Evan

As I made my way down the stairs my heart was pounding in my chest and I felt a lump rise in my throat like I was going to throw up. Part of me couldn't wait to see Jake, my best friend of over a decade, happy that he was here for my birthday. The other part of me was terrified that our friendship had changed and I would lose what I had come to cherish.

I thought back to when I told him I was gay. He just hugged me and said "thanks for telling me". It didn't make a difference to him because I was still the same Evan and it had no impact on our friendship. I didn't act differently. I didn't proclaim my love for him, even if it was what I was feeling. He was too important a friend to risk fucking things up because my dick got hard when I looked at him. As much as I wanted him I knew I would meet other men who turned me on, who I wanted to sleep with, and I was proving that now with Tyler, but I wouldn't find another friend like Jake, ever, and I just couldn't risk doing anything that might drive him away. Yesterday had screwed that up royally.

The moment I got to the bottom of the stairs and saw Jake's smiling face my stomach tightened and seemed to flip. He was so beautiful it almost hurt. He was my definition of perfection. I tried to say hi but the words got stuck somewhere and I ended up just staring at him.

"Happy Birthday, Ev," Jake said in that deep voice that always melted me. He was still calling me Ev and the tone was warm.

He had a present in his hand and I thought he was moving to give it to me but instead he threw his arms around me and pulled me into a really tight hug that pressed our bodies together and had my cheek resting against his. I inhaled and caught the amazing scent rising from his body. It made me feel warm inside. I wanted to turn my head to kiss him so bad but I didn't dare.

"Thank you," I finally managed to squeak.

Jake laughed and released me, patting me on the back. His hand slid up until it was resting on my shoulder and he left it there as he started chatting to Ryan. I didn't know what to do or what to think so I ended up standing there like a complete idiot while they talked.

"Come on, bro, let's go get you your first drink," Ryan said.

"I've had alcohol before," I said.

"I meant of today," Ryan laughed. "If you don't have a hangover in the morning I'll consider this party a failure."

"I don't want a hangover. And when you say party..." I said, uncertain.

"Relax," Ryan said. "I haven't invited the whole town if that's what you're worried about. I just called some of your friends and asked a few of mine to come for a mini reunion. The party doubles as both and means me and Marcus won't end up stuck with you kids all night."

"Fuck you," I laughed. "I'm a man now."

"Legally maybe," Ryan smirked. "Have you got your dick wet yet? With someone else in the room at least..."

I blushed. "I'm not a whore like you. I'm waiting."

"For what?"

"Someone I trust," I said.

"Oh right," Ryan smiled, "I forgot. When you have sex you want to be the bottom, don't you? You want a big dick rubbing against your ass before you let the guy slide it inside you to fuck you good."

"Ryan!" I exclaimed, so embarrassed.

I felt Jake's hand on my shoulder tense. It had just been sitting on top but it was kind of gripping it now. I wondered if it was from what Ryan had said.

Ryan burst out laughing. "You're such a fucking prude, Ev. Lighten up. I don't give a shit what you like to do in bed or who you like to do it with. Just enjoy it. Find a hot guy and fuck each other's brains out. Don't wait forever."

Jake shifted uncomfortably beside me. I think Emily must have noticed how heavy the atmosphere had become because she said, "Open the present, Ev, I want to see what Jake got you."

That seemed to make Jake relax and he turned to me, handing me the wrapped gift. I thanked him as we headed into the kitchen. When I was sitting on one of the stools I placed the present on the counter and opened it as I always did.

"Just rip it open," Ryan said as he went to the fridge to grab a couple of beers.

I stared at him as I pulled the paper apart. A smile rose up onto my face as I saw the cover of the new CD for my favorite band.

"A CD?" Ryan asked. "Haven't you heard of downloads?"

"Yes, but how do you give someone a download as a gift?" Jake said. "Besides, that's not all I got him."

I looked back down at the wrapping paper and saw some tissue paper inside that I thought was just to protect the CD case. I slowly unfurled it and stared down in shock at what Jake had got me.

"What is it?" Ryan asked, trying to see.

I lifted it up to show Ryan and Emily. It was a pair of red, white and blue striped boxers that had a material pouch with colored mesh making up the rest, most notably where my ass would be.

