I can't control my pig urges

Hello. You can call me Piggy for now. You’ll probably persuade me to give you my real name in the comments or private message. I’m just a pig right? 

it all started off when I had my first wank, when I was a teen in my attic in Ireland. It was so weird. Like the first time I realized I was getting horny + for men’s cock. I started researching and found a website called Craigslist. I began chatting to (you guessed it..) older dominant filthy men. At the time, Skype was very popular and one day I got a video call from a man I agreed to meet later that night. 

I snook out my house window that night around to the back of the lane and into an open car park where his car was. My first sexual experience was with an older morbid pervert, with a small shrivelly cock. But I loved every second of it. He said I was the best cock sucker he’d ever had. After we finished he gave me 20 euro unexpectedly. I didn’t understand prostitution back then and thought to myself this could be handy?

I kindly accepted and he asked my name I said ________ ________ . He knew generally where I lived but not the exact address. Next night he asks do I want another 20€? I say of course. I suck him again. He says how’s my mother _____ and father _____ doing? My heart sunk. He made it clear that I was gonna be his little bitch and if I disobeyed he would tell my family. 

long story short I had to come out and suck him off every night for about 5 months until one day he stopped texting me. While I was forced to obey and do as I was told, I began to start feeling the sexual urge to serve. I really do think it was all of his dirty mind being ejaculated down my throat every night which formed me into the new filthy pig I am today.

I am now 24 with my whole life ahead of me. But do I want to live the standard life? Or do I want to be a filthy cum bucket pig for the rest of my life? I choose the latter. My urges are uncontrollable lately. I post on Grindr that I’m a submissive pig that needs to be blackmailed and chastity in order to fulfil my true destiny. But sometimes when I cum I lose my fantasy. I need to be in a chastity lock. I have fantasized about the day I am truly someone’s pig! 

If anyone can help, please do!