Give me a Chance

Chance

I was really glad that Ben was in my chemistry class, he smiled as I sat beside him. I caught a glimpse of Joel, he gave me a look as he sat on the other side of the room. I knew we would need to choose lab partners and Joel and I hadn’t been getting along the best, he was still upset that I had taken an interest in Ben. Ben looked really good after the summer break, he had a nice tan, and I wasn’t sure, but I thought his eyes had gotten even more brown. He was still shy, I wished he could look me in the eye so I could see them sparkle when he smiles. I was glad that he accepted my invitation to be lab partners.

I was also happy to see him in my gym class, I was finally going to get a chance to see his naked body. He changed so quickly at the start of class I didn’t get a chance and then coach split us football players off from the rest of the class. By the time I got undressed to shower, I turned to see that he was already in the shower, then I walked around the corner and saw Derick was up to old tricks, the prick. When I yelled at him and grabbed Ben’s towel, I was shocked to see how big Ben was. The guy was just a little over 5’ tall but he has at least a 6” cock when soft, it hung halfway down his leg to his knee. He was thick too, and to my surprise, he was uncut. I had seen uncut cocks in porn but never seen one in person, it was beautiful. But the best part of the whole situation was the look on Derick’s face, and when the rest of the guys started to laugh, it made it all the better. As Ben left the shower I took a good look at his ass, I was right, it was covered with a coat of dark fur, God it was sexy. I had to make my shower quick so that I could cover my own cock, if I didn’t concentrate on something else it would start to swell, just thinking about Ben. I always looked forward to gym class, just to get quick looks at Ben. Coach kept us football players separate from the rest of the guys, we would lift weights one day and run drills the next. I noticed Ben would run the track on the days we had weights and he would lift weights on the days we did drills. I wasn’t sure but I think Ben was putting on some muscle and his chest and arms were starting to show some definition.

A few weeks after school had started, I was finishing getting dress after practice when Joel was waiting for me outside the door.

“Hey Chance, you want a ride home?”

“Sure Joel.”

We got in his car and headed for my house in awkward silence. Finally, Joel spoke up, “so what is the deal with you and that Ben kid?”

“I don’t know Joel, he is a nice guy, he needs a friend. Why do you care anyway?”

“Shit, I don’t know, you just don’t seem to have time to hang out with me anymore.”

“Gee Joel, I didn’t know you wanted to hang out with me anymore.”

“We have been friends since jr. high, why wouldn’t I want to hang out?”

“You got so freaked out when I came out to my dad, I just thought you wouldn’t want to be seen with me. If it ever got out that you were hanging with a gay guy you would be upset, so I just figured I would leave you alone.”

“I still want to be your friend.”

“I know and I want to be your friend too, but I have accepted the fact that I am gay, I don’t think that you have.”

“Jesus Chance, why do you have to run around and tell everyone about it?”

“Joel, the only person I have told is my dad, I have not told anyone at school, I don’t need to. Just so you know I don’t plan on telling anyone, but if it does come out, I am not going to deny it.”

“I wish I was as brave as you about this, but I just can’t think of anything that would make me want to tell anyone about this.”

“That’s your choice Joel, just know that I will never be the one to tell anyone about us, you can do whatever you want. I want us to be friends, but I feel like I want something more, I don’t think that you do. That is why I want to see where things go with Ben.”

“I guess you are right, until I get my shit together it isn’t fair to ask you to wait for me. I really shouldn’t be jealous, but it is hard for me to see you with him.”

“Look Joel, we are just lab partners it’s not like we are walking down the hall holding hands and making out between class.”

“I know, I guess I just don’t get it, you must see something in Ben that I don’t.”

“I guess I do, I just don’t know if he sees it in me, I just want to find out.”

We pulled into my driveway, “see you tomorrow, Chance.”

“Yeah, see ya later.”

I went in the house and ate supper with my sister and dad, then headed to my room to do my homework, thinking of Ben the whole time.

We finally got to do our first experiment in chemistry, I was looking forward to working on the lab report and was thrilled when I talked Ben into letting me come to his house. Ben’s foster mom answered the door and seemed very nice, they lived in a good neighborhood and had a nice house. We went to Ben’s room to work on the report, his room was very plain, just a bed, dresser, and a nightstand. The only things on the wall were drawings of two elderly people.

I asked Ben, “are these your relatives?”

Ben blushed a little, “yes they are my grandparents.”

“Who did you have draw these?”

Ben looked down, “I drew them last year, Lynn had them framed for me.”

“You drew these, holy shit Ben, that is incredible, you did a great job.”

“Thanks.”

“Can I ask about your mom and dad? You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.”

“I never knew my dad, mom is an alcoholic, I am not sure where she is. I was raised by my grandpa until he died when I was 10. I have been in foster care since then.”

“Wow, well Mrs. McCoy seems nice.”

“Yeah, if I am being honest this is the best foster home, I have been in.”

