The Best of me....A Christmas Awakening
by Butch
19 Dec 2022 2328 readers Score 9.2 (78 votes) PDF Mobi ePub Txt
At Christmas I enjoy writing a story about love and romance because we need more love today more than ever. This story has those elements and I hope you sit back and enjoy it. I want to thank Bjorn for giving us this amazing platform to write our stories. Merry Christmas to all my fellow writers and to all the readers who read my stories and comment....Many thanks, Love, Butch!
I knew at puberty that I was different, didn't quite understand it but I felt like I wasn't like other boys. As time passed, I knew I was gay at fifteen and looking at other boys is what I liked. My first sexual experience was with a classmate that I had been friends with since the 2nd grade. Time passed and we experienced puberty together and laughed about it. At sixteen, we indulged into our first sexual experience. He invited me over to his house and we began wrestling on his bed. One thing led to another and my hand brushed over his crotch. He did the same thing to me and before we knew it we were rubbing each other's crotches. I remember how good it felt and he asked me if I wanted to jack off together. Its funny because I was so nervous but excited at the same time. We ended up jacking together and it was the most explosive orgasm I had ever experienced. He asked me if I would like to do it again sometime in which I readily agreed. The next time was a few days later but it was different because it was the first time we sucked each other's cocks. We got into a 69 position and went to it. I loved it, and was perplexed how wonderful it felt to suck his cock, filling my mouth, its taste and texture. It didn't take us long and we came in each other's mouth but then spit it out. We had developed a best friend relationship and I guess you could say with benefits.
My name is Peyton Reed, dark hair, hazel eyes, height of 5'10" and weighing in at 175 lbs. I'm not a big guy but I have a toned athletic physique. My friend Benjamin Radcliff is over 6' tall but on the slim side. He's handsome and quite hairy while I'm smooth with just a treasure trail to my pubic area. Ben has a forest around his cock and I kid him about it all the time.
By the time we were seventeen we were playing three or four days a week and we both looked forward to it. Ben was gay and had no problem with his sexuality, as for me, I felt that I wasn't normal, with thoughts of not having a family or kids, which I later realized was foolish. I was raised in a strict Catholic home and the thought of coming out would make me sick to my stomach because I knew it would hurt my parents. Ben and I talked and he said...."Peyton, you have to accept yourself for who you are or you will never be happy." I understood what he said but accepting myself as a homosexual was difficult and upsetting.
Just before graduation, on one of our play nights, Ben asked me if I ever thought about exploring other sexual areas. I was quiet and looked at him and said...."You mean up the butt sex?" "Yes, I have thought about it." We got into our usual 69 position, sucking our cocks and he began to slowly finger my ass. I didn't expect it but it felt good and the more he probed the more I liked the sensations I was getting. "Do you have any vaseline Peyton?" I got up and went to the bathroom and came back handing the jar to him. We were both so naive but Ben had no apprehension as to what he wanted. He used the vaseline on his cock and rubbed some on my virgin hole. He placed his 7" cock at my entrance and pushed in...."Fuk Ben, ouch it hurts." "Relax dude, and breathe." He was considerate and stopped, then maneuvered his way into me slowly, then he would stop again. I began to get these electrifying sensations and I said...."I'm good, fuck me now." He began a slow rhythm and my whole body became in sync with his. He pulled out of me and said...."Turn around Peyton, get on your back." He raised my legs and slid right into me with one thrust. I wrapped my legs around him and he leaned down and licked my lips with his tongue. The feelings I was experiencing was more than just sex, it was becoming intmate as I opened my mouth to except him. The kiss was mind blowing and he began penetrating me deeper. After only about ten minutes I said.... "Ben, I'm gonna cum" as he jacked my cock. "I'm gonna blow too." I came with such a force that it was all over my face, my chest and stomach. Ben began licking my cum and then reached up and kissed me, sharing it with me. It was the most incredible experience of my young life.
He rolled off me and we laid there. "Are you okay Peyton?" "I think so, never thought it would feel so good." He turned to kiss me and I turned away. "What is it?" "I don't know but its a lot for me to process right now." "If you liked what we did, tell me what you're feeling." "I don't know Ben, being gay is not something that I have accepted easily." "I think I love you Peyton." "Don't say that to me, I'm having a hard time, why would you say that?" "I said it because its what I feel and I'm not afraid to express my feelings to you." I got up and got dressed and said..."My parents are going to be home soon." "He got dressed, didn't say a word and left.
Over the next week Ben became distant with me. I asked him to come over and stay the weekend because my parents were going away, but he said he had plans. I knew that I hurt him and was pushing him away. Graduation was approaching and the thought of him and I being separated going to different colleges was weighing heavy on me. I had no one to confide in, my emotions were escalating so I did the only thing I could do, I called him.
"Hey Ben, its me, can we talk?" "I don't think there is any point in talking, I can't help you, not until you can face your demons and respect yourself as a gay man." We hung up and I broke down because he was right, I had hurt him and pushed him away because I am not facing the fact that I'm gay. My parents would never understand, so I have to do this on my own. He told me he loved me and I didn't accept it making it seem like I didn't care about him.