"Fuck, Jake..." Ryan gasped. "What the fuck are you trying to say giving him those?"

Jake laughed, "Nothing. It's not about being gay. I have a pair like those and Ev always says how good they look so I got him a pair of his own. Now he won't be after mine."

"Yeah, because that's gonna stop him wanting to get in your pants," Ryan quipped.

I just stared at him, part of me wanting to punch him, the other part wanting to run and hide. I didn't dare look at Jake for fear of what I'd see written on his face.

"Wow, Ev," Emily said, breaking the tension again. "You're gonna be begging to be fucked in those. Hell, you won't need to beg, it'll be an open invitation."

"I love them," I smiled. "Thanks Jake."

"Put them on," Emily said.

"Now?" I said.

"No, later when you're alone in your room. Of course now! We want to see what you look like them in them," Emily smiled.

"I don't think so," I said.

"Oh come on, bro, it's not like we haven't seen you before. What do you think, Jake?" Ryan asked.

Jake was silent for a moment and seemed to swallow before he smiled. "Yeah, go on, Ev. Let's see if you look as hot as I do in them."

I shook my head but smiled too. I took the boxers and started to walk out of the room.

"Where are you going?" Ryan asked.

"To get changed," I said.

"You're worried about us seeing your cock?" Ryan asked. "I think all of us have probably seen it before and none of us are interested in it so drop your pants."

I looked at Emily who just winked at me and then to Jake who had a smile on his face but also looked like he was biting his bottom lip a little.

I pushed my pants down and stepped out of them. Next I slipped my boxers down and kicked them off, taking the new boxers and pulling them up my legs. When they got up around my thighs they started to feel tight and I had to put a little more effort in to pulling them up but once they settled into place they fit perfectly, hugging my ass tightly and cupping my cock and balls like they were being held in someone's hand.

"Okay, now take your top off so we can see what they really look like," Emily smiled.

I peeled off my top and tossed it to one side, standing in the middle of my kitchen in nothing but the tight pair of boxers that literally covered nothing but my dick. I felt really exposed but as I looked around I saw that no one was mocking me or looking at me with a smile, they all seemed transfixed, even Ryan.

"Fuck, bro," Ryan said. "I can't believe how fucking built your ass is. Your muscles are popping out of those fucking boxers. You make me look damn scrawny."

I smiled, "That's because you are."

"You do look good, Ev," Emily said. "That body... and you have the most amazing ass. If you weren't gay..."

"Don't say that shit, you're like my sister," I replied.

"Yeah, and Jake's like your brother..." Emily chuckled.

My eyes went wide and I spun to look at Jake, worried that all these comments would be freaking him out but he didn't seem to be listening, he was staring at my ass through the mesh. I couldn't believe it. Suddenly he coughed and turned his head away.

"Yeah, they look good on you," Jake murmured as he walked over to the fridge to grab a bottle of water.

"I need to check them out," I said, walking out of the room.

I headed up the stairs to my parent's bedroom to look in their full length mirror. I gasped when I saw how I looked. The red, white and blue fabric was almost see-through everywhere but the pouch so it looked like I had barely anything on. What I did have on looked awesome. The pouch made my dick look huge with the bulge it created and when I turned to look at my ass it was so round and stuck out from the curve of my back. It was a true bubble butt. I never realized before but it looked good. I ran across to my room, grabbed my phone and quickly took a picture. For a moment I thought about sending it to Tyler. I wanted to give him something that he might think about but I still wasn't sure what his intentions were or what he would do if I did send the picture so I just stored it so I could possibly send it later.

I went back downstairs to the kitchen and found my pants, stepping into the legs and pulling them up.

"Are you keeping those on?" Ryan asked.

"Yeah, why not?" I said. "I look hot in them and who knows, maybe one of your hot friends will see me in them tonight and I'll get lucky."

Ryan laughed as I pulled my top on. "In your dreams, bro."

"So when do the other people get here?" Emily asked.

"About an hour or so," Ryan said. "I told them to bring food and booze so we'll see what we get when they arrive."

