Getting Out of my Auto Gratification Funk

Like most of us, pandemic lockdown was frightening and unknown and I know for me, it meant a bit of a withdrawal into my shell. I found over time that despite the lockdowns ending, I would chat with guys on Scruff and Grindr, get all hot and bothered but retreat to my room and fuck myself silly with a variety of toys and poppers.

I started to wonder what this auto-gratification was all about….was I scared to catch the Covids or was it just some funk I was in?

Either way, I realized it was time to get my head out of my ass, and one night, while enjoying a popper fuelled ass-fuck with my ten speed remote controlled butt plug, I thought, I wonder if my old BBRTs  friend (not using his name for obvious reasons) would be into watching me fuck myself for a while and then when I’m ready, take over and fuck me raw?

Now full disclosure, he works as an escort but despite our previous commercial interactions, we’ve actually become friendly and he’s come to me on occasion when he needs some help or just to talk, and it was in this light that I texted him that night with the vibrating buttplug whirring against my prostate.

“Hey sexy, you well? I have a proposition for you. Would be come to my place and teach me how to love big dick again? In truth, I’m addicted to dildoing myself and I need a big raw dick. What I’m proposing is you come her, watch me dildo myself and then take over.”

Ok, obviously I was drunk and being stupid and he didn’t reply before I went to bed but the next morning I noticed he had read the text without replying.

“That’s a real request btw….and I’d pay.”

He read that one again fairly quickly replied, “Ok, we can do that.”

Although I was drunk when I sent the original note, seeing his willingness to entertain my request, while completely sober, the thought turned me on and while setting it up with that morning over WhatsApp, I got achingly hard.

When I whipped out my dick, a dollop of precum went flying out and I had a good jerk thinking about this little scenario.

Fast forward a couple of nights.

We had arranged to connect when I was home alone and I agreed to pick him up at the train.

Not only does he pack 10” but he is a really handsome and sexy man. Arab background, or Persian, but gorgeous skin, not overly tall or really bulky, just a sweet sexy man with a swagger to him that always makes me submit.

Keep in mind, this is the guy from previous stories who fisted me for the first time (here)and I could do nothing to resist him doing so as I was entranced by his sexiness.

I was sitting in my SUV at the train station when I saw him in the distance and my heart started to flutter because he looked so dam sexy.

He was showing off a bit I think but had fulfilled my wish which was to wear bulge enhancing jeans for me so I could visualize that big dick.

“What do you mean bulge enhancing jeans?” he had asked when I posed this request, “where the fuck do you buy your clothes?LOL”

Anyway, he had figured out what I meant and it was not difficult to see the outline of dick in these tight jeans he had on and he grabbed a handful as he got closer to my vehicle with a huge smile on his face.

I always find guys who don’t give a shit in public such a turn on and this guy didn’t really care that a few people caught him in the act of grabbing his crotch to show me what I was about to enjoy.

He hopped in the passenger seat and planted quite a sweet and sensuous kiss on me and releasing my head from his grip he said, “Let’s go, I wanna fuck.”

Driving the short distance back to my place, he leaned back a bit in the seat so I got a good look at his sexy slim body and that bulge.

“I kinda wish now I had been on the train sitting across from you” I snickered.

He just smiled and patted my leg as I pulled into my yard.

The deal as we agreed was that I would play with various toys on his command and for my little ten speed butt plug, he would control it with the remote. I had to listen to everything he said until he took over and fucked me.

We didn’t waste a whole lot of time once inside the house and within about 5 minutes we were sitting on my bed smoking a joint and getting ready for the fun.

“Go sit in the chair,” I told him while tossing the remote to him.

“Don’t be so bossy, remember, I’m the one in control here” was his reply as he swaggered toward the chair.

I had laid out a variety of toys for the session; the 3 inch black rubber butt plug, a fat thick 9” suction cupped dildo, the ten speed butt plug, one prostate massager (never my favourite, doesn’t really work) and one other smaller dildo which hits the spot every time.

“Well?” I asked smearing lube in my jock strapped hole, “What’s your fancy?”

“Start small and show me what a slut you are,” he commanded as he undid his jeans and pulled them off.

I took a huge hit of the fresh poppers and faced my ass toward him.

Grabbing the smaller dildo I slowly penetrated my ass.

In the background I could hear him poppering up and stroking his massive cock.

I didn’t look behind hardly at all and fucked myself like I have so many nights in isolation, completely oblivious to his presence.

Except of course he was soon enough spurring me on and commanding me to do various things.