I stopped at the coffee shop before school and when I walked in I noticed Ben sitting with another guy and they were laughing and having fun. I froze, my heart started racing and for the first time I was consumed with jealousy. It was the worst emotional feeling I had ever felt. Ben saw me and smiled but he never asked me over to sit with them. I quickly got my coffee and left. I ran into him during the day at school and I asked "Do you want to come over and have some fun?'" "Sorry Peyton but I have plans." 'With your new friend?" "Yes" "This is not fair how you're treating me and basically ignoring me." "Its not that I'm ignoring you Peyton, but I want more and your not willing to do that." "I thought we were friends, but you have just walked away from me." "We are friends, but you need to figure out who you are and what you want out of life, its like your caught in the middle and maybe your just bi-sexual." "I know I'm not bi-sexual because I have no interest in girls." "Then face the fact that your gay and accept it." He walked away, I was crushed and I knew that I had lost him.
After graduation, we said our goodbyes as if we were strangers and left for college. December approached and I headed home for the holidays. I loved Christmas and when I walked in the house with the smell of the tree, Mom's cooking and all the decorations, it filled me with memories of being a kid without any baggage.
I made the decision that I was going to tell my parents that I was gay. The thought of doing it made me sick to my stomach but I was prepared for the worst and accepted the fact that they wouldn't want anything to do with me. I waited until the day after Christmas and told my parents I needed to talk with them. We sat at the kitchen table and I was trembling...Mom said...."What is it Peyton?" I looked at her and then my Dad, tears welling up in my eyes. "I have to tell you something and I know its going to hurt you but I cannot hold this inside me any longer." "Your scaring me Peyton." Mom cried out. "I have struggled with this for a long time and what I have to say is that my sexual preference is not with girls...I'm gay." Mom and Dad were quiet and then Mom looked at me fighting back the tears...."Peyton, your my Son and I love you but this is not something that I didn't expect. Your Dad and I have talked and had an idea because you were never interested in girls." "Dad said....Son, I can't say I'm happy about it but you have to choose your happiness in life, so your Mom and I will always be here to support you." "I began crying uncontrollably and I realized at that moment that accepting myself was tormenting me because of the hurt I would cause my family. I sat there crying but at the same time feeling an awesome sense of relief. Mom and Dad got up and hugged me and Dad said....if you need to talk to me I'm here for you. I went up to my room and looked in the mirror and I felt an awakening in me, to finally accept myself and the man that I am....a gay man! Suddenly my thoughts were of Ben and I picked up my phone to call him. His Mom answered and said that he went back to school and left with a friend of his. I hung up and at that moment I realized that Ben had found someone. He was home and never reached out to me.
I returned to College and for the next four years Ben and I never spoke. I thought about him and picked up the phone so many times but never followed through. I began screwing around and there was plenty of eye candy on campus. I realized that I was a total bottom and the sex was always great except when I was being fucked my thoughts were always of Ben and I knew that the best of me was when we were together.
I graduated and secured a job in financial planning and investments. Home life was good but I decided it was time for me to get my own place. I had a sizable amount saved and decided instead of renting I would buy my own home. With Dad's help I found a perfect place, not a palace but a comfortable home in the country. It needed work so my Dad and I did some small remodeling and painting, then Mom cleaned every nook and cranny spotless. I purchased some furniture and the day it was delivered and put into place I just sat and looked around thinking, I wish I had someone to share this with me and my thoughts flashed to Ben.
The holidays were approaching and as usual Mom had a big Thanksgiving planned with all the family. My grandparents and a few of my aunts and uncles were also attending. As Thanksgiving approached I told Mom I would bring the dessert. I enjoyed cooking and enrolled in a few cooking classes and I loved it. So for Thanksgiving, as promised I made a Raspberry Trifle, which is pound cake drizzled with raspberry liquor, cut in cubes and placed in a trifle bowl, then a creamy custard , raspberry sauce and covered with fresh whipped cream dotted with raspberries. Thanksgiving was wonderful with all the family and as Dad said Grace, I closed my eyes and thanked God for all my blessings. Once again Ben overtook my thoughts. Dessert was served and my Trifle was a big hit.
As time passed, Christmas was only a few weeks away. I purchased a big artificial tree and planned to spend Saturday evening in decorating mode. I loved Christmas so I took a nice hot shower, relaxed for a bit and then lit a fire in the fireplace and set up the tree. The doorbell rang and I opened the door and there he was. My heart began racing so fast I thought I was going to pass out. "Ben, what a surprise, how did you know where I lived?" "I just came from your house and your Mom told me." 'Come in, please."