While we were waiting for the others to arrive I took Jake up to play on the game Ryan had bought me. Ryan and Emily didn't join us to begin with and I heard them downstairs laughing and joking around with each other.

As we were playing the game Jake kept smiling at me and nudging me with his arm when his character got the upper hand on mine. God my stomach flipped every time I saw those incredible white teeth and his dazzling brown eyes. I wanted to lean over and kiss him so bad but I knew it could screw everything up so I just bit my lip and continued playing.

After another few minutes of Jake playfully pushing me and me pushing back, he suddenly stopped and paused the game. I turned to look at him to see why. His incredible brown eyes burned into me with the most intense look I had ever seen in them and he held my gaze for what seemed like a minute before he started leaning in. Fuck! He WAS going to kiss me.

For some stupid reason I spoke instead of moving to meet his lips. "What are you doing?"

Jake's eyes never left mine and he held his position as he replied. "I have no idea. I just..."

Neither of us spoke. We just stared at each other. His face was so close to mine I could feel his breath against my cheek.

"Jake..."

He moved in even closer. The tip of his nose brushed against mine and I closed my eyes. My dick was so hard in an instant and I thought I was going to cum. We were so close to the kiss I had always wanted but something held me back. I placed my hand on his chest to keep the tiniest bit of distance between us but that hardly made it better when I felt his hard pecs beneath my fingers.

"Jake..."

"I thought you wanted me," he said, confused.

"I do. More than anything, I do."

"Then why aren't you kissing me?"

Why wasn't I kissing him? Why didn't I grab hold of him and live out every fantasy I had ever had with him? It's what I had wanted for the past two years so why wasn't I just going with it?

I took a deep breath. "I need to know you mean this. I don't want you to regret it."

"You're in love with me," Jake whispered.

I closed my eyes again. It was time to finally admit it.

"Yes, I am. I love you. I'm IN love with you. I want you so bad but I don't want you to kiss me or fuck me because it's what you think I want, I want you to kiss me and fuck me because it's what YOU want."

"No one has ever told me they love me," Jake said. "It stirred something up inside me."

"But do you love me, Jake?"

"Yes."

"The same way I love you?"

"I don't know."

"Then you don't," I said, feeling my heart sink.

"Ev," Jake whispered, putting his hand on my cheek and rubbing it with his thumb. A shiver ran through me.

"Are you attracted to me?" I asked.

"You've got a hot body," Jake said after a moment of hesitation.

"Yeah, but do you want to run your hands all over it? Do you want to lick every inch of it? Do you want to get down on your knees and suck my dick? Do you want to push your cock inside me and fuck me 'til we both cum? Do you want to bend over or lay back and let me fuck you? That's what I want to do with you, Jake."

"Oh shit..." Jake gasped. "I... I... I never thought about it. I've never thought about fucking a guy before, never wanted to."

"Do you now?"

"I'm so fucking confused, Ev," Jake said, his hand still on my face, moving until he was holding the back of my head. He pressed his forehead against mine. "A week ago I would have laughed at the thought. I might have even been disgusted."

"And what's changed?"

"You," Jake said. "You said you love me. I can't stop thinking about that, Ev. I know you mean it. I know that as hot as you think I am, you love me for the guy inside too."

"I do," I smiled. "But..."

"But what?"

"I've known I was gay since I was twelve," I said, "But I didn't love you then, not the way I do now."

"When did you start?" Jake asked.

"When we were sixteen," I said. "You had that growth spurt when you grew six inches in as many months and put on thirty pounds of muscle. You went from being a boy to being a man. That's when it happened. That's when I started thinking you were hot. It's when I started falling in love with you."

"Because of the way I looked?" Jake asked, sounding hurt.

"The combination," I said. "It wasn't just that."

"But it was the main factor?" Jake asked, pulling away from me and sitting back.

"That's why I lusted after you, why I started having sexual feelings for you. It's not why I love you."

"Fuck!" Jake moaned, throwing his head back, looking at the ceiling. "What am I doing?"

"You tell me," I said.

"I haven't been able to stop thinking about you," Jake said. "Since yesterday morning all I've thought about is you loving me. None of the girls I've been with have said that. All they wanted was my body. They wanted to fuck me because I'm hot or because I'm on the wrestling team so they'd be able to brag. You don't give a damn about that."

