Let's Play a Game (Chapter Thirteen)
I'm having the same dream again.
I was wearing a white suit, my mom is beside me, walking slowly with me. Once we were at the altar the man slowly turns towards me and I see his face. Only this time the man is not faceless, the man is Gio, standing in front of the altar.
He meets my eyes, holds my hands and kisses me softly in the lips, in front of everyone.
The pastor says "Do you Gio Callahan, take Jake Johnson to be you lawfully wedded husband?"
Gio looks directly to my eyes and says, "I do, with all my heart."
The pastor looks at me and says, "Do you, Jake Johnson take Gio Callahan to be your lawfully wedded husband?"
It's my turn to look him in the eyes, "I do."
That's when I wake up in the morning with a huge smile on my face. That's the best night's sleep I had ever since I came home.
My eyes adjust to the light and I see Gio's hand entwined with mine. He's asleep by my side, his head resting on my bedside.
"Jake, what's wrong?" I asked.
"Jake, please answer me!" I asked again, louder this time.
He won't answer me, he just kept running away.
"Jake stop! Talk to me!" I shout to him.
His running becomes faster.
He suddenly runs towards the middle of the road. I see a car speeding towards Jake.
"JAKE!!!!" I shout to stop him from running, but I'm late. The car already hit him. The driver running away.
I run towards Jake, I see he is unconscious. I pick him up, his body covered in blood. He won't answer to me.
I stare at his face for a while. He looks like he is in pain, his eyes look like he is in torment. His grip tightens around my fingers. That's when he wakes up.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"I'm fine. Are you hungry?" Gio asked.
"Gio, you said you were never going to lie to me. What's the matter?" I asked again.
"Fine, I didn't want to tell you this, but here it comes. Ever since I saw you get hit by that car, I kept on having that same nightmare over and over again. I try to save you but every time I try, I fail. When I reach you all I see is you lying in the middle of the road unconscious and your body covered in blood." Gio explained.
"They never stop, it just constantly reminds me of what I did to you." Gio added.
"I'm sorry." I said out of instinct.
"I'm sorry." Gio said.
"Look, I'm fine." I said.
"But, because of me you had an accident. Because of me you have a broken leg. Because of my stupidity you almost died." Gio said, now standing up.
"I'm sorry Jake! I'm sorry. I'm sorry-" Gio said repeatedly.
"Gio, stop!" I exclaimed.
"Come here." I said patting the side of my bed.
I know I should not have done it but I kissed Gio in the mouth. His body seemed to ease up a little.
I can't describe the kiss, it was short but it felt so right and so amazing. It's like what they describe in the movies, fireworks everywhere.
"How can you forgive me just like that?" Gio said.
"I hurt your feelings, I put you in danger, and still you forgave me." Gio said.
"I don't know. I guess love just works that way." I said.
"What?" Gio said taken aback.
"I guess what I'm saying is that I love you too." I said.
Gio hugged me tightly and I hugged him back, ignoring the pain I feel on my left arm.
I missed his hugs, his warmth, and his touch.
Since it is Saturday Gio can stay the whole day at our house. He had clothes delivered to him so he can take a bath and change.
For the past week, I only stand up to use the bathroom, but this time in weeks, I stand up and go out of my room. Gio gently guided me downstairs. He was patient with me since I was not used to walking around with a crutch.
Once we were downstairs, I ate a plate full of pancakes drenched in sweet syrup.
After wolfing down half of the pancakes, I can't eat any more. Gio ate the half for me.
For the next few weeks, Gio keeps his promise to my mom and me. He keeps me company. He takes good care of me, he caters to my every whim like I'm a freaking king. During the past week my leg casts were removed and I went to physical therapy since I have not used my legs for walking in a very long time.
The therapy lasted a week and now I can walk normally again. Yay!
We had exams before the therapy, so that's done. I think I aced all of them since Gio's been keeping me updated with what's happening at school.
When I had my exams, I was sitting in a wheel chair and Gio accompanied me everywhere I go. Alec did the same but he goes home when the school day ends. People were staring when Gio walked in with me that day but Gio just shrugged it.
"Gio, everything's back to normal, I can walk again. You can go home now." I said once we arrived at home.
"But..." Was all Gio could say.
"I'm sorry but you need to go home. You need to rest, you need sleep." I said.
"I get enough sleep here." Gio protests.
"Gio, sleeping in a couch does not count. It's uncomfortable and your back must hurt." I argued.
"I don't want to go home." Gio said in a childish manner.
