Battling My Sex Addicition

As someone who has struggled with sexual addiction throughout my life, I had always imagined that I would get a handle on it as I got older. Now that I am 35 I realized that being older doesn't give me any more control and I ended up making some extremely questionable decisions lately. This is the current situation I have gotten myself into, and I felt it necessary to share.

The last time I met with Arnold was a few weeks ago. He is a happily married man with children who eagerly feeds me his cum whenever possible. Although these meetings are few and far between, I’ve lately been able to start working remotely from time to time and he has paid me a visit every chance he had. I had contemplated not inviting him over the last time, as being a cum dumpster for a married man you met online is probably not the best idea. This  however didn’t matter as he was so excited that he was already parked down the block waiting for my “coast is clear” message. The dirty texts he sent me while he waited turned me on so much that I decided to leave it up to fate and flipped a coin. 

If it landed heads, I would give him head. If it landed tails, I would bail. After a best of 5 series I had taken a long swig of water while hitting send on my message. His reply was quick “Fuck Yes, coming in now”

As he worked the buttons of his shirt my hands quickly worked on unbuckling his pants and dropping them down to his ankles along with his tight briefs. He hadn’t kicked off his clothing before I was already moaning and seeing how deep I could fit him in my throat. Staring up at him he grabbed my face and slowly fucked it while he groaned with pleasure. My hand found my cock and I could feel it dripping with pre-cum while I stroked. As he pushed me back on the sofa he climbed on top of me and began to roughly fuck my face. Between my gags and gasps for airs I moaned heavily as I kept working on my cock. With my body being pushed flat I lifted my legs and knew my ass was reachable now. Without thinking I took my other hand off his leg and began rubbing my hole, moaning harder. When I looked at him his face was different, he seemed so serious and so lost in the moment.

Without warning he grabbed my arm and flipped me on the sofa. My knees on the bottom cushion, and my torso now hanging off the back. He positioned himself behind me and whispered that he wanted to fuck my ass over and over. Lost in a haze of lust I heard the words escape my mouth, “just fuck me.”

“What was that?” he responded slyly as he continued grinding his whole shaft against my hole. “Just fuck me. Do it.” I begged. I didn’t care about anything else at that moment, but instead of feeling the pressure of my virgin hole being taken he turned me around and said he couldn’t without a condom. Part of me was thrilled that I wasn’t going to get my ass fucked but my mouth kept bargaining. “I’m clean and I trust you.” But it wasn’t enough for him. He told me next time and placed his cock back in my mouth. 

After a few minutes of hard face fucking he let me know he was cumming, and I immediately felt his seed coat the back of my throat and it poured slightly into my mouth before I took a deep gulp. I begged him to keep fucking my face so I could cum and he had no issue with the request. He watched as long strands of white seed shot all over my stomach and chest from being used by his dick.

So that was the last time Arnold and I met. I have though long and hard about whether or not I want him to fuck me. But this week I am working from home and I let him know. He told me that he already bought condoms, and next time he will be prepared to take my man pussy. As nervous as I am, and as much as I feel like I shouldn’t go through with it, I have a feeling I won’t be able to prevent myself from letting him come over.

What do you think? Should I let Arnold claim my ass and become the dirty little cumslut I apparently have always been… or should I show maturity and growth and not feed my sexual addiction more than I already have?

If I see interest, maybe I'll share that experience too.