Coming Out: An after-school job leads to a sexual awakening

I wake up Sunday morning before Sebastian does. During the night, his arm ended up draped around my waist. My cock is hard, as it is most mornings. 

I roll over to be face to face with Sebastian. I quietly run my hand down his chest and replay last night’s events in my mind. My hand reaches his pubes and finds his cock is hard as well. I slowly stroke it and wonder what it would be like to have Sebastian fuck me. 

Sebastian lets out a low moan. He opens his eyes and looks at me. “Good morning, Matt,” he says. “What are you doing?” 

I smile and say I wanted to wake him up. “Interesting choice in how to do that,” he says. “I’m hard now.” 

I reply that he was hard before I started. I keep stroking and look at him mischievously. “I have a thought about something we could do this morning.” 

“And, why do I have a feeling that your idea involves what you’re playing with?” Sebastian asks. “Last night wasn’t enough?”

I rub my thumb across his cock head, smearing pre-cum over it. “Of course, it does. I know I’m pushing it, but we are both hard. Plus, it doesn’t involve licking your feet again.”

He asks what my idea is.

“Would you… Well, umm.” I keep caressing his dick as I work up the courage to say it. “I’d like you to… to fuck me. I know you won’t be into it, but I want to know what it’s like when it’s not someone who is just using me.”

Sebastian pulls my hand away from his dick and turns serious. 

“You’re right. That isn’t something I’d really want to do, although I was surprised you didn’t pursue it last night. But right now, I’m more worried about what’s going on with you. What did you mean by what you just said?”

I run my hand up Sebastian’s arm. “I shouldn’t have said that. But would you fuck me?”

Sebastian replies, “Matt, has Chris fucked you? Has anyone else fucked you and you felt used?”

I stammer and nod. Sebastian sighs and maintains his look of concern. 

“If we’re going to have sex, I have non-negotiable demands. First, you have to come clean about everything that has been going on with you. Everything. Second, you’re talking to my uncle. My dad told me before they left for New York that he’s coming for Christmas. Third, we’re going to try to find you some gay friends. I don’t know where or how, but we are. You can’t be the only gay kid in Grand Valley. Do you agree?”

I’m somewhat relieved. 

I’ve wanted to unburden myself about what’s been going on. I also know I should talk to someone just about my sexuality who understands. Friends would be great, too. Plus, it sounds like Sebastian just agreed to a morning fuck session. Yes! 

“OK. I know you’re right. I’ll do all that. So…?” I ask while flashing a flirtatious smile at him. 

“You want that?” Sebastian asks. “Wouldn’t you prefer someone who is passionate about you and passionate about having sex with you? I don’t really fit that equation, Matt.”

I roll over on top of him and straddle his thighs. The covers falls down around our legs.

He doesn’t stop me from doing that so I start playing with his dick again. “I don’t disagree with you, but… Who is that? That could be years from now. So, yeah, I really want to. We’re both horny. I need to get off. Your dick is telling me you want to get off. Come on, Sebastian. Let’s do it.”

Looking at me stroke his large cock, he adds: “Isn’t it going to be painful? I don’t want to hurt you.” 

I keep playing with his dick. “Oh, it’s going to hurt, at least at first. But it will be worth it.” I give him another flirtatious smile. 

Sebastian shakes his head and runs a hand over one of my thighs, saying, “I feel like I’m becoming your sex toy.” 

I laugh and reply: “You started this! It was you saying how much you needed a blowjob and put this enormous piece of meat in my almost-virgin mouth!” I pull his hard cock backwards between his legs and let go so it snaps against his stomach with a thud. Some pre-cum goes flying and splatters near his navel.

“OK. OK. You win. Can I at least get up and pee first? And, why don’t you call home and ask about staying through lunch? We don’t want your mom to worry about her saintly little boy. You can fill her in on how much fun you had last night. I’d recommend leaving out the details, though.” 

I’m sitting on the sofa in the Tzortzis’ living room naked talking on the phone when Sebastian walks out in a pair of gym shorts. I look at him and smile as I finish my conversation and hang up. 

“We’re good for the rest of the day. She told me that she’s glad I’m having so much fun.”

Sebastian pulls me up off the sofa and leads me back to his bedroom. We stand for a moment at the end of his bed. I run my hands over his chest and play with his nipples before tracing a finger over his treasure trail down to the waist band of his shorts. 

I begin to drop to my knees, but Sebastian stops me. 

He grips my cock and begins stroking me. His touch is electrifying and sends a shiver down my spine. I let out a gasp, and my cock jumps to attention and quickly hardens again. Sebastian pushes me down onto the bed, but remains standing there. I lift myself to my elbows to look at him. 

He locks eyes with me and lowers his shorts.

