Exploring My True Self

We just sat there for a while, Matty in a fit of laughter, Jeff in a state of shock, and me and Randy trying to figure out what to say next. We just sat there grinning at each other because we both knew his response didn’t matter. We had each other, and were comfortable being who we are.

Finally Jeff spoke “I’m happy for you guys.” He uttered trying to say the right thing, but it was clear he was struggling “I’m Just a little surprised that’s all. I just never thought Kev was gay.” I looked over at Randy and smiled, acknowledging the absence of his name in that sentence. Randy had nothing to hide, but Jeff… that’s another story.

Randy looked him straight in the eye and very matter-of-factly said “Oh, but you thought I was gay.” Jeff stammered nervously. I sat there watching it unfold, wondering where this was going to go, smiling inside watching the perfect, straight-laced Jeff squirm.

“Well, no, no it’s just that Kev was the one who said it. I never thought you were gay either”

“So, when you woke up on the couch with your dick in my mouth… that didn’t give you a hint?” Randy’s words smacked Jeff in the face and pushed Matty back into a fit of laughter as he yelled “WHAT??!! You sucked off Jeff? Oh my god” Matty was loving every uncomfortable second of this.

That made me laugh out loud. The moment I had feared for years, coming out to my friends, didn’t seem like the life-changing moment I had always thought it would be. Randy making the perfect Jeff squirm and Matty on the floor laughing uncontrollably at the realization that Randy blew straight-laced Jeff.

All the color was gone from Jeff’s face as he sat there trying to figuring out what to say next. He completely ignored Randy’s confession and finally said “Listen, I don’t know what to say, I think it’s great you guys are happy, I’m just surprised that’s all.

“You think what’s great?” chirped a woman’s voice from the steps of the porch. It was Sarah, standing there with a couple of bags of groceries in her arms.

“I thought you were staying at your sisters until tomorrow” Jeff said, startled to see her.

“I am, but I thought you boys might need more snacks for your big reunion, so I left the kids with my sister and stopped by to drop these off, and I’m glad I did. This place is a mess” She said in an almost scolding voice, as she put down the grocery bags and started to pick up empty beer bottles from the porch. It was obvious her goal was to check up on us and make sure Jeff was behaving. “So, you think what is great?” she repeated as she continued to straighten up.

“He thinks it’s great that Randy and I have been dating each other” I said breaking the silence. Matty sat there with a huge smile on his face waiting for her to speak still loving the show.

Sarah stood there in silence for a moment, then let out a high pitched, fake as hell laugh “Oh you boys I’m not falling for that.” She giggled. Sarah was a few years younger than me, but her self-righteous rigidity made her seem decades older.

“We’ve been hanging out since Kev, moved to Phoenix , and have been dating for a couple of weeks. He’s the best damn thing that ever happened to me, and I’m pretty sure I’m in love with him” Randy retorted with no shame as he looked right at her, then turned to me and smiled. My face broke into the biggest smile of my life.

“I’m pretty sure I’m falling in love with him too and I’ve never been happier” I added. We haven’t officially said I love youto each other yet, I mean, c’mon it’s only been a couple of weeks. It’s all still new and we’re both pretty guarded. But, who were we trying to fool, we knew where this was heading, and I knew it wouldn’t be long before we both said it.

Sarah stood there dumbfounded, searching for her next words “So, you two are really homosexuals?!” She said in disgust stressing the word “homosexuals.”

“Yup. Card carrying homosexuals and damn proud of it” Randy taking a gulp from his beer bottle and I raised my hand and said, “Guilty as charged.”

Sarah looked at Jeff and said “Jeffrey, this is the home where we raise our two beautiful children and honor the Lord. It is not a place where sodomites are welcome.” Jeff just sat there motionless and let out an “ummm”

“JEFFREY” she yelled as her mood moved toward hysteria “You WILL rid our home of these “people,” NOW!”

By now Matty’s eyes were wide as saucers and he was giggling like a little kid in church trying to hold back his laughter. He could not be loving this more. Jeff was paralyzed. He looked at me and mumbled “Hey, um guys, I um…”

“Don’t worry Jeff, we’ll find a hotel, we traveled 2,000 miles for a fun weekend with friends, not to be preached to by some hypocritical bitch.” I said, surprising myself. Randy shot me his winning smile and nodded giving me a non-verbal “atta-boy.”

Sarah gasped “Who are you calling a hypocritical….B-word?!? whispering B-word of course.

“You! Little miss “I was a virgin on my wedding night.”I barked back. I was buzzed, and she was pushing all my buttons. This self-righteous bitch had been judging all of us for years and I was done. ”Do you really think we thought you were praying in Jeff’s room every weekend at college when you were screaming out “Oh God!”Or that you really gave birth to a nine and a half pound preemie seven months after your wedding day. Get off your fucking high horse you sanctimonious bitch!” I lectured loudly as passers-by started looking our way and a few neighbors gathered on their porches to see what the commotion was all about.

