Teen Memories

There was a time in my teens where I was confused about my sexuality. This was because I was playing with both girls and a guy.  The girls I played with would let you finger them, they might stoke your dick but in the late 1960's there was no sucking.  You could finger them, suck their tits but that was it.  I liked playing with her tits, fingering her and kissing her.  I did not see a contradiction with playing with her and playing with Jimmy. They were two totally separate events. The truth is that Jimmy was easier because when we got together we would just drop our pants and jerk off.

I spent the year playing with Jimmy, an older guy that I had knew. We started off jerking off ourselves to pictures of nude women. A short time later he took hold of my cock and jerked it and encouraged me to do him. For the next 6 months we would meet once a week drop our pants and jerk off to completion. Naturally during this time I was jerking off three four times a day besides that.  Most times thinking about what I saw as he jerked off his cock.  The thing I realized with Jimmy was, he know I wanted to cum.  A guy knows that about a guy.  My girlfriend didn't know how to hold it, stoke it or make me cum.  One time I came and she said - eewww.

I did not see a contradiction with playing with her and playing with Jimmy. They were two totally separate events. The truth is that Jimmy was easier because when we got together we would just drop our pants and jerk off.

One day about six or eight months after we started jerking each other off he asked me if it was okay for him to suck on my dick. I had no idea what it would feel like because this will be the first time. Well it was fantastic and I was immediately close to cumming. I told him I was close and he just took hold of my balls bobbed his head up and down faster and sucked me dry.  That was one of my most powerful orgasms I ever had.

The thing that I always enjoyed about Jimmy was that he never forced me to do anything I didn't want to do. He asked me if I wanted to suck him off and I said no but I finish him off with my hand. He said fine and that was our new procedure for about 4 months. One day, after he had sucked me off I leaned over and put his cock in my mouth for the first time. He asked me if I was sure because I didn't have to do it if I didn't want to do it. I said I was fine but please don't come in my mouth. I proceeded to do to him what he used to do to me and he told me how good it was and that when he got close he said so. I then proceeded finish him by hand a strong conclusion. We proceeded to do that for the next 3 years. He was okay with me not taking a load and I was okay with everything he did to me.

I never thought about it as gay because it was not an emotional attachment to Jimmy just physical. We never kissed, never hugged - everything was penis focused.  I also resolved in my own mind that having the fun of mutual penis play was not getting in the way love my fun with girls and proceeded to do both.

I was also completely stealth about my activities.  No one ever knew not even to this day. I enjoy still some m2m and it is one of my great pleasures.  The labels attached to people today are for others - I do not care what it is called.  I liked playing with another penis, still do and it is only my business - no one else's.