I’m in awe every time I look at his body. As he pulls the shorts off, his dark pubes first peak out, then the top of his large shaft. Then, the entire cock into view. Already engorged, it pulses into an erection. Sebastian has a big, thick penis with a bigger head. With it now erect, I see his large nuts hanging in their sac. He lets the shorts fall down over his athletic, hairy legs. 

I run my tongue across my lips and make a mischievous grin. “Nice!”

Sebastian laughs and climb atop me, straddling my thighs. He takes our cocks together and begins jointly stroking them. 

“So,” he starts. “I’m the virgin at this. It must be somewhat different than fucking a pussy. Tell me how to best do this.”

“Some lube would be good. We need to lube your cock and my hole,” I say. 

“Lube. We have that. There is KY in my nightstand. It can come in handy with girls, too, and I like to use it to jerk off,” he replies. 

I continue: “Then, you need to let me relax my ass muscles and push in when I tell you. Go slowly. And, yeah, it’s going to hurt. But don’t pull out. Let me adjust and then push deeper. When you’re in far enough in and I’m ready, begin fucking me.”  

“Got it. Do you want to be on your back? Do you want to start doggie style? Do you want to sit on it?” Sebastian asks.

“Can we start with me on my back? I want to look at you as you enter me,” I reply. 

Sebastian: “Of course. Anything else I need to know?”

"Just… Thank you,” I say. 

Sebastian continued to stroke our dicks together as we talked. It felt so amazing to have mine pressed against his. He now stops and begins playing with my nuts. 

“Isn’t that pretty gay for you?” I ask sarcastically. 

Sebastian gives me a dirty look and asks, “Do you want me to stop?” 

I reply, “Absolutely not.” 

He laughs and continues to fondle me, adding, “I’m about to put my dick up a guy’s ass. Now, that’s pretty gay. I decided I should just go with the flow this morning. You have a nice body, Matt. And a good personality. Some guy some day will be lucky to have you.”

He’s gently rolling and massaging my balls. I’m overwhelmed with pleasure from being touched like that. He lightly runs his fingers up and down the sides of my body and then plays with my nipples, pinching and twisting them like I did his last night. I squirm underneath him and let out a deep sigh. 

I eventually come out of the trance that Sebastian’s touching has put me in. “Let me get you ready,” I say. “Let me suck your dick.” 

Sebastian rolls off of me and lies on his back. “Lie the opposite way to me, Matt,” he says. I do as he suggests and lie with my head at his groin and my groin near his head.

I run my hand over his thick dark pubes and grip his dick. I lick it from the base to the head repeatedly and then switch to circling just the head with my tongue. Of all the cocks I’ve sucked in the past month, Sebastian’s remains my favorite by far. With my free hands, I fondle his nuts and rub his thighs. 

Sebastian, meanwhile, is slowly stroking my dick, occasionally running his fingers over the head and fondling my balls. I never thought he’d do that. Having someone else play with my genitals is beyond incredible. Sure, Ryan and Chris both jerked off my dick, but they did that as part of control, not to pleasure me even though it did.

I re-position myself and begin sucking Sebastian’s dick. He lets out a deep sigh. “Oh, fuck… That feels so good, Matt.”

At some point, he must have laid his tube of lube on the bed. Sebastian puts a large dollop on his fingers. I raise one leg up to give him better access to my asshole. I feel the wetness of the lube as he smears it around my sphincter and presses his forefinger inside me. 

He has pushed in to the first joint of his finger when he stops and asks if I’m OK. I mumble yes as I keep sucking his cock. He pushes his finger in deeper, playing with my hole as he lubes it. He pulls the finger out and presses two fingers against it. He again stops and asks if I’m OK. I grunt in the affirmative and deep-throat his cock. He pushes the two fingers in with the lube and works my hole as I relax its muscles. 

I ask him to hand me the lube. I take it and coat his cock. 

“You ready?” I ask. 

Sebastian laughs, “Yeah, I’m hard. The question is whether you’re ready.”

“I can’t wait.”

I take a pillow and push it under my ass to lift it up some so Sebastian has a better angle. I spread my legs apart and raise them as Sebastian positions himself between them. 

He takes hold of his cock and plants the head at the entrance of my asshole. I tell him I’m going to take a deep breath and to push in as I exhale. As I release my breath, I feel the head of Sebastian’s cock press my hole open and enter my body. 

The cock head and about the first inch of its shaft are now buried in me. I gasp and flinch, adjusting to the invasion. I grip Sebastian’s wrists tightly in my hands, stare into his eyes and then let out a long “Oh, God!” 

He asks how I’m doing. I tell him to keep going. He pulls back slightly and then pushes forward until more than half his 8-inch cock is impaled inside me. I take a couple deep breaths and try to relax more. I stare into his brown eyes and say, “Please, fuck me!”

Sebastian leans forward. My legs are wrapped around his chest. We’re almost face to face. I notice the stubble that has grown overnight. I run my hands through his curly hair as he starts work on my ass. 

