Aaron's Different, Yet He's the Same

Last Night

The first time Joshua pressed into the thigh, his partner groaned just slightly. He gave a gentle kiss to the cheek as his hand moved up and pressed into the groin. A louder moan was permission to continue, and he moved his head farther down. Pushing the shirt up, he kissed just below the belly button as his expert fingers unbuttoned and unzipped the pants. He quickly got off the bed and removed the pants by pulling on the bottom of the pant legs. The jeans slid off easily. His partner’s lack of underwear excited him. While up, he removed his own pants and underwear. The shirt came off over his head. Another shirt hit him in the chest, and he glanced down at the bare chest just now exposed.

He moved back onto the bed and buried his nose in the pubic hair. A scent he had never experienced before caused his heart to race faster. He pushed his tongue forward and moved his head down to contact the small clitoris of his first pussy. His tongue movements cause his partner to moan more loudly.

“Inside.” Whispers, barely audible, directed him. “Please, put it inside me.”

Joshua moved between the legs and pushed his throbbing cock down. He was surprised at how easily his dick entered the hole. A completely different experience from the last ass he’d fucked. This hole was warmer, wetter; the smell was pleasant, intoxicating. He began to thrust deeply but gently. This was a feeling he could get used to.

* * *

One week earlier, Joshua Strickland was feeling the pressure of midterms. Two of his classes required midterm projects rather than exams, and only one of those projects was completed and turned in. The other required more work with his partner Amy. He liked Amy. She was personable and hard-working, and she didn’t mind that he was gay. She joked once that her first two boyfriends had turned gay after dating her, and she wondered whether she should start with a gay man and see if she could turn him straight. Joshua wondered out loud whether any guys had turned their girlfriends into lesbians.

When Amy announced that it didn’t work that way, his look told her that she hadn’t turned any guys. They both laughed at their own silliness as they worked to complete the project.

On Tuesday, they met for lunch to discuss their strategy for completing the project. They planned to meet that Friday so they could work as late as needed; although, both of them thought less than two hours of work would be all that was needed. During the lunch meeting, Arjun Gupta showed up with David Rodriguez. Arjun had been Joshua’s boyfriend until he caught his best friend David with his dick in Arjun’s ass. The lunch meeting wasn’t as productive at that point.

“I know I’m better off having discovered his cheating now rather than later, but it hurts that both he and my best friend would betray me that way.” He looked at an understanding Amy. “Better things are in my future.”

“I know they are,” she told him.

They left the café with firm plans to meet at six on Friday at the apartment Amy shared with another coed. Joshua had only eaten half his lunch and spent the afternoon embarrassed by the gurgling noises his stomach made in French class.

On Friday, Joshua and a large number of students were standing in the rain as a faulty fire alarm forced the exit of Camden Hall. Since the day was relatively warm, many had foregone the use of a jacket. Believing that they would soon be back in the classroom, most students waited, and at ten they were told the building would remain closed for the rest of the day.

Joshua headed back to his dorm room for a hot shower and dry clothes. As he headed into the communal bathroom with his things, Nick Millard saw him.

Nick had been struggling with revealing his attraction to Joshua. He had not come out to family or friends, but he had heard about Arjun’s betrayal and was looking for the right time to talk to Joshua, but because their schedules were so different, Nick rarely saw Joshua, and when he did, neither man was alone.

Nick made a split-second decision and followed Joshua into the shower room. “Joshua?”

Joshua turned. “Yeah?”

“I need to talk to you.”

“Let me get out of these wet clothes and rinse off, OK?”

“Sure.” Nick’s voice weakened.

Joshua got into the shower; the hot water felt good. He had recognized the tone in Nick’s voice. Please don’t let him have the hots for me, he thought. I’ll gladly be his friend and help him with any personal struggle, but…” Joshua rinsed off and dried. He slipped into his dry clothes. “You still there, Nick?”

“Yeah.”

“Do you want to talk in my room?”

“Sure.”

Joshua put his hand on Nick’s shoulder. “It’s going to be alright,” he nodded.

Nick immediately teared up and fought against the tears that he knew wanted to burst forth. He had bottled things inside for so long.

The two men got to Joshua’s room and went inside. Joshua hugged Nick. “Unless you’ve killed someone, or worse, we can work things out.”

Nick looked up at Joshua. “What’s worse than killing someone?”

“Uh. I… uh… Killing two people?”

Nick began to laugh. “What the fuck are you talking about?”

Joshua smiled. “I’m just trying to let you know that whatever you’re about to tell me is probably not the worst thing in the world.”

“I’m gay, Joshua, and sometimes I want to die. I’m so alone, and I don’t know what to do.”

Joshua moved the two next to the bed so they could sit. “First of all, being gay is not the worst thing in the world. It’s just another way of being in the world, and maybe it’s not the easiest thing, but you’ve just made it a little easier by telling me.