Sarah stood there stunned, glaring at Jeff just waiting for him to defend her. He didn’t. Jeff was still paralyzed, Matty was laughing harder, Randy was beaming proudly at me, and I was pissed off. While I was ranting, Randy pulled out his phone and booked us a hotel and an Uber, we were too buzzed to drive. “The sodomites are leaving, we’ll pick our car up in the morning, maybe we’ll see you at the game, Jeff” Randy said as the Uber pulled up and he started walking towards our car to get our bags.

Randy and I walked towards the Uber. As we did I uncharacteristically flipped Sarah off. Matty laughed and yelled “Hey queens, I’m going with you.” As he ran in the house to grab his bags. The three of us jumped in the Uber and headed to the hotel leaving Jeff to deal with the aftermath.

Randy and I got in the back and Matty Jumped up front. As soon as the Uber pulled away Randy gave me a huge hug and kissed me dead on “Damn I love you” he said for the first time. I repeated the words back “I love you too. You make me strong.” There. We said it! It was the romantic setting I had envisions, but dammit, we meant it.

Matty turned around in his seat and with uncontrolled excitement said “Oh my fucking god that was awesome! It’s about time that bitch got hers!” He could not be enjoying this more.

“You left Jeff a hell of a mess to clean up tonight” Randy said.

“Fuck Jeff. He was too big of a pussy to stand up for you guys, he deserves what he gets.” Matty said. With that we drove to the hotel in near silence. Randy held me while I rested my head on his chest, and Matty sat silently in the front seat muttering “oh man, I can’t believe you did that…” with a giggle every now and then.

We got to the hotel and checked in. Matty got his own room because although he truly supported us he didn’t want to watch us “do gay shit.”Fair enough, because I had every intention of doing gay shit to Randy tonight.

Once we got to our room we just fell onto the king sized bed and laughed “holy shit, I can’t believe you did that, it must’ve felt good” Randy said, “I was going to jump in, but you had it covered.”

“I’m glad you didn’t, I was on a roll and needed to say it” I said, then we embraced and started to kiss. Randy pulled my shirt over my head and I did the same to him. He squeezed me tighter, and his naked torso felt so awesome against mine. We both peeled off our shirts and were down to just our underwear. My dick was getting hard. Suddenly, there was a knock on the door.

“Fuck. GO AWAY MATTY” Randy yelled leaning up on his elbows as I jumped up to answer the door, almost naked. When I opened the door, ready to send Matty back to his room, there stood Jeff, his muscular body completely covering the open door frame.

“Um Hi. Matty texted me and told me where you were. Can I come in?” He said walking through the doorway not waiting for a response. I followed him into the room, Randy was lying on the bed in his boxer briefs propped up on his elbows his cock still semi-erect. “I owe you guys an apology.”

“No you don’t,” I responded, “But that bitch you’re married to sure as fuck does.”

“Kev give the guy a break,” Randy said. He was right, but I was still pissed.

“No, that’s fair,” Jeff responded meekly. “She had no right to talk to you guys like that, you’re my best friends and were guests in my home, you came all this way just to see me, and I should’ve come to your defense. But in all honesty, she wouldn’t have listened to me anyway, and would just make my life even more of a living hell than she does already after you left. I’ve learned to just shut up and take it.” It was truly sad to see this big, muscle bound stud so defeated.

“Dude, it’s your house too. All you did was have a few friends over…you even had her permission. She’s dead wrong here” Randy said.

“She’s dead wrong most the time, dude. But I don’t say shit because I love my two boys and can’t imagine only seeing them on weekends. She’s a royal, self-righteous bitch, if I divorce her she will take it all including my boys. She’s always pissed at me, she hasn’t touched my dick since Jack was conceived four years ago, and I’m pretty sure she’s fucking some guy from church.” Jeff confessed in a defeated tone. He needed his friends, badly.

“I am so sorry. If we had the slightest clue that coming out would cause you all this BS, we wouldn’t have come” Randy said, “And what the fuck do you mean she’s fucking some guy from church?”

“It’s not your fault, guys. And it means exactly what I said, except I’m not just pretty sure, I know it for a fact. My neighbor told me he sees a guy coming to the house several times a week, he parks his car around the corner and comes in the back door. I asked him to call me next time he saw the guy. About two weeks ago he did. I came home and snuck into the house, the one where she claimed we “honor the Lord” and there they were in our bed…her and Ron,some self-righteous asshole from our church fucking away, oblivious to the world. They didn’t see me, so I just turned around and left. My stomach was tied in knots. I drove back to work and sat in the car and cried for the rest of the afternoon” Jeff broke into tears.