They are slow thrusts. 

Sebastian pushes himself in deep, eliciting a loud moan from me. He pulls his cock back and thrusts forward again with the same slow speed. I release another loud moan and run my hands down his back. A third time. The same speed. Another moan from me. 

“Your ass is so tight, Matt. It feels so good,” Sebastian says. 

He picks up the pace slightly, but keeps the same rhythm. It’s like he’s trying to ensure we each get the maximum pleasure possible from each thrust. This isn’t the hard-core fucking that I received from the other guys I’ve been with. Sebastian and I are having sex … together … with each other. 

As he continues, Sebastian leans down and begins nibbling my neck. I whimper, tighten my legs around him and rub my hands over his arms and chest. He then locks lips with me. 

It is definitely unexpected. We kiss amid the steady pace of his thrusts. Sebastian’s tongue is now inside my mouth and mine in his. It’s the first time I’ve ever french-kissed someone. I love it. 

“Enjoying this?” Sebastian asks. I moan in response. 

It seems like an eternity as he fucks me like this. Eventually, he stops, grabs my ankles and pushes my legs forward so they rest on his shoulders. He pulls his cock backward and thrusts quickly into me for the first time. He is fucking at a faster pace. 

I let out a loud cry at the stimulation of the nerves in my ass and the grinding against my prostate. My breath is irregular as waves of pleasure run through me. I grip the bedsheets tightly as my body quivers with each thrust. 

“Don’t stop. Fuck me! Fuck me more!” I manage to say. I’m worried Sebastian might mistake the sounds coming from my mouth as signs of pain rather than pleasure. 

I squeeze the muscles in my sphincter around his cock to get even more sensation. I’m in shear ecstasy at the what Sebastian is doing to my ass.

Sebastian slows. 

He lets go of one leg and moves himself to more of an upright position on his knees. He is still fucking me, using his hips to thrust forward. But he takes the leg he still is holding by the ankle and repositions it so my foot is in front of his mouth.

“What are you doing?” I ask, quickly suspecting his intentions. 

He smirks and runs his tongue across his lips. I gasp and scream, “No! Don’t!” I’m in no position to argue. Sebastian is still pumping his cock in my ass and has a firm grasp on my ankle. 

“You wanted to discover if my feet were ticklish last night. Let’s see if yours are,” he says. He runs his tongue over and over the sole of my foot as he slow-fucks my ass. 

It was a good guess by him. My feet are very ticklish. 

I burst out in laughter and am wreathing in anguish over the flicks of his tongue. As a result, my ass is moving around and his cock is hitting my insides in different places, at different angles and in different ways. 

“Sebastian! Oh God. Oh God. No. Please.” He smiles and gives my foot one last lick. 

He lets go of my leg and leans back over on top of me. My legs are wrapped again around his waist. He returns to the original slow, rhythmic fuck and begins kissing me again.  

I lose myself in the pleasure of it all until he speaks up. 

“Want to try something different?” he asks. I nod yes. He stops fucking. With his cock still buried inside me, he grabs my body and rolls us over. He is now on his back, and I’m straddling his pelvis while impaled on his dick. 

I sit atop Sebastian for a moment getting adjusted to the new situation. He runs his hands up my hairless chest and strokes my dick. “Go for it, Matt. You’re in charge now.” He winks at me with a smirk and adds, “You can fuck yourself.” We laugh. 

I rise up slowly on my knees. I feel his cock and my ass rub against each other as I continue to lift myself up until just the head remains in me. I then push myself back down onto his dick, feeling my asshole tug and stretch around his shaft as it re-penetrates me. 

“Oh, fuck!” I scream. I ride up and down on his huge pole, taking it deep into my body. My own cock is bouncing up and down. Sebastian figures out my rhythm and begins to buck his hips in tandem to my movements. 

Riding his dick is intense. I finally need a breather, and I don’t want either of us to cum yet. I pull off of his dick, roll next to him and begin kissing him. My hands run over his sweaty body. Our cocks are pressed together, and our legs intertwined. 

After we’ve kissed for a while, Sebastian asks, “More?” 

“Yes,” I say. “Want to fuck me from behind?” 

I place myself onto my knees and elbows. Sebastian grabs the lube and applies more of it to his dick. He positions himself behind me. He runs his hands over my smooth ass cheeks. 

“Harder this time?” he asks. 

“Yes!” I reply. “Hard!”

Sebastian grabs my hips and pushes his cock back inside me. He pulls almost out and then thrusts forward until his pelvis hit my ass cheeks. 

“Oh, fuck. Fuck, yes!” I yell. 

The mattress is squeaking as he continues this new fast-paced, forceful penetration of me. I’m letting out a stream of grunts and am also moaning his name. Sebastian is panting behind me. 