“Wanting to die is more serious. Do you want to hurt yourself?”

“No,” replied Nick. “I just sometimes don’t want to be here anymore, but I don’t want to kill myself. I just want the pain and confusion to stop.”

Joshua pulled Nick to him and kissed his temple. “I think you should sort that out with a counselor, but I want you to know that you are not alone. There are a lot of gay men here in this dorm. Some are out, so it’s easy to talk to them. Some are frightened like you. Some don’t want to face it yet. And just so you know, most of the straight guys I know, don’t give a shit that you’re gay. The few that do have been brought up to hate, and many of them don’t even realize that.”

Nick hugged Joshua.

“And now, as for not knowing what to do,” Joshua continued. “You knew what to do. You found someone to talk to. That’s how you build friendships, but you know that. Now, if you’re looking for sex, I’ll give you some advice, but I want you to know that you may end up making mistakes. It doesn’t matter whether you’re gay or straight, relationships are often difficult and messy. Even if you’re just looking for a blowjob or a fuck, you have to keep your eyes open to stay out of trouble.”

“I think you’re sexy,” said Nick. “Plus, I heard that you just broke up with a guy, so I knew you were gay. I think that’s why I decided to trust you.”

“You’re going to find that a lot of guys are sexy.”

“I think Paul, my roommate is sexy, too.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, but he’s so shy that he doesn’t really talk much.”

“Do you want to tell him?”

“I sometimes dream that he slips into bed with me at night,” answered Nick.

“Well,” replied Joshua, “we can stay here, and I can hold you to remind you that you’re not alone, or I can help you scope things out with Paul. Want to take a risk?”

“What if he’s not gay?”

“Then you can start thinking about someone else slipping into your bed.”

Nick smiled. “OK.”

“Is he likely to be there now?”

“Maybe, it’s almost lunchtime.”

“Then let’s go.” Joshua got up and led the way to Nick’s and Paul’s room. He opened the door to find Paul on his bed reading a book. Paul sat up.

“Hey, Paul,” said Nick.

“Hey,” he replied.

“Hi, Paul. I’m Joshua; I’m a friend of Nick’s. I don’t know whether you know this, but I’m gay, and I just broke up with my boyfriend.”

“You don’t mind that your friend is gay?” Paul directed the question to Nick.

“Of course not,” Nick answered, and taking a deep breath, he said, “I’m gay, too. I should have told you before.”

“I wish you would have,” said Paul. “I wanted to invite my boyfriend to come to visit and stay the night, but I wasn’t sure you’d be comfortable with it.”

“Of course you can invite him,” replied Nick.

“Thanks. Did you want something?”

“Just to ask you if you wanted to join us for lunch. Roommates should be friendlier.” Nick smiled.

“Yeah,” said Joshua.

“I want to finish this chapter first, and I want to call my boyfriend and let him know.”

“See you later, then,” Joshua waved.

The two men went into the hall. Nick’s face showed disappointment.

“Let’s go sit at the gay table. I bet the boys will fight over you.”

Nick laughed, but Joshua was right. Once the others knew that Nick was gay, several of them wanted to go out with him. Steve wasn’t one of them. He whispered in Nick’s ear, “If you want a blowjob, just let me know. I love to suck cock, and I’m really good at it. But I ain’t looking for a boyfriend, and I don’t fuck.”

Joshua left and went back to his room. He had a few hours to read a few chapters of Comparative Anatomy and study some French vocabulary. For most people, the hours might seem to drag by, but before he knew it, it was time to head to Amy’s.

At just a few minutes before six, Joshua knocked on Amy’s door. A cute guy answered. He introduced himself as Amy’s brother Aaron, and Aaron had some news for Joshua.

“Amy’s at the doctor right now. She thinks she broke her finger. But she says she’ll be here as soon as she can. I’m going to order some sandwiches from Jimmy Johns. What do you want?”

“Umm. To come in?”

“Sorry. I’m a little frazzled, and you’re cuter than she described.”

“Thanks.” Joshua walked into the living room. Their project was still on the coffee table. “I guess I can get to work; the board just needs to be finished.”

“So what kind of sandwich do you want? I’m going to get a turkey and cheese with avocado. I’ve got some Coke in the refrigerator.”

“The same for me.”

“My mom’s paying; she’s with Amy now. Do you want chips and a cookie?”

“Why not. Salt and Vinegar.”

“Cool. I love those. I’ll get this called in and then I’ll assist you but not help you.” Aaron went into the kitchen.

Joshua wondered how he planned to assist but not help and got to work. Aaron came back a few minutes later and sat down near him. “Tell me which supply you need, and I’ll get it for you, and when you finish with something like the glue, I’ll take it from you. That way I’m not actually doing anything directly with the project.”