"I don't."

"I started thinking about something my grandma said to me about finding someone who loves me, who can make me happy. You can, Ev, I know you can. Our personalities just go together. You make me smile, you make me laugh, you know? If I ever need anything you're always the one who's there, you're the one I want to be there. I love you. I've always thought it was just like a brother, but I have a brother and I love you in a different way to how I love him. The problem is I didn't think I could ever have sex with you because I've never been attracted to you, not in the way girls turn me on. But then last night, when we wrestled, and I had my hands on your body and my dick against your ass... I got so hard. I could have fucked you last night."

"Why didn't you?" I asked, my throat completely dry.

"Because it didn't feel right," Jake whispered. "It freaked me out."

"What's different now?"

"Nothing. I still don't know if I could be with you like that. But I owe it to myself, and you, to give it a try."

I wanted to try, God, how I wanted to try. But I also had to be sure.

"What happens if we do this and it's not right? Are you gonna run off on me again like you did last night? Am I going to lose you as my best friend?"

"No," Jake said.

"I need you to be 100% certain this won't change a thing. I haven't acted on my feelings because you're too important to me as a friend to fuck it up. I've coped. If this isn't for you, say now, because I know with time I can get over you, but I still want you in my life. I need you in it."

"I'm not going anywhere, Ev," Jake said. "I need to try this. If it doesn't work we'll just be friends like we always have been."

"And if it does work?"

"We'll be more than friends," Jake smiled that incredible smile.

I smiled and then closed the gap between us. I placed my hand back on his chest, loving how firm it felt beneath my fingers even through his shirt. I ran my hand up his chest and neck until it was on his cheek and I pulled his head down so his lips met mine.

We kissed.

Fuck, we actually kissed.

Jake's lips pressed against mine hard and he held me close, putting his arms around me. He leaned back so I was on top of him, letting his hands explore my body, running them up and down my back before moving them to my ass. I moaned at his touch, which opened my mouth, and I felt his tongue slide in. I was in heaven as we made out passionately and Jake sucked on my tongue when I slid it into his mouth.

The hand on my ass pulled me closer with our lips still locked and our hard dicks brushed against each other through the fabric of our pants. My whole body shivered and our covered hard-ons slid up and down against each other. If we were naked I think I would have cum there and then. It was the most amazing thing that had ever happened to me.

I was panting when our lips parted. My lips tingled from the touch of Jake's lips actually being on mine. I still couldn't believe we had kissed, truly kissed, not like friends or brothers but with the passion of two lovers who wanted each other. There was another smile on Jake's face.

"You're a good kisser," he grinned before he leaned up to place a quick kiss on my lips.

"So are you," I said. "No one's ever kissed me like that. I've kissed a few girls but they were always a bit timid. You were powerful. You took control. I knew I was being kissed by a guy. Was it okay?"

"Yeah," Jake said. "It was hot. It's so different from kissing a girl, but good different. It's kind of exhilarating."

"What is?"

"Feeling and knowing that you're a guy who could fight against me, who could stop me, but who is willingly giving himself to me, letting me control things. I was worried it would make me feel like a girl, especially when you were on top, but it didn't. I don't feel weaker, I don't feel feminine. If anything I feel stronger, more masculine than I ever have. It's given me a rush that's gone right to my cock."

I looked down and sure enough there was the biggest bulge I had ever seen tenting Jake's pants. I kept staring up into his eyes as I slid my hand down his body and felt his rock hard dick through his pants. He moaned and his eyes seemed to burn with desire.

"What do we do now?" I asked.

"What do you want to do with me?" Jake smiled.

I felt my dick pulse hearing him say that. I hesitated. "I'm not sure I should say."

He laughed, "Ev, I've just had your tongue in my mouth and your hand is still on my dick, I think we're way past the point of being embarrassed. Tell me what you want."

I nodded, "Okay, I've waited two years for this. I've watched your body develop into the most amazing, sexy thing I've ever seen." My lust was building and I felt myself starting to get carried away. "I want to run my hands all over you. I want to lick your abs, your chest, suck on your nipples. I want to worship your fucking body, Jake. I want to make the most of this in case it never happens again."