"Can I just stay here one last night? Please please please!" Gio pleaded.
After giving it some thought I replied, "Fine, in one condition."
"Anything." Gio said.
"You don't sleep on the couch again." I replied.
"Where do I..? Are you suggesting what I think you are suggesting?" Gio asked.
"I don't know. Maybe?" I said sheepishly.
"Of course!! It will be my pleasure." Gio said hugging me tight.
Ever since Gio and I are in good terms, we haven't kissed in the lips since the time that I told him I love him. All he gives me are hugs and kisses to my forehead.
"So, what do you want to do now?" I asked.
"I want to change into something more comfortable." Gio said.
We went up to my room and change into shirts and boxers.
"Come on, let's eat dinner, my mom's gonna be home late."
We went downstairs and we cooked chicken and pasta for dinner. After we were done eating Gio washed the dishes and I cleared the table.
We got a blanket and sat on the couch sharing the blanket. Gio's arm is draped over me and my head is resting comfortably in the wedge of his neck. We watched a very scary movie afterwards. As it happens every time I watch a horror movie, I can't sleep on my own. It's good that Gio is here with me.
"I don't think I'll get some sleep tonight." I said.
"Aww, you scared?" Gio joked, tightening his arm over my shoulder.
"You know how I am with scary movies." I said.
"Don't worry, I won't let anything happen to you." Gio said.
"Come on, let's get some sleep. We still have school tomorrow." Gio added.
When Gio stood up he carried me like a kid. His arm was wrapped around my waist and my face was on his back. I fake protested while we were going up the stairs but Gio was stronger than me. He put me gently down my bed and then he playfully threw the blanket at my face.
"I'll just brush my teeth." Gio said walking towards the bathroom, his sexy back is all I can see.
Once he was done with his thing I did mine. When I got out of the bathroom I see Gio standing by the window talking to someone. When he sensed that I was finished he ended the call.
"Okay, so I'll talk to you tomorrow then." Gio said hanging up.
"Oh, who was that?" I asked.
"Alec." He said.
"Why was he calling?" I asked again.
"He was just checking in on you. Asking how you were." Gio replied.
"Oh, well, I'm good." I said.
"That's what I told him." Gio said.
"Oh ok. Well let's go to sleep." I said as I pulled him to my bed.
Once we were settled in bed Gio pulled me towards him, my back was facing him. He hugged me and said, "I hope this is okay with you."
I didn't say anything, I just pushed myself into him more. Gio hugged me tighter.
I could get used to this I said in my mind.
A few minutes later we were both soundly asleep.
When I woke up I was the one hugging Gio and his back was facing me and my dick was snuggled comfortably in the crack of his ass. When tried to move my position I feel something wet in my boxers.
Crap, did I just have a wet dream?
I try to see if Gio is awake.
"Someone had a good dream." Gio said with a very big smile on his face.
"Oh god. I'm sorry." I said starting to get up.
"Don't get up!" Gio said.
"I don't want to feel like a one night stand, I like to cuddle a little bit more." Gio joked.
"Oh stop!" I said.
"No, seriously, just cuddle with me for a few more minutes." Gio said.
We cuddled for a few more minutes, me hugging Gio.
I asked "Do you know what happened?"
"Well, I don't know how it started but I was woken up when I felt you thrusting towards me." Gio explained.
"Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked.
"I was about to, but I hear you whisper my name, again and again." Gio added.
"You were all like 'oh god, Gio' and I kind of liked it." Gio explained.
"Oh god, this is so embarrassing." I said burying my face in the pillow.
"Oh no, that is not embarrassing, this is embarrassing." Gio said as he grabbed my hand and pulled it to his crotch. It was also drenched with cum like mine. His dick is still hard and so is mine.
"I enjoyed your performance so much I couldn't contain it." Gio said.
"Wow, how do you respond to a statement like that?" I said.
"You know what the best part is? I haven't even touched myself, it was all you." Gio said now facing me.
"Thanks?" I said, unsure.
Gio kissed me in the forehead again and went to the bathroom after. After the usual morning pee, I heard him starting the shower. I wait for him to finish still lying in my bed.
When he was done, he came out of the shower with a towel wrapped around his waist his upper body exposed.
I rush to the shower and finish cleaning myself up so that we can go to school.
Ever since the week started, Gio started holding my hand whenever we are at school. We get weird glances but nothing major.
School was routine as usual. It's Friday today so we have swim practice. It was tiring being back on training again but I kind of miss the rush of being in the swimming pool again.
