What, again? Clint thought as he rolled over in the bed and encountered warm, hard flesh. His head was pounding. His ass was tingling too. Felt like a Mac truck had rammed itself up in there. He liked that feeling; seemed he spent half his life trying to open himself wide--with help, of course. He liked it better when the truck was still parked, though. And when it did a little rocking and forward and reversing in there. He rolled back toward the edge of the bed, ready to continue out onto the floor and stagger to the bathroom. A headache you wouldn't believe. But his eyes couldn't find the bathroom door where it should be. No, he didn't have to piss. Must have done that in the night. So there must be a bathroom somewhere. Smelt like lust, like heavy sex. Sweat. Cum. Needed the shower.
Shit. This wasn't even his own bedroom. Where had he gone after leaving the precinct last night? All he knew was that he'd gathered another grief yesterday to add to those he wanted to forget. It was another guilt-laden one. He'd pumped Garrison for information--using a goddam lie--and then pumped him and left him. Not long after that Garrison was dead. Was that in any part his fault? Was any part of that not his fault?
What bar had he wound up in? What sleazy hotel room? Shit, he hoped this wasn't the Christopher Hotel. But, no, what he'd seen of the Christopher recently had been refurbished. This one obviously hadn't been refurbished since the Hoover administration. How did they get those stains on the ceiling? Guy must have been a real gusher.
Well, it must have a bathroom. He sure hoped it did. Needed to get under a shower--and find some Tylenol. There had to be a bathroom here somewhere. First things first. Get out of the bed first.
He moved closer to the edge and began to swing his legs over the side. But a light brown arm--colored tattoos from here to there, a full sleeve of riotous color--reached over him and pulled him back into the center of the bed. No problem doing it at all either. Much bigger guy than Clint.
An Hispanic, Clint thought. Tattoos. Bulging muscles. Where was there a bar featuring Hispanic motorcycle gangs? Had the fuck been good? Important questions first. Did the size of the cock go with the size of the body? Hard. Young. Prime.
"Good morning, blondie. We fuck good. We fuck again." The voice heavily accented. Guttural. Commanding.
Without even getting a good look at him, Clint felt himself being pulled over on top of a prone, hard body, facing a pair of gigantic feet. Big hands at his waist settled him on the cock.
"Beautiful bod. You could be a star. Done porn? You fuck like you done porn."
Yep, big body, big cock. God, he's long, Young and hard bodied, Clint thought as he felt the cock slide up into him. No problem on the fit. How long ago since we did it? How many times? God, I wish I'd been there for it. I haven't gotten a good look at him. Who cares, with a cock like this?
Clint's knees were on either side of the big Hispanic's torso, folding his thighs down to his calves. He arched his torso back, digging his fists into the mattress on either side of bulging biceps.
Well, maybe just one good-morning fuck, he thought. The cock was in deep. He knew he'd enjoy it. He began counterthrusting, moving with the thrusting of man's cock. Groaning and grunting. Panting for it. Let's do this!
"Knew you wanted it. Couldn't get enough of it last night."
Condoms. Had they done it with condoms? Were they doing it now with condoms? Were they . . . ? "Oh fuck, yes. Oh, shit! Getitgetitgetit!"
The Hispanic hunk folded Clint back flat against his chest, one tattooed arm across his chest, a hand cupping his chin, holding the back of Clint's head into the hollow of his neck. The other hand went to encircling Clint's cock and stroking it to the rhythm of the churning of the cock inside Clint's channel.
The hand on Clint's cock. "Yesss! Fuck me. Fuck me hard!" Once that hand is on my cock, we gogogogo.
A hand pulling on Clint's right calf, pulling his leg out and unfolding it. Another hand doing the same with the other leg. How many hands?
Clint's eyes flew open. His eyes could hardly see the second man, holding his legs up and out with fists on his ankles. Hovering over Clint and the man under him. Moving his knees up on the bed on either side of the Hispanic's closed legs and between Clint's spread-eagled ones.