I could barely breathe when I finished talking. My heart was racing faster and pumping harder than it ever had before. I felt butterflies or knots or whatever else you want to call them building in my stomach. My dick was leaking so much precum I could feel it soaking into my new boxers, making the whole of the pouch wet and some even started to leak out of the mesh onto my thighs. I had never been so turned on in my life.

Jake stared into my eyes for a moment and then stepped back. "Fuck. I've never seen that look in anyone's eyes before. You really want me. I can see it. It looks like you're about ready to attack me."

I wanted to reply. I wanted to say something witty that would make him smile but I was too far gone. What I really wanted was him. I was just about to kiss him again when Ryan called out and the moment was ruined.

We heard Ryan and Emily coming up the stairs and quickly moved apart, trying to straighten ourselves out. We had just hit resume on the game when they joined us with a couple of beers. I sat playing the game, moving uncomfortably because my dick just wouldn't go down. Jake kissed me!

It wasn't long before the doorbell rang and the first party guests started to arrive. Ryan went to let them in with Emily right behind them. Just as I was about to leave the room Jake caught me by the hand and pulled me to him.

"We need to continue this later."

I stared up at him in shock. He smiled and quickly kissed me before heading downstairs to see who was there.

The first guests were friends of Ryan's but I knew them from seeing them around when he had lived here before. They couldn't believe I was the same kid they had seen then since I had been so small and skinny but was now much taller with some good muscle definition. Each one had a card for me, which I thought was a nice touch, since they didn't have to and I didn't expect it. They also brought various bottles of booze and some snacks in bags.

The noise level rose immediately when Ryan and his buddies headed out to the back yard with drinks in their hands and started to catch up. Another few of his friends then arrived, along with Jake's brother, Marcus. They were pretty rowdy and did a bit of what my dad always called roughhousing, rolling around on the lawn and threatening to throw each other in our small 10 metre swimming pool.

Jake and I watched from the kitchen window as our brother's interacted. They were as close as we were. I couldn't help but think how unusual it was for two sets of brothers to be so close. Then I thought about the possibility that Ryan and Marcus had sex with each other and I wondered if Jake and I would end up in bed together too. Jake's hand lingered next to mine, the backs of our hands touching.

When the doorbell rang again, Jake moved away to answer it. Two of our buddies from school, Ajay and Morgan, came in holding a bottle of Jack Daniels they got from Ajay's dad's drinks cabinet. I went to the fridge to grab a bottle of diet coke and then got five glasses since Emily was with us too, though her eyes were focused on the guys outside and she licked her lips. I wasn't sure which one she wanted but she'd probably get him by the end of the night. JD and coke was the only thing my dad had ever let me drink, well, except for drinking the JD straight, which I thought was disgusting. We all held up a toast to my birthday and drank the mix down.

A few more friends arrived after that, with a couple of girls Ryan knew also turning up, which had most of my friends drooling. They had no chance so it was funny watching them trip over themselves, getting the girls drinks and generally being their whipping boys.

Ryan and his buddies came back in and started a game of beer pong. We all joined in and me and my friends all got tipsy pretty quickly, while the older ones laughed at us for making fools of ourselves.

At some point one of Ryan's buddies suggested we take a swim and for some reason we thought it was the best idea ever, even if there would be barely enough room in the pool for us all. We headed out into the back yard and started to strip off our clothes ready to jump in. It wasn't until I had tossed my t-shirt and pushed my pants down that I remembered I was still wearing the underwear Jake had bought me.

"What the fuck are you wearing?" Ajay shouted.

I looked down and blushed. I put my hands down to cover myself but Ryan objected and walked over to me.

"Don't be embarrassed, Ev," Ryan said. "You've worked for that fucking awesome body. Show it off. I'm sure the girls don't mind. Do you, girls?"

"Hell no," one of the girls said. "Your brother's a hottie."

"Yeah," another girl said. "If he was a few years older, and you know, not gay, I'd be all over him."

