My Realisation: Chapter 3

Needless to say, we both stopped talking to each other for a whole two days. Gosh, that feeling of not talking to him made me so mad. Mad at my dad for ruining our relationship. For the first day I didn't go to school for the fear of being alone. There I was in the bed, thinking about my sexuality. I always thought I was straight and loved women, but why was I getting hard watching two males fuck. This question piqued my interest and now I was searching on my laptop about gays and reading experiences of different gays (just like you). One website took me directly to gay sex videos where I saw a black man having a rough sex with a white man. This turned me off. This was my first time watching porn in like 17 years!

I was so busy off with school and sports that I didn't have time to date girls was always what I thought. Or was it because I was not interested in girls for the first place? Anyways, back to the story. I accidentally clicked on another video of two males,one white and another asian, having a slow and passionate sex, filled with kisses to each other and "I love you". I was not only turned on by this but I had a dry orgasm!! There was suddenly a rush of pleasure in my blood and all I could think of was having a male partner to experience this sex. Gosh was I super embarrassed of this. This was kind of when I realised that I was into men. I am using kind of since I wasn't sure and didn't want to conclude just based on seeing sex videos.

The second day my dad dragged me to school. I was in no mood. How was I suppose to face Adam after this awkward situation? How was I suppose to start a conversation? How was I suppose to tell my jock friends that I am not Nathan and I am an Indian American? When lunch came around, I really went to the old gymnasium which was opposite the ground and no one used to visit this place. There I can eat peacefully was what I thought. But turns out someone was having sex. Clearly a girl and boy moaning. Being alone was such a bad feeling. Having no friends hits hard guys. I was there and eating my lunch hearing this couple have sex and moaning like crazy. I completed my lunch fast and now I headed to my class. Somewhere later that night, I received his message. I jumped up instantly.

Adam- Hey

Me- Hi

Adam - Wanna meet up and talk?

Me- Sure. Thank God you texted me Adam.

Adam- pulling up your house in 5.

There I was getting ready and he pick me up. He asked me where to go and I told him to sit in a nearby park. Before I could tell him anything he started," I am so sorry Ryu. This situation has been so awkward to both of us. Actually day before yesterday I spoke to my dad and he told his side of the story. That night he saw mom cheating on some other guy and he was furious. He wanted to take his revenge because of which he was now going to fuck someone. He already had an offer in hand from my dad. Your dad's big butt apparently attracted my dad. Not only my dad, but half of this entire town is so attracted to your dad's bubble." I was shocked to hear this. Not only my friend told me his dad's circumstances but also about my dad being so attractive. I really am clueless and so fucking stupid. I yet apologized for my dad's action and I was close to tears. I started," You know, without you, today was so boring. I just wanted to talk to you. But I didn't know with what face should I." He said," I wanted to talk to you in school today but you ran before I could come to your class." (Basically he is two years elder to me and was my senior). After clearing up our understanding we went for a hug. Gosh, that smell of him!! That musky scent was making me loose my mind. Our hug was a tight one and he was not ready to let me go. Suddenly we both were now looking eye to eye and he was coming closer to my face. Gosh that was my tipping point. My nut busted and I was clearly devoid of any thoughts. My pant was leaking on a park bench!! There I was like a stone and he kissed me a little. I didn't respond to his kiss, but neither went back. He took that as a sign and now started going for a deep kiss. I moved back. We were both looking each other in the eyes. Oh god, how hot he was. His eyes told he clearly wanted more. I interrupted," Do you like me? Are you gay? Where do we stand?" But he remained silent. He then said- "let's back to the car. It's getting late." My legs were not able to get up and he offered to give me a piggyback ride. There I was, on his back looking at him and smelling his musky scent. God, I was going so crazy. Just then he opened the door and gently put me in the seat and my eyes were on him all the time. Is he my destiny? Is he who I am dating? And just as he was tying my seatbelt I got up and kissed him up his lips. He was taken aback. "You are so hot", he whispered under his breath. Here our kiss was going all crazy and he quickly sat in the car. I broke the kiss and put my hands between our lips as I turned away. I was clearly blushing. But he removed my hands and just started kissing me again. Gosh now I can't hold myself back!!

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