After an hour and a half of swimming practice, we were done for the day. Gio and I are finished changing when Alec decided to join us. We immediately went out of the school swimming pool afterwards.
"Jake, can I talk to you?" Alec said.
"Sure, what about?" I asked.
"Can we talk about it in private?" Alec asked.
"Oh okay." I said.
"Would you like to go ahead?" I asked Gio.
Gio looked at Alec.
"I'll bring him home safely." Alec said with a smile.
Gio hugged me goodbye and headed his own way. Once he was far away from us I asked Alec what he wanted to talk about. He said that he wanted to talk about it in another place.
We went to the park where Gio and Alec both told me that they have a "crush" on me.
"What are we doing here?" I asked, sounding a little hurt.
"I know that this is the last place you want to be." Alec said.
I was about to turn around and leave when Alec stood in front of me and hugged me. I almost fell down from the impact of his hug.
"I know that I am late for saying this but, I am sorry." Alec said while hugging me.
"I know that-that I what I did was wrong. I feel terrible for what I did to you. Ever since I saw lying there in the hospital, I can't sleep, I feel guilty for what I happened to you. When I saw your legs, I felt so scared that you might never walk again, and it's all because of me." Alec said still hugging, I feel his tears are flowing.
"I know you saw me kissing her. This might not change anything, but that's all that's happened between us. You might not believe it but I'm telling the truth. Ever since I saw you and Gio together, I felt really jealous. I felt empty inside, like I'm missing something. That's when I realized that I only felt this way the moment I lost you in my life. I tried to hide the fact that I have feelings for you because whenever I see you with Gio, you two look so happy, I didn't want to do anything to destroy that. And the more I see you together, the more I get jealous. I want what you both have. I only want to have that special bond with you, but I know I can't. Even though I can't have you, I just wanted you to know that I am in love with you. I needed to get that off my chest or else I will burst." Alec said with small sobs, his body was shaking and his voice was shaky as well.
We're still locked in a very tight hug. I don't care if people see us, it's dark in the park anyways. My eyes are now also wet from hearing what Alec said.
I don't know what to do. I know in my mind that I chose Gio over him, but now I don't know anymore. I know I love Gio with all my heart but I think I love Alec with all my heart too. If I were to choose right now between Gio and Alec, I would rather shoot myself in the head than make a decision.
I might just be dazed by what he said. Maybe I'm just shaken up by what he said. I just have to go home and clear my head. I need to think clearly, I'm with Gio. It's impossible that I love both of them.
Once Alec let go, he said that he will take me home. We were both quiet on the ride home. When we were in front of my house, I walked towards the door and Alec just stared at me. His eyes is a little bit watery but he has a smile on his face. Since I'm not that far from him, I went toward him and I hugged him tight. One last hug, I thought.
When his arms were wrapped around me, he sobbed "I can't let you go. I wish I could but I can't."
I don't even know what was going on in my head but I let go of his embrace and I kissed him on the lips.
They were warm and soft and they were shaking a little from his sobs. But when he realized what I did, he stopped and suddenly put both of his hands in the sides of my face. He kissed me back with passion that I never felt from him before.
Then there it is again, the feeling that everything in the world is right, even for a moment. Even the fireworks exploding everywhere, I felt that too, which made me so confused as hell. Can it be possible that I love both of them? Many people talk about finding his or her soul mate but can a person have two soul mates? I don't know.
When our lips parted, we were both breathless.
"I have to go." I said. I walked towards our house without looking back at him. When I entered the house, I closed the door immediately and broke down. I was sitting on the other side of the door with my knees close to my chest and my arms wrapped around it.
My eyes let go of the tears that I didn't even know were there. I have no idea on what I am supposed to do. My mind is completely fucked up.
I'm having the same dream again.
I was wearing a white suit, my mom is beside me, walking slowly with me. Once we were at the altar the man slowly turns towards me and I see his face. Only this time the man is not faceless, the man is Gio, standing in front of the altar, but I notice another man beside him, Alec.
Gio meets my eyes, holds my hands and kisses me softly in the lips, in front of everyone.
Alec does the same to me.
I woke up in the couch with a blanket over me. I realized that I cried myself to sleep last night.
I'm still confused. I don't know what to do.
I want them both.
I love them both.
Hey guys! I'm sorry this chapter took so long, my laptop was broken and I had to wait for a very long time before it was fixed. Anyways, I decided that this will not be the last chapter. I hope you like it though. Please comment and rate. I appreciate reading comments! You can also e-mail me!