“Slam it in hard! Do it!”

“Butt plug, push it in, take it!”

We played this scene out for a good thirty minutes when we finally got my ten-speed friend.

I was pulling the 9” fat dildo out with a gushy suction noise when all of sudden the butt plug on the bed started to vibrate.

I looked over and he didn’t even have to say anything, but the smile on his face as he clicked through the speeds told me everything.

I laid down on my back with my legs up in the air so that my now loose hole was starting right at him across the room in his chair.

The butt plug isn’t overly thick but has a really powerful bullet inside so it not only vibrates but undulates a little in a circular pattern and literally, within an inch of insertion, it is massaging the hell out of my prostate sending me into absolute orbit.

He cycled through all ten speeds and found the one that suited him best which was amazing. I was having wave after wave of pulsating prostate sensations from it and he was clearly loving it.

I was laying back a bit riding a popper high slamming the plug in and out when unnoticed to me, he had stood up and cupped his hand over mine on the bulb of the plug.

I was a little startled and popped my head up in surprise but he didn’t even make eye contact, he just held onto my hand and started to slowly push our vibrating friend in and out while stroking his very hard massive 10” cock.

“You should do an only fans site, I could watch you all night fuck that pussy.”

I smiled and pulled my hand away from the butt plug and he mashed it in my guts a few more times before pulling it out and clicking it off at the base.

I was still on my back with my legs on my chest and he grabbed my thighs and pulled me to the edge of the bed.

Standing at my ass, he pulled the skin back on his dick and touched the head to my sloppy hole.

Leaning forward he spat out a gob of saliva that dripped down onto his knob.

“Popper up bitch, no more toys for you.”

I snorted three or four huge hits and he used the other bottle to toke up as well.

As the sensation took over my body, I flopped my head back down and pulled my ass cheeks apart for him.

He tossed the poppers aside and slowly started to work his way into my guts.

10” strokes are a thing of beauty and within about 8” of him inside me I realized that skin-on-skin was somehow better.

He switched from nasty to sweet over the next couple of hours and fucked me in every possible position.

Most of the time my eyes were rolled into the back of my head and my legs were quivering from his strokes.

When he was nasty he was rough, pinning me down and basically assaulting me with his dick.

There was one point where I swear he was literally jumping up and down on my ass as I lay on my stomach fucking me like an animal and punching through the second sphincter of my ass.

I was helpless to resist his dominance and when he would pull out and inspect it he’d say, “look at that gaping fucking pussy, could park a truck in there.”

And then he’d slam back into me shouting, “Don’t fucking clamp down on my dick, push it open!”

And so I did.

I let myself go to his commands and took dick like a champ.

When he finally came, he went into sweet mode and fucked me doggy style leaning forward enough to kiss my neck and whispered what was coming.

“Babe, I am gonna flood that pussy, you deserve this load, such a good fucker….”

And with that he grunted his  load into my ass and twitched as it convulsed and spurted every last drop.

As he pulled out, there was an audible gush of jizz and ass juice, but he swooped it up with his finger and pushed it back in my hole.

“Now you can clamp down, keep it inside, you deserve it.”

“But clean my dick,” he commanded as he positioned himself in front of my face.

Fuck he tasted good and although he had just cum, he was still pretty hard and I started to jerk my own dick as I cleaned him off.

It didn’t take me very long to cum and gagging on his cock I mumbled, “Oh fuck, I’m cumming.”

“Gimme it!” he said as he flipped me over and got down to dick-level.

As I tensed up he swallowed my dick and I blew my load into his mouth.

He didn’t spill a drop but rather unexpectedly, as I was twitching from the stimulation on my dick, he sat up, hovered over my face and then spat the whole entire load of my cum all over my face.

“Fucking whore” was all he said as I blinked and sputtered with my spunk in my eyes, up my nose etc.

I was in a state of shock but honestly, I kind of liked it and I could tell because my well-fucked ass was throbbing and begging for more.

In fact, the shock of him spitting my cum into my face meant I relaxed my ass and out shot some of his jizz.

But alas, although I was ready for another hard fuck from my study escort/friend, that was the end of this transaction.

After cleaning up, I drove him back to the train station and after a quick friendly kiss good bye, he hopped out and went back to the city.

Sadly, although I had hoped that this little tryst would inspire me to be slutty with real people, I have kind of gotten back into my little funk and tend to fuck myself more than taking dick. 

Maybe my mind just wants my studly friend back! Watch this space.