Waking up with the love of my life in my arms was the greatest feeling I could have ever felt. I looked down at Rayne looking as delicate as ever in his sleep and couldn't help but admire the perfection of him. The experience we shared last night was not only sexy and romantic, it had brought us closer together.
Rayne must've sensed me admiring him because he soon woke up and kissed me good morning.
'Good morning, my beautiful,' I greeted him.
'Room service for breakfast?' he suggested.
One phone call and a few minutes later, there was a knock on our door. I retrieved our breakfast and tipped him before shutting the door and placing it on the table. Rayne got up out of bed wearing my shirt from last night and my knees almost gave way when I saw him. Nothing was more stunning than Rayne wearing one of my shirts after waking up in the morning.
'You're so beautiful,' I said to him.
'As are you, my King,' he said mockingly.
We dug into our breakfast meal which consisted of bacon, egg, hashbrowns and toast and even after all this time, Rayne's insatiable appetite never ceased to amaze me. After we had finished, we tossed the disposable plates into the bin and cuddled up together on the couch and switched the TV on to something unimportant.
I had Rayne against my chest and his whole body in my arm when his cell phone started to vibrate violently on the bedside table so he excused himself and answered it.
'Hello? Hi Jesse, what's up? I'm at the hotel with Brendan. Soon, I guess. Brendan and I might go out and do something. Why? News? What kind of news? Okay, I'll be home soon. Love you too. Bye.'
Rayne looked over at me with a confused expression on his face and told me that Jesse had some exciting news and that he wanted to tell him face to face soon.
After gathering our things and checking out of the hotel, I drove Rayne back to his house, quite anxious to find out what Jesse's news was. I parked my car and followed Rayne into his house where his parents and Jesse were standing around in the lounge room with undecipherable expressions on their faces.
'Hello Brendan,' his parents greeted me at the same time. Jesse settled for a nod of the head and he shook my hand quite firmly.
'Jesse, what's up?' Rayne asked.
Jesse looked at me, smiled and then asked Rayne to follow him into the other room. I sat down with Rayne's parents and they immediately asked me how my night was last night.
'It was great. Rayne and I had a lovely time last night,' I responded, trying to leave out the steamy details.
'You know, I'm very fond of you, Brendan. You treat my son with respect and you are without a doubt the greatest boyfriend of his we've ever met,' said Mr. Marshall.
'Thank you, sir,' I replied, feeling quite good about myself.
'Please call me Blaine,' he said kindly.
After some more small talk with Rayne's parents, Rayne stumbled into the lounge room looking like he was emotionally drained. I eyed him curiously but he ignored my stares and took my hand; he led me up to his bedroom and shut the door behind him.
'Rayne, baby, you're scaring me. What's up?' I asked him.
Rayne turned around and ran into me, wrapping his arms around me in a tight hug and he began to cry in my shoulder quite loudly. I wrapped my arms around him and comforted him by holding him tightly and planting kisses on him, telling him that I was here and nothing was wrong.
'Rayne, what's wrong? You can talk to me. I love you. Please tell me what's going on.'
Rayne stopped crying after a while and let go of his hold on me before sitting down on the edge of his bed.
'Jesse got a promotion and he's been transferred to Perth,' he explained.
I knew of how close Rayne and Jesse were so I immediately sat down next to him and wrapped my arm around him.
'You're going to miss him, aren't you?' I said.
Rayne shook his head and got out of my comfort and stood against the door with his back to me. Did I say something wrong?
'Rayne, honey, what's up? It's not like you're never going to see him again,' I said reassuringly.
'No, that's not it.'
'Well, talk to me baby. I'm here for you.'
'That's just the thing,' he said, turning around to reveal the tears in his eyes, 'I won't be.'
'What do you mean?' I asked him.
'I'm going with him.'
Those four words struck me like a bolt of lightning. I was sure he didn't say what he really said, but I replayed it over and over in my head until I was positive he said what he had said.
'What do you mean?' I repeated myself.
'I'm going to Perth with Jesse.'
'Wh-why?' I stuttered.
'I have to. I didn't know about it until then.'
'Why do you have to leave?'
'It's complicated. I wish I could stay here and be with you but that won't work out.'
Rayne sounded so sure of his decision to move and I had to admit, it was getting me a bit worked up. I had finally found love and had been loved and at the drop of a hat, he was leaving me to go and move to the other side of the country? I didn't understand. I was glad I was sitting down because otherwise I probably would have collapsed.
'We have half a year of school left. It's not smart to leave. Why can't Jesse just go by himself? Rayne, I need you here with me. I love you so much. Please don't go.'
'Brendan, stop being so selfish. I have to leave and that's that,' Rayne snapped at me.
'If me loving you and not wanting you to leave me is selfish, then I am the most selfish motherfucker on this planet. I love you, Rayne Marshall and I don't want you leaving me. Not now after everything we've been through. Why do you have to go? I'm pretty sure Jesse is completely capable of living by himself. You could move in with me if that's the case.'
'Brendan, stop it! You don't get it!'
'Then tell me what there is to get!'
'I just have to go, can't you leave it at that?'
'No, I can't! I need a valid reason.'
'Fuck off, Brendan!' Rayne turned to leave and he grabbed the door handle but I had managed to leap up and grab him before he could escape.
'Let go of me,' he mumbled through his teeth.
'Rayne, please, I'm begging you to tell me why you can't just stay here and be with me. Isn't my love enough?'
Rayne froze and all the tension in his shoulders ceased. He turned around and looked at me with his tear stained face and he lowered his head.
'Jesse has acute leukemia,' he mumbled barely loud enough for me to hear, 'he's stable at the moment but there are signs that it may come back later and for that reason, he cannot be alone. Mum offered to move with him but I couldn't allow Mum to separate herself from Dad. This is why I have to go.'
This was the first time I had ever heard of this and it hit me like a bus. I let go of Rayne and went to sit down on the edge of his bed and held my head in my hands as I stared down at the ground. I tried to think of ways I could rectify this situation but nothing could fix it. I had even entertained the idea of moving with them but I knew I couldn't.
Jesse needed someone to be with him and Rayne was the only person who could fill that position.
'I'm sorry,' Rayne said from the open doorway, 'I love you.'
And with that, Rayne shut the bedroom door and left me an emotional wreck.