He leans forward and says, “I’m close, Matt. Where do you want me to shoot?” 

I’m torn between swallowing it and taking it up my ass. I make my choice. 

“Shoot it in my ass,” I tell him. 

There are three or four more deep thrusts into me. I feel his body shudder behind me. He lets out a loud grunt. Warm cum fills my hole over and over. 

Sebastian pulls his deflating cock out. He looks in amazement at my hairless gaping hole and runs a finger around and then inside the entrance, smearing into my skin some of his cum that is beginning to dribble out. 

He drops next to me on his back. “Oh, man. That was so hot,” he says. 

I roll over onto my back as well. “I won’t ever forget it, Sebastian.” I reply. 

I haven’t gotten off and begin stroking my hard cock. Sebastian stops me. He picks up the tube of lube and squeezes some into his palm. He takes hold of my dick and starts lightly jerking me off. At the same time, he leans over and we kiss. 

I’ve only jerked off by pumping my dick’s shaft with a hard grip of my hand. The feel of this is so different with his hand sliding slightly and easily over the head and shaft. It’s intense. Within minutes, I buck my hips upward and fire a massive load that coats my chest. We rest silently for a while. 

I finally speak. “Sebastian, that was so amazing. You were so amazing. You really did show me what sex should be like.”

He responds: “I enjoyed it, too. I would have never thought that I would, but I really got into it. I did things I never thought I’d do,” He pauses and adds, “You’ve said you weren’t sure if you’re gay. Are you any more sure?”

“Yeah,” I say. “I don’t have doubts anymore nor do I see how I just could bury them inside me. That’s been a growing realization, but this weekend opened my eyes even more.” 

I look at him and pause. “What about you? Has this changed anything for you?” I have hopes for his answer.

Sebastian smiles, but shakes his head no. “I’m not going to lie, Matt. I’ve definitely enjoyed it, but no.” 

He tells me how he asked a lot of questions a couple years ago when his uncle came out to him and his family and that his uncle sent him a clipping about Kinsey and sexual research saying people fall in a spectrum of straight to gay. 

“I wouldn’t have thought this before, but maybe you’ve shown me that I’m a 3 or so. To me, this was fun. A lot of fun with a special friend. But I know inside what I like. I’m not into what we did with passion you have.”

I ask, “What about the kissing?”

Sebastian runs a hand across my face. “It felt right at the moment. What we were doing was so intense and intimate. But it also showed me the difference. I saw in you that electrification that I’ve felt when I’ve kissed a girl at a moment like that. I didn’t feel it myself, though. Are we cool? Friends?”  

I nod and say yes. We shower and dress. It’s after noon. We decide to go to Hamburger Hut, a sit-down burger place that also has pool tables, for lunch. 

We shoot some pool and order hamburgers. Sebastian reminds me of my promises. “OK,” he says. “Out with it. Tell me everything.”

I tell him how Chris played me into giving him the first blowjob, which then led to my blowjob with him. Sebastian grimaces at his complicity, but I remind him that he didn’t force himself on me and that I had said I wanted to do it. He says he still feels bad about having any part in Chris’ manipulations.

I talk about Chris pimping me out to Reggie and Grant, the other blowjobs he demanded and then what happened with Stephanie and how Chris got mad and it led to him forcing me to have sex with Ryan and Andrew followed by him spanking me and a three-way with Chris and a reluctant Shawn. I end with the tale of the sex session with Reggie and his younger brother, a situation that occurred because I owed him a favor for using lube instead of fucking me raw.

“I just don’t know how I ended up in this position,” I add. “I guess I consented to it all, and I loved a lot of it. But it still leaves me feeling used and manipulated.”  

Sebastian is furious. 

“I knew Chris was a jerk, but I never would have imagined this,” he said. “This needs to end, and these guys need their own comeuppance. We need to figure that out.”

He says he is now really glad that Chris has been suspended and that he is assigned to my store. “I don’t like seeing people hurt or taken advantage of, and they did that to you,” he said.  

Sebastian then asks about Shawn and how I said he came out to me. “Why isn’t he a start of something for you? You agreed with me that you should find gay friends. He could be a friend. Or maybe he could be more. Why don’t you ask him out?”

I’m at a loss for words. “Like a date? How do I do that?”

“You tell him you’d like to go out!” Sebastian says. “Ask him to a movie or ask him to go for pizza. Geez. Do you really need me to explain this to you?”

“I don’t know. Won’t people talk?” I ask. 

Sebastian: “Why would they? You and I went out for pizza. I didn’t say to make out with him in the middle of the restaurant. I would advise against that. This is Grand Valley.”

I say I’ll think about it. 

Sebastian hugs me as we walk to his car in the parking lot and tells me it will be OK. As he drops me off at my house, I feel that my life is no longer spiraling out of control. What a weekend!