I'm gonna share what happened to me last tonight. So if there are others in my same situation, they can liberate themselves as I have.
My best friend Alan ... I told him that my Bob stopped having sex with me. So, Alan started giving me sex presents. The first gift was a glass dildo, curved and in a velvet bag. Next was this rubber shaft to put on your dick and it vibrated along with a tube leading to a rubber sort of pillow at the end it to put up my butt, Breath. (okay I poured another drink Haha!) and a vibrating dildo. None of which I had touched over the years ... until last tonight.
I wrote a story today that goes up tomorrow on GayDemon. Writing it made me so horny and guilty at the same time. I watched some videos on GayDemon. I kept touching my cock through my underwear. I was f-ing horny.
So, I get this idea, I laid out all the toys Alan had given me and I got my Astro lube out. I laid out a towel on my bed. I lubed the cuff thing up and put my cock in it and it started to vibrate. WOW! Then stuck the vibrating rubber pillow thing in my tight hole. Holy crap! It felt so good. I keep eyeing the glass dildo. Kept saying no way. I kept looking at it. 8 or 9 inch long glass curved dildo. NO! Then I said to myself ... Stop stopping yourself! So, I made another drink. I lubed it up and glided up my tight waiting hole. Oh My god. It fit! It felt so good I started banging my hole. I took all 8 inches of it. Holy crap on a cracker! I loved it.
I pushed in and out as I fucked myself. Also, I kept watching Gaydemon vids, the anal one.
And I came. I came so hard I felt sixteen again and I kept telling myself, I don't have to feel guilty. I am sad Bob died but now I felt I could live again. I could take control of my life. I thank all of you reading this especially my new friends on Gaydemon Thoth and Dragan. I'm gonna go to bed now. I drank way too much tonight but I am very proud of myself. I hope y'all understand. Life must go on.
