Ross and I have been going to the gym. I had gain more muscle and I was closer to Ross, but Ross could lift more. We went out on dates almost every Friday. Nicky, dad and I still had our fun. We started school, I have been making straight A's.
It was time to meet Ross in gym, I walked to the locker room and heard moans. I peaked around the corner and saw Ross ramming a dudes ass. I watched it happen and when they finished, I listened to them talking.
"when are you going to get rid of him? It's been almost a month..." The man said.
"I actually like him." Ross replied as he started putting on his jeans.
"Dump him. Or I'm leaving."
"Fine, love you," Ross said as kissed him. Tears filled my eyes seeing this. I turned to start walking when I heard Ross yell my name. I walked faster as I heard him walk towards me. He started to run so I ran. I reached the doors and opened them quickly. I could barely see when I got to the car. I got in and slammed the door. I heard Ross's yell and I locked the door. I wiped the tears and turned on the car. I looked out the window and Ross was banging on it, he was crying. I glared at him, I shifted into reverse.
"LET ME EXPLAIN!" I heard Ross yell, it was muffled a bit. I rolled down the window just less an inch. I didn't want to hear him, but I knew he wouldn't let me go easily, I hoped he wouldn't.
"What." I simply said.
"Please, I'm sor-" he started.
"FOR WHAT?! YOU SAID YOU LOVED HIM!! YOU CHEATED ON ME!! WHAT IS THERE TO EXPLAIN?!?" I wiped tears from my eyes. There was a long pause.
"Im just going to go..." I heard a voice, I looked in the mirror and saw the dude Ross fucked, I glared at him and he quickly went away.
"Really? Really...? Just..." I wasn't paying attention enough, and when I hit the button to roll the window up, I accidentally hit the wrong one and unlocked the car. I wasn't quick enough and Ross got the door open. He grabbed me and pulled me out of the car. He slammed me into the side of it and kissed me. His tongue tried to come in but I jerked my head to the side. I pushed him away, with my recent workouts, I was stronger, not stronger then him but strong enough to get him off of me. I jumped into the car and locked the door instantly. I pulled out, Ross just stood and cried.
When I got home, I tried not to make it seem like something happened. I couldn't hide it from Nicky, he knew me to well. He took one look in my eyes and knew I was upset.
"Come," he simply said. I followed him to Dads room and he hugged me. I lost it, I cried into his shoulders quietly.
"What happened?" He finally asked.
"Ross, I saw... I saw him with another man... He said.. He said he loved him..." I explained the conversation at the car.
"Son of a....." Nicky started to get up, but I stopped him.
"No, it's not worth it." I told him. I felt pain inside, i couldn't believe Ross said that. I laid down and stared out the window. I was about to fall asleep when dad came in.
"Hey buddy, I'm sorry," my dad tried to cheer me up. I didn't reply so he left.
Night came and I couldn't sleep. I only thought of Ross. I pushed him aside when my dad came in.
"Come on, you cant be in here forever, want us to cheer you up?" He asked. Nicky stood behind him.
"I guess so..."
My dad came and picked me up, I would've tried to get down but i let him. He walked towards another bedroom that I've never been in. He tossed me onto bed and yelled at me to undress. I knew what he was doing, he was going commando. I wasn't turned on, I wasn't in the mood.
"Not now dad," I tried to tell him. But I realized I didn't have a choice. I could have beat my dad, but it would be a struggle, but I undressed.
"Damn you getting hot," my dad complimented. He undressed and got on top of me, he started kissing on my neck . He pulled out some lube and lubed us up. I moaned as he started fucking me. He did it hard and rough. He pulled out when he cummed and left. I just got under the covers and tried to sleep.
I couldn't sleep. Not at all. All i wanted was Ross. I missed him so much. Why couldn't I have kissed him back on that last kiss? I'm not going to give up so easily though. He cheated on me, he said he loved that man. But all the good times. The was he held me in his arms. I would do anything to be his again. But I will not put up with him cheating.
Somewhere in the night, I drifted off to sleep. I dreamed of this church. There were people sitting and staring at me. Some looked very familiar. Nicky was at my side. Is this my funeral?! There was a man in a tuxedo. I couldn't see his face, but I awoke up.
When I fell asleep, I had the same dream. I saw my mom and dad sitting on the front row, Jackson sat beside of them, they all smiled. Nicky walked me to the front. There stood Ross.
I woke before more could happen. I tried figuring out the dream but it was hard. I wanted to know why? what does it mean?
I didn't sleep anymore that night. I couldn't. I wanted to, but I couldn't . I stared at the ceiling, replaying the dream in my head. It was finally getting light so I got out of the bed. I went to school, it went slowly like a usual Monday. I knew Ross never went to the gym during the week until Friday so I went down there. Ross wasn't there so I went with my routine. When I was leaving, I saw Ross's car. My speed went faster to my car. I unlocked it and when I opened the door, Ross came up behind me. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me back. He slammed the door and held me.
"Let go of me." I demanded.
"Give me another chance."
"You cheated on me."
"Let me explain."
"What is there to explain? You said you loved him, end of discussion." I told him. I pulled away from his grip and jerked the car open.
"That was the friend I told you about. The one from the hurricane. He is moving to New York tomorrow. He wanted me to fuck him one more time. I don't see why you think of it as a big deal.... You get fucked by your dad and brother all the time." Ross yelled. That part caught my attention. I turned around and glared at him.
"You said you loved him!" I slammed the door behind me and started the car.
"Please. It was just one time, what about the good times?" He cried.
"I trusted you, it's over, bye." I locked the door so he couldn't open the door. He walked away. I drove off and headed to my dads when I noticed a car following me. I looked into the windshield and saw that Ross was in it. I pulled over to the side of the road, nobody else was on the road surprisingly. Ross immediately got out and ran to me. He kissed me again but I gutted him.
"Honestly, I would do anything to be in your arms. But you broke my trust. Don't follow me. Don't message me. Don't even look at me if you do see me."
"Anything? Then forgive me!" Ross cried.
"Why do you want me so bad? You were planning on dumping me anyways..." I leaned against the car, ready to take off.
"I dumped him."
"Because I love you! Why cant you love me?" He begged for forgiveness.
"I do, but you cheated on me," i fought the tears.
"Fine. At least read this," he pulled out a piece of paper and handed it to me. He then turned around and walked to his car. I unfolded the note.
I've never been so broken that it hurts intensely when I breathe I sit and cry an ocean not knowing what to think.
I feel as though I've let you down and your love for me will fade and I can't help but feel horrible for mistakes that I have made.
Just know how truly bad I feel for making you feel so vile I wish I could take it all away but it takes a little while
Saying the words I'm sorry just don't seem like enough but we'll get past this together like we do when times are tough.
I feel like you deserve better I hate what I put you through but if you give me the chance I promise I'll make it up to you.
Just please, Ross.