I blushed even more but had a huge smile on my face. Most of the other guys had jumped in the pool in their boxers but I didn't want to ruin the boxer's Jake got me in the chlorine and I was just drunk enough to strip them off and jump in the pool naked. I didn't know what the reaction would be but Ryan just laughed and pulled his boxers off too, jumping in right behind me. We started a splashing war and soon almost everyone was joining in.

By about one in the morning some of Ryan's buddies had stumbled home with a few others heading on to a club. Ajay was out cold on my living room floor and I had no idea where Morgan was. Marcus was in the back yard with his tongue down one of the girl's throats and I was in the kitchen with my pants back on, stupidly trying to clean up some of the mess that had inevitably been made.

"Stop washing those fucking glasses," Jake said. "It's your birthday. Make Ryan do that shit in the morning."

"It's not my birthday anymore," I said. "It's Sunday."

"That's technical bullshit. It's still your birthday until you go to sleep, now put that cloth down."

When I didn't and continued to wash a couple of glasses, Jake came up to me and threw his big arms around me in a big hug, holding my arms down by my sides. His chin was resting on my shoulder and his cheek was pressed against mine.

"Listen to me," Jake said. "Just relax and enjoy yourself. You can let go sometimes, you know?"

"I know," I said. "I just..."

"Shush," Jake said, putting his finger to my lips. He rubbed his cheek against mine. "It's time for bed."

My whole body shivered and my dick was hard in seconds. Did Jake really just say what I thought he did? We were really going to fuck or was he just saying it was time we got some sleep?

I placed the glasses down in the sink and dried my hands on a towel. I could feel Jake smile where his face was still pressed against mine and then slowly I pulled myself from his arms and turned around to look at him. He was still smiling and my cock pulsed; he was so beautiful. He took my hand in his and led me from the kitchen, through the living room and then up the stairs to my bedroom.

I can't say I was scared about what I thought was about to happen because I had wanted it for so long but I was so nervous I was shaking.

When the door was closed to my bedroom with Jake and I inside I turned to him and looked up into his eyes. He quickly locked the door and walked right back to me, standing so our chests were almost touching. He looked down at me and was just staring into my eyes.

I swallowed hard and managed to speak, "Jake... Are you sure about this?"

Jake paused for a moment, staring at me intensely. "I have to do this. I have to try."

He closed what little gap was left and pulled me to him, pressing his lips against mine. His tongue pushed its way into my mouth and probed deep. His hand went to the curve of my lower back and he held me in place as we made out and I ran my hands all over him, wanting to make sure he was really there and I wasn't dreaming.

When we broke apart I pecked at his lips. Then I moved down, kissing his chin and nuzzling into his neck, letting my lips caress the skin. His moans were like the sweetest music and his hand went to the back of my head, not putting any pressure on it, just holding it.

Just as my lips reached his collar bone I slid out my tongue and ran it back up his neck and continued on up until it was just behind his ear, which I took between my teeth and playfully bit.

"Fuck, Ev, that feels amazing," Jake gasped.

I bit his ear lightly again and then kissed my way back down until I was nuzzled in his neck once more, his moans getting more high pitched with each kiss.

I was on his neck for about thirty seconds when he gripped my hair and pulled my head backwards. He stared down into my eyes and I stared back up. I was trying to read what was in his eyes but I didn't have time as his face came toward mine and he forced his tongue into my mouth. It was the most intense kiss so far and if he hadn't been holding me I think I would have fallen down.

Keeping my hair in his hand, he tilted my head back, exposing my neck, and he dove in with his own lips, kissing my neck, giving me the same treatment I had just given him. I threw my arms around him as he dug in deep and made me cry out. It was the most amazing feeling and my dick continued to pump out precum between us.

He pulled back and kissed me again. While our lips were locked he put his arms around me and lifted me up, picking me off the ground like I was nothing. I threw my arms around his shoulders and my legs around his waist. For a moment we just stayed there, him holding me as we kissed, and then he started walking over to the bed.

When we got there he slowly lowered me down. He looked at me for a moment like he was trying to decide what to do and then covered me almost completely with his body as he leaned in for another kiss. It was my favorite position so far. Jake was on top of me, one of my hands was in his hair while the other ran up and down his back feeling the strength in his muscles. My legs were still wrapped around his waist, opening me up to him, and even though we were both still encased in our pants when Jake thrust his hips against mine our hard cocks brushed against each other again and we both moaned.

