Under the weight of fear
The cave had become a sanctuary in the absence of home. That’s why Connor felt so at peace as he laid there near the fire next to Jamie. The light sounds of Jamie’s sleeping breaths soothed him in unexpected ways. The little drops of rain outside gave the illusion of being somewhere special.
He turned to his right and glanced at Jamie. He watched him carefully with special interest. Conner couldn’t help but admire the way Jamie looked so at peace in his slumber. The rise and fall of his chest, the softness of his lips, and the relaxed lines in his face just elevated the things Connor had hidden inside himself. He really did have these complicated and possibly unhinged feelings for Jamie.
He chuckled to himself. “Unhinged feelings.”
The sound of the free-falling rain slowed down. Connor closed his eyes, and then the sound of the rain was gone. The time floated by with him simply lost in a peaceful place he had created in his mind.
The sudden sound of a bird chirping disturbed his new world order. Connor opened his eyes and sat up. Through the opening, he could see the world and the sun. For the first time in a month, the rain had vanished.
“Jamie,” he called out.
He turned toward the man. He gently shook Jamie’s shoulder. The young lad stirred in his sleep.
“Jamie, wake up,” he insisted.
“No,” Jamie groaned.
“The rain…it’s gone,” he told him.
Jamie’s eyes quickly flew open. Sleep escaped him as fast as it had found him. His gorgeous dark eyes met Connor’s sparkling blues. Connor had this soft, friendly smile on his face. It was almost angelic. His golden curls hung slightly from his face. It was beautiful. It was odd for Jamie to see a guy in that sort of light.
“Were you watching me sleep?” Jamie asked softly.
Connor shrugged. “Maybe.”
Jamie chuckled lightly. “You like me real bad, don’t you, Connor McGill?”
Connor blushed. “Shut up, Jamie Robinson. Let’s go play in the sun.”
Connor then quickly leaned in and gave Jamie a quick peck on the lips. It was soft but highly effective at disarming the guy. It completely froze him.
Connor jumped up and sprinted out of the cave. Jamie sat there, lost for a moment or maybe two. He felt the place on his lips where Connor had kissed him. Considering all the crazy and wild things they had done together since arriving on the island, a soft peck shouldn’t have been alarming. Yet it was. That kiss was one from a place of comfort and safety. It was possible that the kiss meant that Connor had feelings for him.
“What is happening to me?” Jamie asked himself.
“Let’s go, lazy ass,” Connor shouted from outside the cave.
“Fuck you, Connor McGill,” Jamie shouted playfully. Playfully? He liked being playful with Connor. It made him feel excited inside.
The sound of the mighty waterfall echoed all around them. Jamie and Connor stripped out of their clothes, ran, and dived into the water. They swam toward the waterfall. Just behind the river of falling water was a carved opening. Jamie and Connor moved under the water and let it wash over their young bodies.
“Fucking cold,” Jamie shouted as he backed away.
Connor laughed and splashed him with some water. He smiled at him and shook his head. The two eventually ended up side by side, scrubbing water over their bodies with their bare asses out. Every so often, they stole a glance at each other. It was the cutest and simplest way to explore without crossing boundaries.
They both turned toward one another. Their eyes met, and the most beautiful thing happened. A connection was born. It was raw and magnetic. They openly explored one another with their eyes. Connor’s eyes scanned over every inch and muscle of Jamie’s gorgeous ebony body. From the way his chest rose and fell to the slight curve in his cock. Everything was magnificent.
Jamie’s eyes trailed the outline of Connor’s body. He burned every part of him into his memory. The way he openly admired the man scared him. He’d never thought something that was so taboo could feel so natural. Seeing another man’s cock in a sexual way made his heart race.
Connor’s cock dangled perfectly between his legs. The colors of red and white interchanged along the thick shaft. The feelings inside both of them were overwhelming. For Jamie in particular, it was daunting.
“It’s okay to look at me,” Connor said softly. He was afraid that his voice would ruin things, but he needed Jamie to know it was okay to see him.
Jamie’s eyes swelled. “How do you know that? How is any of this even possible?”
Connor stepped closer to him. As he closed the space, his heart skipped a beat. He kept his eyes focused on Jamie. He didn’t want to show any fear or nerves. He wanted to be the strong one for both of them.
“Jamie, I don’t have any answers that will make this easy for you. I just know what I feel. I’m trusting what I’ve always felt.” He held his hand out. “Give me your hand.”
Jamie hesitated. He looked at Connor’s hand with fear. Then he looked into those blue eyes, and they captured his fears. He placed his hand in Connor’s hand. The touch and feel of human flesh was warm and sensual. It tingled them both to be touched so gently and lovingly.
Connor took Jamie’s hand and lifted it toward his chest. Jamie watched nervously and hesitantly. His hand touched Connor’s heart, and he let out a single gasp. He could feel the beat of Connor’s heart against his hand. It was fast and almost erratic.
“That’s me being nervous and scared. Nervous, I don’t know what I’m doing, and scared that you’ll push me away. Jamie, I pretend to be brave around you all the time. You challenge me. Even when I don’t like you, I respect you. I always have and probably always will,” he confessed his deepest secrets.
Jamie removed his hand from Connor’s heart. A look of defeat and regret washed over Connor’s face. Jamie quickly took hold of his hand and leaped into the air, and then splashed down in the water. They broke the surface at the same time.
“Jamie, I’m gonna kill you,” Connor shouted.