“OK. That actually sounds like a good plan.” The two of them began to work together; it began a little roughly, but soon they were working like the proverbial oiled machine.

Joshua moved back. “The only thing that’s left is the lettering. That’s Amy’s domain; I wonder whether she’ll be able to manage it.”

“If she can’t,” said Aaron, “I bet you’ll take care of it just fine. I’ve been watching you work.”

The doorbell rang, and Aaron got up and took delivery of the sandwiches.

“Can I help?” Joshua called out.

“I’ve got it.”

Aaron came in with their food, and Joshua noticed that he sat a little closer. They locked eyes. Joshua noticed that Aaron was more than cute. He had muscular arms and legs that contrasted with his dark brown emotional eyes.

“You’re full of contradictions, aren’t you?” asked Joshua.

“What do you mean?”

“Look at you,” said Joshua. “You have a boyish face, but your arms and legs are those of a man. Your voice is soft and gentle yet your vocabulary reveals how smart you are, not that those are mutually exclusive. I didn’t mean to embarrass you.”

“You didn’t.” Aaron stretched his hand forward and ran his fingers over Joshua’s chest. “I like you.”

“And I like you.”

“Yeah, well, maybe it’s a little more than like.”

“I like your honesty, your straightforwardness. I’m feeling attracted as well.” He rubbed a finger over Aaron’s ear.

Aaron flattened his hand on Joshua’s chest. “Is your chest hairy?”

Joshua smiled. “Just in the middle where you have your hand.”

“Touching you, it’s making me feel…”

Joshua leaned forward and kissed him. “Did that make your dick hard? I can feel mine swelling.”

Aaron wasn’t sure what to say. Joshua kissed him again and noticed Aaron rub his crotch. Joshua rubbed his and realized that he wanted Aaron in a way he had never wanted another man. Some of the sensations were strange to him, but the desire to be inside him was familiar and strong.

Aaron rested his head on Joshua’s shoulder and squeezed one of his pecs. “I want to feel your skin against mine. And I want…” Aaron bit his lower lip. “You said I was honest.”

“I trust you.”

Aaron took a deep breath. “I was born a girl.”

Joshua thought for a moment. “But you’re a guy now, right? You’re not just pretending to be one.”

“No. I’m not pretending. I’m a guy, but I don’t have a dick. I didn’t get the surgery. It was too expensive.”

Joshua kissed him again. “I still want you in a way that I can’t explain.”

“And…” Aaron rubbed his hand across Joshua’s crotch and gripped the hardening penis. “I’ve never been with anyone. I got a text from my mom that she is taking Amy home after the doctor. My mattress is in Amy’s room. It’s where I sleep when I stay over.”

“Take me.”

Aaron took him into the room and they laid next to one another, kissing and touching. After a short time of making out, Joshua removed Aaron’s pants and then his own. Once their shirts were also removed, they were again side-by-side, kissing, touching.

Joshua moved down Aaron’s abdomen and buried his nose in the pubic hair. A scent he had never experienced before caused his heart to race faster. He pushed his tongue forward and moved his head down to contact the small clitoris of his first pussy. His tongue movements cause Aaron to moan more loudly.

“Inside.” Whispers, barely audible, directed him. “Please, put it inside me.”

Joshua moved between Aaron’s legs and pushed his throbbing cock down. He was surprised at how easily his dick penetrated the hole. A completely different experience from the last time he’d had sex. This hole was warmer, wetter; the smell was pleasant, intoxicating. He began to thrust deeply but gently. Aaron moved his legs up and around Joshua, meeting his thrusts with an angle change that heightened their pleasure. Aaron’s hand moved down and pushed his clitoris down toward the thrusting cock.

Aaron pulled Joshua’s head toward his. The two continued to kiss as they drew pleasure from the intercourse. Joshua felt his balls tighten, and he moved his upper torso perpendicular to Aaron’s. He held his partner’s legs at the ankles and spread them apart. The position change elicited a guttural moan from Aaron.

“I’m close, baby,” grunted Joshua.

Aaron began to rub his clit. The pressure of Joshua’s dick inside him and the friction at the entrance to his hole was pushing him close. He continued to manipulate his clit until he felt every muscle in his body contract and a rush of ecstasy overtake him.

Joshua witnessed the orgasm and responded by pushing himself deep inside his partner to deliver his seed. Three times he thrust deeper and harder than before, and three times his cock spewed for a heavy load of cum.

Aaron’s eyes misted as he pulled Joshua next to him. The experience was more than he had ever imagined or hoped it could be. Joshua and he had a connection that went beyond the sex they had just enjoyed.

“This was more than just fucking,” Joshua admitted. “I don’t understand what it is, but I feel that I need you in my life.”

Aaron kissed him. He knew he wanted to share his life with Joshua. “Could this be love at first fuck?” he asked.

“I think it is,” was the reply.