Trying to make the situation less strange than it already was, I got up and left.
'So I'll see you tonight?' Ryan called after me.
'Yeah, sure.' I said blindly. I walked next to the pool and was lightly splashed by some of the kids playing in it. I walk to the stairs that lead bellow deck and to a lounging room. I continued to wander to a couch and sat down, picking up a magazine that was sitting on the coffee table in front of it.
'Anyone sitting here?' A lady's voice asked.
I didn't look up, 'no.'
I felt the cushion next to me shift. I continued to skim through the magazine, trying to get my mind off of Ryan.
'Oooh, he's hot!' I heard the lady say from next to me.
I looked up at her to see where she was looking. I followed her gaze to a man sitting at the bar.
'You've got to be kidding me.' I threw down the magazine and shifted my position on the couch so that I was facing the opposite way.
'What?' The lady asked. I heard her set down her book.
'Oh nothing.' I turned and looked back over to the man at the bar. Ryan was standing at the bar looking in my direction.
'Is that guy looking at me.' The lady turned towards me and nodded her head at Ryan.
I thought for a second, 'Yes, yes he is! You should go talk to him.'
'Oh I couldn't possible do that.' She stated. I just noticed that she had a British accent.
'Why not? Go for it! What's the worst that can happen.' I said. I wanted her to distract Ryan while I left the room.
'I guess you're right. I mean, I'm good looking. What could he say, he's gay?' She chuckled.
I gave a nervous laugh and looked over her shoulder, 'so, go talk to him!'
She turned to look at him and then turned back to me, 'yeah, I think I will.' She stood up and brushed the front of her skirt, 'how do I look?'
'Really good! Now go before he leaves.' I said while making a shooing motion with my hands.
'Thanks, love!' She walked over to him.
Ryan continued to look in my direction even though the girl standing next to them. I could see their lips moving. I caught myself trying to hear what they were saying. After a moment or two of them talking, she lightly placed her hand on his arm.
'Whore.' I mumbled. I stopped paying attention to them.
'I'm not jealous of her.' I tried telling myself, 'she's just a trashy looking, unappealing whore, that's all.'
I picked up the magazine and started reading. I heard laughter coming from where Ryan and the lady were standing. I quickly turned my head and saw the woman whispering into his ear.
'Such a little tramp!' I said, this time out loud.
They both looked at me. I smiled and waved, trying to play the situation off. The lady (I still don't know her name) waved back, Ryan just smiled coolly and went back to talking. I set the magazine down, got up, and stormed out of the lounging area back to my room.
I sat on the bed.
'Andy, get a hold of yourself. You don't even like the guy, stop getting jealous.' I said. I felt crazy talking to myself.
After a couple of minutes I heard a knock at the door.
'Who is it?' I shouted from the bed.
'It's Ryan.' He said.
'Hold on.' I stated annoyingly. I'm not sure why I felt like this towards him, but it was so much easier than admitting that I liked him.
I opened the door and let him in.
'What was that about?' He said while jumping on my bed.
I let go of the door handle and let the door shut by itself. I walked over to the bed, 'go ahead, make yourself at home.'
He laughed a little bit (to my incessant annoyance), 'planned on it.'
I smiled for a second, realizing how cute he was then turned back to a stoic face, 'anyway, why are you here again?'
'Oh yeah,' he moved over and patted on the bed next to him.
I sat on the bed.
'I believe you said something like 'such a little tramp?''
I could feel my face turning read, 'no, I said I have a cramp.'
He did an awkward smile and tilted his head sideways, 'yeah, uhm, sure.'
I was really embarrassed and stood up, 'look, if this is all you came here for, then it was a little pointless. Don't you think?' I walked over to the window, 'furthermore, I'm not jealous. I-I wasn't even talking about what's-her-face; I was talking about some girl in the magazine I was reading.' I paced over to the table, 'and besides, you aren't even really that cute. I mean, sure you have nice eyes and a pretty smile. And I mean, come on, who doesn't have a nice body,' I sat down, 'that doesn't mean anything.' I stood up and walked back over to the window, looking out of it, 'like I said, I'm not jealous.'
'You're right,' I felt his lips kiss my neck, 'you're not jealous one bit.'
So many things ran through my head, it was like I had extreme A.D.D.
I felt his hands run down my sides and...
'ANDY TIME FOR DINNER!' I heard mom say.
I stopped writing in my journal. Writing all of this stuff down was pointless, I'll never see that kid again even if I wanted to.
'Okay, I'll be right down.' I closed the book and set it inside of the drawer inside of my desk. I picked up my phone and scrolled down to his number, my hand on the call button. I shook my head and threw my phone to my bed.
I ran downstairs into the kitchen and sat in my seat across from mom.
'You've seemed a little pre-occupied ever since you got back from the cruise.'
'Yeah.' I poked at the lasagna on my plate.
'Anything happen?' Dad asked looking up at me.
I looked from him to mom and back, 'jet lag.'
'Oh,' dad looked down at his plate again, 'four days after you got back?'
'Yeah, can I be excused?' I stood up.
'What's wrong honey?' Mom asked.
'I don't know, I don't feel good.' I spit out, halfway through kitchen.
'Okay, well feel better.' I heard dad say, 'he's being really annoying right now.'
I sat down on the bottom step.
'I think we should take him to the doctor or something.' Mom said.
'He just needs to stop being a little boy and grow up.' Dad stated blatantly.
'You don't even know what's wrong with him, Clark.'
'He better straighten out soon.' Dad said, I heard him set his fork down.
I walked up the stairs to my room.
'I'm sorry I fell in love with a complete stranger,' I said to myself, 'it just kind of sucks to know that I'll never see him again.'
More to come.
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