Jamie quickly swam to the edge and climbed out of the water. Connor moved behind him. Jamie turned around and faced Connor. He looked at him with soft and sensual eyes that melted Connor’s core. Jamie allowed his body to do what came naturally. He leaned in toward Connor.
Their lips met with a kiss that burst with energy. Jamie ran his hands down Connor’s backside and onto his round ass. The feel of the muscle and fat ignited something inside of Jamie. He had to admit to himself that he wanted to touch him there since that day he made him submit. That night near the fire was the start of everything.
Connor wanted to scream for joy on the inside. He slid his hand down Jamie’s muscular back and then onto his perfect fat ass. His finger traveled down the wedge of his valley. He pressed his finger against Jamie’s tight ring. It pulsed against his digit and burned with heat.
They could feel the desire and passion rise in them. Their hearts began to beat a bit faster. This feeling of pure bliss wrapped itself around them. Connor’s cock twitched as it began to firm up and press against the man. Jamie could feel it press into his cock with unyielding power. They finally broke away from their kiss.
“I want to try something. Is that okay?” Jamie asked softly yet passionately.
“You can try anything you want,” he answered.
They found themselves in the center of the lush island. Jamie had Connor flat on his back. They were fully erect and desperate for each other. Jamie laid his body on top of Connor. His hard cock made contact with Connor’s erection. Jamie grind his hips slowly and rolled his body. Their cock’s pressed into one another. As they moved together frotting, the sensual act sent pleasure coursing through them. The heat from their bodies was like a slow dancing flame.
“Your body feels so warm,” Jamie confessed.
Connor smiled and said, “Less talk and more contact.”
Their balls touched and pressed into one another. It sent tingles of all sorts through them. The sound of their bodies rubbing against one another and sweet kisses filled their ears with joy. Connor rolled his tongue around in Jamie’s mouth. They both leaked precum like a dripping faucet. The movements of their bodies increased as the pressure and pleasure built inside them.
The head of Jamie dick grazed the head of Connor’s. You could hear Connor moaning in Jamie's mouth. Jamie began to work his hip as if he were fucking the man. He drove his cock harder into Connor’s cock. Connor ran his hand down Jamie's back. His touch gave Jamie chills all over his body.
Connor’s thick hand fell onto Jamie’s soft ass. His index finger slid inside his cheeks and touched his moist hole. That touch felt sensational. Jamie pushed his ass back against the finger. He’d never been touched there before. The feeling sent him reeling. He wanted more of it. Connor pressed harder against the wrinkled flesh of Jamie’s rosebud. He ran his finger across it and around, over and over. He could feel that tight pucker begin to puff. He pushed his digit against it, and his finger slid inside Jamie’s warmth.
A loud moan escaped from Jamie. His hole clamped around Connor’s finger. It was like Connor’s finger was inside an inferno. Jamie’s insides were hot and wet. They were dying to spread like butter.
Jamie moved his body faster and faster. He humped away as Connor dug and twisted his finger inside of him. His body wanted more, and Connor could tell. The golden-haired stud inserted a second finger inside of him. Connor twisted and turned his fingers. They pressed against the prostate, and Jamie ejaculated all over him. He completely covered Connor’s chest in his hot white cum.
“Holy shit,” Jamie cried like a delirious person.
Connor grinned, “Sit on my face, Jamie Robinson.”
How could he not? He quickly straddled Connor’s face, and he felt that thick tongue slide against his puffy hole. Jamie spread his cheeks, and Connor started to munch on his chocolate hole. His tongue pushed inside of Jamie’s hot box.
Connor began to stroke his fat cock as he ate Jamie out. His erection turned red from all the pressure, pleasure, and performance. It throbbed like an insane beast ready to explode.
Jamie’s eyes landed on it. He felt this overwhelming urge to taste the man. So many lines had already been crossed. It seemed only fair to cross another one. Jamie leaned down and flicked his tongue across Connor’s slit. The taste of the stud’s clear fluids sent Jamie’s eyes rolling. He rolled his tongue around the head before engulfing the fat mushroom gland. Connor let out a deep moan.
He stroked his shaft harder and faster. His tongue lapped against Jamie’s pucker faster. The man gave his swollen member a tight squeeze at the base just as Jamie nibbled on the head. Connor let out a sexy roar, and then he blasted cum deep inside of Jamie’s mouth.
Jamie coughed as he tried to swallow down all of Connor’s cum. He rolled off him and landed in the grass. They glanced at one another awkwardly. Then they broke out into giggles like two people discovering life and crushes for the first time ever.
“Are you okay?” Connor asked.
Jamie sighed. “I think so. Are you?”
“Yeah,” he answered. “Any regrets?”
Jamie pondered briefly, and then he answered. “Only one.”
“Oh.” Connor sounded wounded by the admission. He’d hoped that Jamie wouldn’t have any regrets about what they had just done.
His eyes dropped from Jamie’s. Jamie reached out and touched his face. He stroked it lovingly. Connor’s eyes moved back up to Jamie’s eyes.
“My one regret is that we didn’t do that sooner,” he said sincerely. He meant every word of it. Connor had changed him. He
Connor’s eyes lit up. His lips curved, and his cheeks touched his eyes with his bright smile. He pulled Jamie close, and their lips touched again. They kissed without worry and fear because, let’s be honest, under the weight of fear are the best things in life!
TO BE CONTINUED
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