“That fucking bitch” I said as I went over to embrace Jeff, Randy got off the bad and came in from behind. I rested my head on his right shoulder, and Randy put his on the left, and we just held the poor guy. I felt awful for him.

After a few minutes of holding him I started to feel something against my leg. It didn’t take a genius to figure out it was Jeff’s legendary schlong growing in his shorts, down his powerful leg.

I reached around Jeff to Randy’s back and tapped him on the shoulder, He pulled his head back, our eyes connected, and I signaled him to look down. He got the hint.

I pulled back and just said “Jeff?” He jumped away from both of us and just stammered an apologized “I...I.,.Um…I’m so sorry…it’s just…um”

“It’s okay, man.” I said. “What’s going on?”

“I haven’t had sex since Jack was concieved. The last blow job I had was….well…the one from Randy when I was taking a nap in college. I’m sorry. Sarah hasn’t even hugged me in over a year. I guess I’m just sensitive to any touch. He explained in utter humiliation. We both just leaned in and hugged him again, telling him it was okay. Randy leaned back, caught my eye and smiled huge as he moved his hand down and cupped Jeff’s right ass cheek. I wasn’t sure about this, but what the hell, he was an old friend in need.

Jeff moaned in response to Randy’s hand, and his huge member started to swell against my leg again. I felt his hands start to explore my backside, lingering on my ass, massaging and squeezing as he ground his growing cock into my groin. I could feel Randy push him in closer from behind. The three of us were grinding against each other, exploring with our hands. Jeff lifted his arms as Randy grabbed the bottom of his shirt and lifted it over his head. I started undoing his pants and pushed them down, he stepped out of them. The three of us were now standing there in jus our underwear. I brought his bare, hairy, muscled chest against mine, god he felt incredible. So strong and firm.

Randy moved his hands down under his waistband. I pulled off Jeff and Randy moved him toward the bed guiding him by his butt cheeks. He got him to the bed, pulled his hands out of his pants, turned him around and pushed him on his back, onto the bed. Randy and I exchanged looks and moved on either side of Jeff, we each took hold of his waistband and pulled his underwear down, and off, and threw them to the floor. I looked down on his groin and holy fuck. I was not prepare for what I saw, Jeff’s dick was seriously at least a foot long, He was already hard as a rock and the head was nestled just below his nipples, and the girth…wow, Randy didn’t exaggerate a thing.

We tagged teamed him. Randy started at Jeff’s nipples then started circling his cockhead with his tongue. I went for his huge balls, licking one, then the other, unable to fit them both in my mouth together. We both eventually moved to his huge shaft. I was running my mouth up and down the right side and Randy running his mouth up and down the left, our lips occasionally meeting in the middle of the massive hunk of flesh. I moved onto the top of it and engulfed it, taking as much as I could down my throat. It was truly gigantic; my mouth could barely fit around the girth. I couldn’t even get a third of it in my mouth, and my throat could barely open wide enough to accommodate the huge head much less allow me to breathe. Randy saw me struggling and went to work on the bottom half of his dick. We were a team and planned on taming this monster together. Jeff couldn’t contain his moans of pleasure as we worked his long-neglected manhood. “Oh my god, guys, that feels so good” he quietly murmured.

The moment was surreal. Jeff was my college fantasy and I had heard so many rumors about his manhood. Now, here it was, all in front of me, and I was sharing it with the guy I loved.

We spent at least a half hour working his cock together. I tried several times to deepthroat him, but his girth made it physically impossible. Randy kept moving lower and lower flicking his tongue on Jeff’s hairy hole. He moaned with every lick, Randy was undoubtedly in virgin territory. We brought him to the edge and back several times. This was the only sexual pleasure our friend had gotten in years and we were going to make it memorable.

Randy got up and went into his backpack. He came back with a small bottle of lube and a bottle of poppers. I looked at him and said, “you’re insane, there’s no way you can do it.”

He grinned big and said, “then I’ll fucking die trying.” Jeff just lie there, I don’t think he had a clue what Randy was thinking. Randy went back down on Jeff’s dick, making sure it was as hard as possible.”

“You’ll need some help if you’re going to tackle that monster” I said as I got behind him and started to rim his sweet asshole. I worked my tongue around in tiny circles, penetrating his ring every so often, increasing the frequency after a few minutes until I was tongue fucking him. I added my middle finger and started toggling between my finger and my tongue, going as deeply as I could with both. When his ring started to open I added a second finger stretching his tight manhole as much as I could. I was truly worried that Jeff would just rip Randy’s perfect hole with his incredible girth. That was MY hole and I was determined to protect it. I added a third finger and slowly worked it around, feeling his tight hole contract around them as I did. I added lube to my fingers and then put in my pinky too, Randy jumped in pain and yelled “What the fuck? Are you trying to fist me?”