I could tell Ben was uncomfortable talking about this, so I suggested we get to work on out lab report. We compared our notes and wrote out our report in the format our teacher required. After we finished Ben went to get us a couple sodas, I was looking around the room and noticed the sketch pad on his nightstand. I turned it over and saw that he was drawing me, naked. Damn is that what I looked like to him? I have to admit, it was a pretty hot picture, I would say he was taking a few liberties and using his imagination to make me look a little better than I actually did. Ben came back and caught me looking at his notebook, his faced turned red as he stopped in his tracks.

“Sorry, I saw this laying on your nightstand, you really are very good at drawing, thanks for making me look better than I do.”

“I should have put that away, I usually don’t let anyone see my drawing until I am finished with them.”

“That’s ok Ben, I don’t mind if you draw me.” I handed him the pad, he quickly closed the cover and put it in a drawer. He handed me the soda and we sat back on the bed. I could see Ben trying to think of something to say.

I spoke up first, “Ben, can I tell you something?”

“I guess so.”

“I am gay.” I paused to see his reaction, his expression didn’t change, and he didn’t move.

Finally, he took a drink of his soda and said, “ok.”

“Have you ever been attracted to another guy?”

“I don’t know, I guess I have never really thought about it. I don’t know if you have noticed, but I don’t have a lot of friends, let alone a boyfriend or girlfriend. I haven’t been any place long enough to make too many friends.”

“Well even though you have never acted on it, there must have been someone who you thought was good-looking or nice that you might have wanted to get to know better.”

“I guess I was kind of attracted to Josh when he was being nice to me. You know how that turned out, I just don’t trust too many people.”

“Yeah, I can see that, but Josh is an ass, just like Derick. You know not everybody is like that.”

“Yes, I know, but I don’t seem too good at being able to tell who I can trust and who I can’t.”

“Do you trust me, Ben?”

“So far you haven’t given me a reason not to.”

“Thanks Ben, I want you to know that you can trust me, I find you attractive, I like you a lot and I would really like us to become good friends.”

Ben just looked straight ahead, thinking, “Why?”

“Why what?”

“Why do you like me? Chance, I am just a skinny little runt that isn’t really good at anything, and I am not handsome or anything.”

“Damn it Ben, stop thinking like that, you are a good guy, I don’t know why you can’t see that. By the way you are a damn good artist.”

“I can just draw ok, I guess.”

“Ben, look at those two pictures on your wall, when I first saw them, I thought they were photographs. Didn’t you tell me how impressed Mr. Fischer was with your work.”

“Yeah, he did, but…”

“But nothing, look Ben, I like you, I want to spend time with you, I hoped you felt the same way, but if you don’t that’s ok. You need to see that people can like you without hurting you, there are people that care about you.”

Ben mumbled, “Ok, I guess I trust you.”

I put my hand under his chin and pushed up, so he was looking me in the eye. “What was that?”

“I said, I trust you, and I am attracted to you.”

“You are attracted to me?”

“Yes, I am, I don’t draw naked pictures of just anyone you know.”

I chuckled, “Yeah, I guess you don’t.” I kept me hand on his chin, looking into his eyes, I knew that this was the longest time that Ben had maintained eye contact with anyone. He gave me a small smile.

“You are so cute when you smile.” Ben blushed, I leaned in until my lips were touching his, he pulled back.

“Sorry Ben, I didn’t mean to push, but I felt the urge to kiss you.”

“No that’s ok, you just kind of took me by surprise, I have never been kissed before.”

“If you want to try it, now would be a good time, I will go slow.”

Ben nodded and leaned toward me, our lips met, and I felt sparks, his lips were so soft he was so gentle. I pulled back a little and opened my eyes. He opened his as well, I asked, “are you ok?”

“Yes, that was nice.” He leaned in again and we kissed again, I pulled Ben on top of me as I rolled onto the bed. I parted his lips with my tongue and pushed inside his mouth, he took the hint and soon our tongues were dancing against each other. We continued to make out for a few minutes, and I felt Ben’s dick harden as he rubbed against my leg. I had my arms wrapped around him holding him tight and he soon returned the embrace. He was fast learner, he was a much better kisser than Joel was, I found my own cock growing in my jeans. I reached down and cupped Ben’s package and he jumped, pulling away.

I asked, “is everything alright?”

He said, “yeah it’s fine, I’m just not sure if I am ready to go much further right now.”

“That’s ok, we don’t have to do anything you aren’t comfortable with.”

“Thanks, I’m sorry Chance, but I…”

“Don’t be sorry, it’s ok.”

We heard Lynn call us, “Ben, ask Chance if he would like to stay for supper.”

I looked at my watch, “I didn’t realize it was so late, I need to get home I told my dad I would be home in time for supper.”

We straightened ourselves and walked out to the kitchen, “sorry Mrs. McCoy, but my dad is expecting me home, I better be going.”

“You sure are welcome to stay, you can use the phone if you want to call your dad.”

“Thank you, but I need to get home, we finished our homework already. Maybe next time, thanks again Mrs. McCoy.”

I headed home with a raging boner, I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to eat supper before I needed to go to my room and take care of my hardon.

Jesus, if Ben wasn’t in my dreams before, he sure as hell was now.