Jake's lips never left mine but his thrusts picked up in speed and he was humping down against me pretty hard now. I was in heaven. The only thing that could have been better was if we were both naked.

With that thought in mind I wrapped both arms around him and before he could really register any movement I had flipped him over so he was on his back and I was straddling his waist, sitting back. He looked terrified for a moment and his whole body seemed to go tense but then a smile slowly crept onto his face and he relaxed back against the mattress.

He lay there on my bed looking incredible. His big brown eyes stared up at me and the smile on his face just slayed me. I looked down at his thick neck, which glistened with either my saliva or the first signs of sweat. His pecs looked huge, rising up and down slowly as he took a breath, the light dusting of dark hair adding to his hotness as it slid into the crevice between the muscles and danced across toward each nipple. As he breathed each of his hard abs tightened and tensed, looking like they were about to burst through his skin. The light trail of hair ran down the centre of them, swirled around his belly button and disappeared into the waistband of his pants. He moved his arms and placed his hands behind his head, causing his big biceps to flex. My dick throbbed seeing those muscles, large mounds with a prominent vein running down each one.

I bit my lip and moaned. With my eyes focused on his incredible arms, I bent down and kissed his biceps, feeling the smooth skin over the taut muscles. He flexed even more for me, seeing how much I loved the hardness. I let my tongue slip out, running the tip across his flesh. I felt him shiver at the touch. When I caught the scent from beneath his arms I closed my eyes and breathed in deep. It was so manly, so Jake.

I lifted my head back up and kissed his lips again, taking the time to explore his mouth with my tongue. He moved his hands so they were on the bare skin on my sides, but he didn't do anything, he just held me. The contact made me feel all warm inside.

Breaking the kiss, I worked my way down his neck again and heard him make a slight purring sound. I smiled against his skin and then pushed back so I was sitting astride him again so I could get what I really wanted. I moved my hands slowly over his body, feeling his pecs and letting my fingers trace out the shape of each of his abs. I leaned forward and massaged his chest, just letting my thumbs graze his nipples. He was constantly moaning now and every so often I felt him thrusting up with his hips, trying to drive his cock against me so I just ground my ass against him and pushed him back down. I wasn't done.

I leaned in and let my lips linger just above his lightly hairy pecs. Even though my mouth wasn't touching him, the hairs on his chest rose up and made contact with my lips, sending shockwaves through both of us. When I couldn't take it any longer I kissed them, I kissed the chest I had admired for so long, I buried my face between the pecs and ran my tongue back and forth through the deep crater.

When I was done I kissed back across his chest until my lips were hovering over his nipples. Instead of going straight in with my mouth I blew gently on them, making Jake whimper and buck up into me.

"Fuck, Ev..." Jake gasped.

I smiled and continued to blow on his nipple, watching it stand on end before I leaned down and took it in my mouth, just kissing it at first. Feeling the nub between my lips I let my tongue lap at it, circling and flicking against it.

Jake's stomach was almost jumping up and down with his panting breath by the time I moved down to kiss each of his incredible abs. They were so hard and felt so good I thought for a second I would cum in my pants just from getting to kiss them. I traced every one with my tongue, delving into the valleys between them.

Finally, when I couldn't take it anymore, I slid down further and kissed along the length of Jake's cock. Even though he still had his pants on I could feel the size of his dick beneath my lips as the hard shaft pushed up against the fabric. I sat back on Jake's thighs and looked into his eyes as I reached for the button and zipper on his pants. He nodded without saying anything, giving me permission as I popped the button open and slowly drew down the zipper.

Taking the waistband in my fingers I gently tugged on the pants and Jake didn't lift up for me at first and there was the tiniest hint of uncertainty in his eye, but like before it went after a second and he lifted his ass for me to pull them off. I had thought about leaving his boxers on so I could toy with him a little longer but I couldn't wait and pulled them off too. I needed to see his cock.

I gasped. It was beautiful.