“No, but if you’re going to take that monster up your ass you better be ready. That tight little hole is mine and I love it, don’t you dare ruin it. You need all the help you can get” and I proceeded to twist my fingers round and round, pushing in and pulling out, widening his opening in anticipation of the biggest cock I had ever set eyes on. After a good fifteen minutes of prep he was well lubed and open, ready to take Jeff’s legendary manhood.

Randy turned to face me, his back to Jeff, then reached back for that huge pulsating pole of flesh and brought it to his opening. I reached down and did my best to guide Jeff into Randy’s eager hole. I know Randy had dreamed about this for years, ever since his tongue first touched Jeff’s cock on the ugly green sofa. Now, the moment was here.

Randy pulled out the bottle of poppers, held his right nostril and inhaled for about ten seconds. He repeated the procedure for his left nostril. A euphoric look took over his beautiful face He was ready. He moved slowly down onto Jeff until his sweet, pink hole made contact with the bulbous head of Jeff’s menacing tool. He lowered himself down a few more inches and winced as the head breached his anal ring. He stopped and waited.

I looked up at Jeff’s face. There was a look of shock, I seriously don’t think he had a clue what happening up until that very moment. His eyes flew open and he let out a loud “fucccccck, you’re sitting my cock, dude. You’re fucking riding my cock.”

Randy continued to lower himself, the evident pained look on his face became one of euphoric pleasure within seconds. He kept moving lower, and lower until “slap.” His sweet ass met Jeff’s huge scrotum. Randy’s eyes popped open in disbelief as he realized he had hit bottom. He took the whole fucking thing. OH MY FUCKING GOD!” He wailed at the top of his lungs. At that moment I was extremely thankful that Matty’s room was three floors up. I had no clue how we’d explain this away.

Meanwhile Jeff was experiencing his first anal fuck “Oh my god, your ass is so fucking tight, I never felt anything like it. Fuuuuuuuck” He was loving it.

After a few minutes of adjusting Randy lifted up, almost off the huge phallus, then plunged back down, screaming in agony. He did it again, and again, until the screams of agony were replaced with guttural groans of pure, ecstatic pleasure. He was literally bouncing on the giant cock, faster, and faster like a man possessed. “FUCK ME straight boy, fuck the shit out of me” He screamed through his clenched teeth. Jeff started pushing up hard to meet his thrusts.

I was lost in the scene unfolding in front of me. Randy screamed his warning “I’m cumming, I’m fucking cumming.” I instantly engulfed his raging hard-on and took him down my throat. I wasn’t about to let a drop of his man juice go to waste. Within about thirty seconds he released his load down my throat, screaming at the top of his lungs as he did.

Meanwhile Jeff was having his own epiphany as Randy’s hot ass gripped his cock and pulled it deep into his cavern, contracting and releasing to accommodate the huge size. He was shaking, and spasming as he quietly grunted “oh fuck, here it comes, oh fuck….”

Randy was bouncing harder and harder, slapping his ass against scrotum time after time, and begging for more with screams of ‘FUCK ME STRAIGHT BOY, GIVE ME YOUR FUCKING LOAD.” Jeff was shooting stream after stream of some in him. He was so dull of cock that there was no room left and Jeff’s come was squirting out of any little gap it could find. As soon as Randy’s slowed down, I dove in licking his ass and Jeff’s balls, savoring the hot, straight-boy baby-broth leaking from his over-filled hole.

I never saw Randy panting so hard, breathless, unable to even speak. He reached down pushing my face in his crotch and Jeff’s ass commanding me to eat Jeff’s load. After a few minutes He caught his breath, pulled me up from his crotch and pulled my face to him, devouring my cum covered lips with all the passion and lust he could muster.

After a few moments rest, he finally pulled off of Jeff’s softening manhood. As soon as he did I pushed him onto his back, liftin his legs to his chest and plunged my tiny seven and a half inch cock into his well-used hole, effortlessly. I pounded that sloppy hole hard, feeling Jeff’s cum splashing around me. Randy’s passage contracted around my cock, he was still pretty damn tight considering what had been there before me. It took me less than a minute to ass my cum to Jeff’s. When I hard squirted every last drop I pulled out of Randy’s ass and went down to feast on his abused hole. He pushed and the cum just gushed out onto my tongue, A mixture of me and Jeff. I got what I could hold in my mouth and moved above Randy, our lips met, and we passed the concoction back and forth, snowballing as Jeff sat in a chair next to the bed looked on with a look of disgust, disbelief and utter lust.

When I collapsed on my lover we were all just basking in the lust of it all and trying to recuperate. Jeff looked at us with an innocent look on his face and said, “Seriously guys, I’m not gay.”

We both laugh. “No shit,” I said. “Just chalk this up to a couple of friends using their unique talents to help a friend in need.”

“Just helpin’ a brother out” Randy said with a smile.

To be continues…