Love is harsh

Ok so, i live in small village where everyone knows everyone. I was very known there, people loves me but they don't the real secret where I feel something to boys, which hold me till know faci g the truth and trying to change it, trying to change my feelings not because others, just because the war that im holding me versus myfeelings. Which I think its not the right path to feel something to other boys.

So the story begins when  I started to work at the popbar, I meet someone, My words can't describe how I felt backthere when I saw him, It's difficult to express how beutiful he is. Day after day working there together, I known him more, Its true that I was very cleaver cause I know how let others admire in my personality. So after many days working together we have become really close friends, hanging out together. 

After two months of getting close to eachother I felt something Like a huge stone sitting on my heart, on my chest, Idon't know how to express the feeling but it was great, from that moment I knew that I felt in love with my little close friend, he was 18 years old. 

After 4 months of being knowing each other I had to tell him that because everytime I think about him I felt a bad feelings because how far he is from me, and I need him to be mine, I wasn't know if he straight, but I took the chance, to know if have the same feeling for me. Also, I was afraid to lose him by telling them the truth.

The time has come and I can't handle it anymore, so I write for him a big message and told him the truth, I swear my heart was boombing like someone who running 10km in hes maximus speed. 

After two minutes, appears to me that he saw it, and start typing...

 He texted me back that he was in shock and he told me thats good to express my feelings but hes not feeling the same way for me. We have end the chat there. I decided not to text him before he will. After this day thinking of him everyday, he didnt texted me after a peroid of 2 months. I thought that our relation has been ended. But whoo my phone ringing and guess who was that, the one that I felt for him the most.

He talked to me and we back friends like the old days, with days I decided to forget the way I felt for him, until this night has arrived. 

We was at bar somewhere me and him and other friend called jonas, we drinked a lot of beer and got drunk. This day I wasn't thinking about anything just how happy I am that we back friends like the old days. So after we exit the bar we decided to go to jonas home to sleep over there.

We entered hes room and it was devided to two sections where, section with 2 sofas and the other one with bed where he sleeping. Jonas was so tired, so he goes to sleep. After 5 minutes I felt something touching my pants, I told him what was that, he did it again and again touching me with hes foot on my average dick, 7-8 inches, after that he texted me he told me are you still falling in love with me. My heart rate reachs new all time high after I saw this message, I texted him back with big yes, we started to text each other because we have to be careful that jonas will not going to awake. 

We was sitting infront of each other on big sofa, In the same time while we texting eachother he was fighting to reach my dick and gets me naked with hes foot. After he reached it he Came to me that  I should try to jerk him off two, so I did like he said, I started to jerk him of, after 2 minutes he texted me that he going to suck mine, I respond go for it, it was the first time someone sucked mine and it was fucking great, he started to suck mine like a pro, it felt so greatttt, I putted my hands on his face to feel how its going after two minutes, I can't handleeee it, I told him that I will cumm, i will cumm in hes mouth, in the mouth of the one that I loved the most, I cummed and he continues to suck, ahhh it felt so great. But after I cummed I felt that I did something bad. Like  I said before Im not the person who agrees with this stuff, but happend what happend. After I shoted my load. he told me that is my turn, I turned to him and felt his thick dick in my hand, he was about 6 inches beautiful dick, every gay will dream to suck like this dick. So I took it in my mouth for the first time in my life and started to suck it, I goes up a littlebit to kiss him on hes chest, on hes neck and goes back to suck him again, I sucked hes thick cock that day and it felt so great. After this day we dont did it again, we talked to each other that we was drunk, but we still close friends until know, and I still thinking about this day.