and did the normal except I watched no porn and after a bit went off to bed.
The dream I had was the same as last night except this time when we shook hands nothing happened but unlike last night the dream continued.
When I woke up I remembered my dream and what had happened. We shook hands and talked for a while, then a lot of blank spots only to remember that he had me bent over and was fucking my ass. I was moaning and had one hand on his ass cheeks pulling him deep into me and the other was jacking my cock.
There were no huge cum stains in my underwear this time but my cock had been definitely leaking a little pre cum.
Again I thought about the gay porn and the brainwashing videos that I had watched more than the others. I took my shower and then simply went off to work.
Today was a little different for me as I found myself looking more at the men I would come in contact with on my route making deliveries. When I say looking at them I was more looking at their bulges in their pants, and yes my cock was getting hard in the process of looking at them.
I couldn't help it as I was later on in the men's room at a local stores bathroom at one urinal by myself. I was fantasizing about the men I had seen and had to jack off. God I cummed what seemed like gallons, and found it hard not to moan loudly. Thank God I finished just in time as another man walked in and stood right next to me.
I zipped up and went to the sink to wash up and as I looked into the mirror I could see him clearly and his erect cock.
My mouth instantly started to water looking at him and I tried looking away but my eyes were fixed on his cock and how big it looked. I wanted nothing more at that moment than to suck him until his cum flowed into my eager mouth.
He must have known I was watching him as the water continued to come out of the tap and had been for the last thirty seconds or so.
He turned around and had his hard cock in his hand and just looked at me. I stared into the mirror watching him jack off his cock. I turned around and went over to him and took his cock into my hand taking over jacking his cock. I've had mine in my own hands more than I can count but having another man's cock in my hand was something totally different and hot. As I started to run my hand up and down his shaft we both heard the outside door open to the bathroom and I quickly stopped and we acted like we were both taking a piss.
The other man came in and went into one of the stalls, shit I thought as I wanted to see what would happen between me and the other guy. Before I could make eye contact with the stranger he left and disappeared into the store. I left within ten seconds of him hoping to catch the man but he had disappeared and I couldn't find him.
I finished my day thinking of that man, what I was doing with him and thinking about what might have happened if no one had come in.
I went to bed like normal after watching just regular tv and had no dreams that I can remember. Strangely I was thinking while in the shower, yesterday I had a strange man's cock in my hand getting ready to do what? Jack him off? Suck him? Maybe even let him penetrate my hole and fuck me?
Could I have even just imagined the whole thing that happened in the men's room yesterday. I mean after all I couldn't find him and I had been watching a lot of brainwashing videos for the last recent weeks.
So I simply had made up my mind that in fact that's what happened and videos just made me see something that just wasn't real or remotely possible.
For the next month I watched no porn at all and had no dreams of me with men or even women. So all of the brainwashing gay videos I watched simply did nothing just like I had thought. Just another way of promoting videos to the masses to get some cash or whatever.
I went off to work and was on the same route I had been on four weeks ago I guess. Of course I stopped into the same store and had to piss, I was almost done when in walked another man and stood next to me at the other urinal to piss.
I went to wash my hands and just happened to look in the mirror. It was the same man that I had seen before. He was standing there facing me with his hard cock in his hand jacking off.
Was I imagining this like last time? I stood there still watching him in the mirror. He smiled at me, while still stroking his hard cock. I kept watching as he stroked his cock which at this point had a nice stream of pre cum making its way to the floor.
I finally turned around, walked over to him, smiled and he kept jacking off. He reached out, grabbed my hand and put it around his cock, then slipped his other hand down the front of my pants and grabbed my hard cock and was jacking me off in my pants.
As we stroked each other right there in the middle of the men's room he leaned in for a kiss. As our lips met and our tongues probed each other's mouths, we both let out a moan of pure desire as both of our cocks released the cum from our balls.
Mine soaked into the fabric of my underwear and his covered my fingers as it splattered onto the floor.
He quickly pulled out his hand and licked my cum off of his hand and fingers. He then grabbed my hand and licked his cum off of fingers, put his cock away and left the men's room.
I left just as quickly as he did, we didn't even bother to clean up the cum left on the floor and I saw where he went.
He must be the manager of this place because he went behind the customer service counter, through the door and disappeared like last time.
Wow customer service was completely right I thought to myself as I headed out of the store and left .
So what had happened had to be attributed to the gay brainwashing videos. I mean how else can I explain why or what had happened to me, with me?
I wonder how deep does the rabbit hole go? How far is this thing going to take me? and if I keep watching these videos is it making me gay? Or have I been gay all along. Or is this the one thing that I needed to just make things more clearer of what I have always been, gay as a motherfucker.
I'll keep things on the down low for a while and see what is going to happen next if anything at all. For all I know this was a one and done situation and probably will never happen again.