"Wow, Peyton you have an awesome home, the open floor plan is amazing." "Come on, let me take your coat and I'll show you the rest of the house." When we walked into the bedroom, Ben noticed a pic of us when we were in 7th grade.. "Man, you still have this picture?" "Yes, it's a reminder of the special friendship we had." "I think we still do or I hope that we do." We finished the tour and went to sit in the living room. "You really caught me off guard, you were the last person I expected to ring my doorbell." "I'm sorry, I haven't kept in touch, but I wanted you to accept yourself and I thought as long as I was around you wouldn't move forward because of how I felt about you, but you didn't feel the way I did." Then time just slipped away, I got involved with other guys, but you were never out of my thoughts." "That's not true Ben, you caught me off guard when you said you loved me and never gave me a chance to sort through my feelings." "I'm sorry Peyton but we were so young and you rejecting me just pushed me away." "I guess I understand....I told my parents and once I did that, they accepted me I was ready to work on myself and I did." "You walked away from me and I know I hurt you but you could have talked to me, but you never did and its been almost five years." "I'm sorry, the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you but you hurt me too, so I thought it best to just move on and let you find yourself." "I thought you were seeing someone and I should have reached out but it felt awkward." "Ah, were you jealous seeing me with someone?" "You're still an ass Ben, but yes, for the first time I felt the pain of jealousy. "Peyton, let's leave the past behind and just look forward because I have missed you and I want us to be together again, like when we were kids. I started laughing..."Man you are funny, we are no longer kids, but I would love for us to be friends and have some fun like when we were kids." "It's a deal Peyton Reed, how about bestfriends?" "Ben, we have always been bestfriends." We hugged and his scent was enough to make very dirty thoughts go through my head. I felt an awakening, realizing that I have always loved Ben, when we were kids, teens and into adulthood.
"Okay how about I help you get this tree decorated." "Are you sure?" "Of course I'm sure, I love decorating a tree." It took us a little over an hour and we were done. We sat on the sofa and stared at the beautful tree with its twinkling lights." "Hey how about a nice cold beer?" "I thought you would never ask....yes!"
We sat talking, and talking as if we had never been apart because there was this incredible bond between us that could never be broken. I looked at him and realized how handsome he was and how much he had bulked up and was no longer the skinny teenager. He was transformed into an adonis in my eyes.. As I continued looking at him I got a stiring in my crotch and said to him...."Ben, you know you were always the best of me and even though sometimes your words hurt me I know you did it because you cared and wanted me to accept myself." " I never stopped loving you Peyton, I just had to give you the space you needed to become the beautiful man you are." I leaned over and kissed him, his warm lips setting off a fire within me. I took his hand and led him to the bedroom. We stood facing each other as I unbuttoned his shirt and removed it. He lifted my henley shirt over my head and chest to chest, our arms wrapped around each other and then a kiss that was driven by love. "Ben, I love you, I have loved you since the day we became friends as kids." "Tell me more how you feel." "Right now, I just want you in me and you will know how I feel." Our jeans came off and then our briefs and the site of Ben's big thick cock and his hairy body set the stage for some steamy love making. Ben was no longer the eighteen year old skinny guy but now a man with an awesome chiseled body and it was going to be mine.
He bent me over the bed, spread my cheeks and began rimming me and the touch of his tongue on my puckered hole turned a fire in me to a blaze. "Peyton, your ass is perfect." "Just keep using that tongue." After feasting on my manhole he had me lay on my back. He straddled me and aimed his weapon at my portal and pushed in passing my tight muscle. I cringed because his cock was so fat, but he leaned down and kissed me then whispered in my ear that he loved me, as he slithered his way into me. Suddenly he hit just the right spot and I took hold of his firm ass pushing him deeper into me. "Ben, fuk me, I'm ready." He began a rhythm slowly at first and then building as my walls stretched to accommodate him. "Fuck Peyton, this feel so good, your amazing." Our bodies were now in fuck mode as the bed squeeked and banged against the wall. His body on mine, rubbing against my cock with such incredible sensations in my ass was all I needed. "Fuck, Ben, I'm going to cum." "Yes, me too, fuck!" I had so much cum on me and Ben licked every drop, snowballing it into my mouth as we kissed sharing my seed.
The afterglow from the sex was wonderful as we just laid there, holding hands. "Ben, I don't ever want us to be apart again, move in with me." "You mean that and are you sure?" "I have never been so sure of anything in my life." "Do you mean you want to grow old with me, Peyton?" "Yes, I want to share every moment together for the rest of our lives." "Okay"
The following Christmas we celebrated one year together with Champagne and the best sex. Afterwards we sat in the living room with just the tree on and the fire blazing and it was all perfect. Ben got up and got something from under the tree, a small package and handed it to me. "I thought we weren't opening presents until tomorrow morning?" "Just this one Peyton." I opened the package finding a velvet black box as my heart began to beat rapidly. I opened it and inside were two matching gold wedding bands. I looked at him and said...."This is special isn't it?" "Yes Peyton, will you marry me?" "My eyes began to rain and I managed to get one word out. "Yes" "Look at the engraving." I looked at the inside of the rings and engraved were the words, 'The Best of Me'. The rain turned into a downpour as we hugged each other."
The following Christmas we were married with the love of Ben's parents and mine. I guess sometimes in life when you think everything is the worst, it turns out to be the best....
Quote for Thought....
The greatest gift in life is to love and be loved in return....