I stared down at my best friend, lying back on my bed, his legs spread wide to give me the perfect view of the most mouth-watering cock I had ever seen. It was long, about seven inches, with a slight upwards curve. The spongy head was a deep pink shade that complemented his cut cock perfectly. The shaft looked like it was all one color, the same as the rest of his lightly tanned skin, with a blue vein running along the length like river running through a desert. It looked thicker at the base and his balls were big. I wanted to suck a load straight out of them.

Unable to resist any longer, I let my tongue slide from my mouth and let it touch the skin at the base of Jake's cock. We both moaned at the contact and Jake let out a constant string of fucks and shits as I licked my way up his cock, going back to the base just before I reached the head three times before he was begging me to suck it.

When the glistening tip slipped between my lips I got my first real taste of Jake, of his precum as it leaked out of the tip. My tongue felt like it was alive as the flavor of his precum made it twitch and tingle. I lapped up all the juices and wrapped my hand around his cock, pulling it away from his body so I could push my tongue into his slit, wanting every bit of juice he could give me.

After just working the head for a minute or two, savoring the fact that I was actually sucking Jake's cock, I did what I had seen in the gay porn and started bobbing my head up and down, licking the shaft as I went. Jake started to writhe underneath me and his hips soon rose off the bed, pushing his cock deeper into my mouth as he tried to fuck me.

"That's so good, Ev, better than any girl," Jake moaned.

I smiled as I continued to suck his cock and was shocked when I felt Jake move. He put his hands under my armpits and pulled me up so I was on top of him. Before I could say anything his lips were on mine and he kissed me hard. I was surprised he had his tongue back in my mouth knowing where it had just been but it didn't seem to stop him.

When we broke apart, Jake bit my bottom lip and flipped us over so I was on my back. I was stunned when he reached down and almost ripped my pants off me, pulling them down with my help. I was naked and hard, waiting on his next move.

He leaned down slightly and I thought he was either coming in for another kiss or maybe, just maybe, he was going to suck my dick, but instead his hands went to my hips and he flipped me over again and then pulled me up so I was on my hands and knees with my ass pointing straight at him.

I looked back over my shoulder and saw Jake staring down at my ass like he was mesmerized. I stayed there while he reached over, grabbed my lube and poured it all over his dick. A second later he stepped up behind me and I jumped when I felt his cock slap against my ass cheeks. It felt huge and heavy slapping against me. I moaned and pushed back against him as it settled between my cheeks. He slid his dick back and forth in my crack and then I felt the head pressing against my hole, trying to push in. My ass started to open to him and the head of his bare dick slipped inside me.

"Oh yeah, fuck me Jake, fuck me," I moaned.

Suddenly his cock was yanked out and away from my ass and I felt a void behind me. I turned my head and saw Jake backing away.

"I can't. I'm so sorry, Ev, but I can't. I thought I could, but..."

Before I could say anything Jake grabbed his clothes and was out of my room, running down the stairs. I was stunned. What the fuck just happened? We were about to have sex. His bare dick had actually been inside me, for the briefest of moments Jake had been in me. He was about to fuck me, to sink his dick into me. Then he ran. Again. Was it because of what I said?

FUCK!

I collapsed back on the mattress with so many emotions running through me. Part of me wanted to go after him but the rest of me was crushed. All of my dreams about Jake and I were about to be reality, Jake was finally going to make love to me, and then at the last minute he rejected me and I wasn't even sure he was going to be my friend any more.

I felt like crying but the tears wouldn't come. I was too angry. If he couldn't do it then why the fuck didn't he say instead of going so far with me and then backing out? I wanted to punch him and kiss him at the same time.

My hard cock throbbed, bringing me back out of my thoughts and as sick as it was I took my anger out on my dick, pounding it harder than ever as I thought about what might have happened. My ass was twitching from having Jake penetrate me for those few seconds and I needed something to fill me thinking about what it would have felt like if he had slid the whole thing into me. I quickly went to my closet and found my new dildo. With some pain, a bit a patience and a lot of lube I got it inside me and fucked myself pretending it was Jake's cock, all the while jerking my dick hard. It was just what I needed and it was the most amazing orgasm, but it should have been with Jake inside me.

What the fuck was I going to do?