Another Hispanic. Chest a riot of colored tattoos. Black hair down to his shoulders. A bodybuilder's torso. Young. hard bodied. Prime.
"Oh, shit, no." Two of them. There are two of them! And the second one isn't going to wait for a solo turn. But, god he's got a beautiful body. It was coming back to Clint now. Big Mike's bar. The challenge. A double. Begging to be punished with a double.
He felt the bulb of the second guy at his entrance, above the already-sunk cock of the guy under him.
"Yes. Fuck me!" Clint cried out. "Get it in there! Both of you. Do it. Now! Shiiit Yessss."
The ultimate barrier against remembering what you don't want to remember.
* * * *
Clint thought about nothing at all--gloriously about nothing at all--as he double-timed it to his apartment, showered, grabbed coffee and a bagel while he dressed--Why does raw, brutal sex with two young studs make you so hungry? he mused--and then broke the speed limits, which is hard to do in Manhattan, getting to the precinct only slightly late--or as the other detectives would happily inform him, earlier than usual.
As he was climbing the stairs he permitted himself to ask the question. Did he regret it? That the answer, "not in the slightest," came so easily told him how much of a man slut he'd become. But just like a Mac truck ramming him up in there. Just like he liked it. And he hadn't thought about the death of Garrison--and so many others--while he was being driven.
He didn't go out to track down and interview the crew members of the Larnaka Star with the others. He grabbed at the duty to travel to Trenton, Maryland, after he arrived at work to hear the guys in the squad joking about how they'd tell Greg Garrison's parents how their son gotten beaten to death by fucking with the New York mobs. Clint believed that Garrison should have been brought to justice for what he did, but not the sort of stolen justice that he came to. And he certainly didn't think the parents deserved to be consoled with sneers.
To balance this, Clint volunteered to take the long drive to Trenton and, in giving the news, he didn't go beyond saying that he had known Greg and known him to be a man of loyalty to those he loved. He could do this with a clear conscious, because he knew that it had been loyalty to Greg's military friend from Afghanistan duty that had led Greg into everything else--and that he had persisted, regardless of the personal sacrifice, in bringing a sense of justice to that friend.
It had been an all-day trip. When Clint got back to the squad room, either the other detectives were still out running down Larnaka Star crew members or they were done for the day and had gone home. He sat for a while, still wondering if he'd done the right thing by deep-sixing his summary of the statement Garrison hadn't realized he was giving to the police. Who was he to be playing God on this? He knew that a good cop--or at least one who played strictly by the book--would write it up, give it to Lieutenant Kahn, and let whatever happened happen. But his squad didn't always play by the book. The very existence of his squad was something other than playing by the book.
But who was he kidding? After having visited with Greg's parents, Clint knew they didn't deserve any of the fallout that would happen if the police believed Garrison's unwitting testimony and confession and acted accordingly.
It had been a rotten day. It had been a rotten week. Clint needed to lose himself in a total fuck. What he had gotten this morning hadn't been enough; it hadn't been rough enough, even with the two of them. They hadn't punished him enough in the taking; they'd fucked for the pleasure of it--for the pleasure of all of them. They'd wanted Clint to enjoy it too--and he had. Clint felt the need to be punished, to be taken by someone thinking only of himself. Usually at these times, Danny would recognize the dark place Clint was in and would take care of him. Danny knew how to do him totally without leaving any bruises showing. But he and Danny weren't getting along very well just now--and Danny wasn't here.
Clint rose from his desk, left the precinct, and went to a subway station that would take him down to the docks area, to Christopher Street. He told himself that the other detectives might still be down there and that he'd join them, take report on what they'd found so far, and then join them. But his body knew better why he was going down there.
When he walked into The Dugout bar, he could see that the bartenders were moping around--just going through the motions--all affected in one way or the other by Greg Garrison's murder. Clint had told his parents that Greg was well liked by his coworkers. From the way they were behaving tonight--the night after his body had been found--Clint felt that he had been right, even though he would have said that to Garrison's parents regardless.
In contrast, the clientele was even more boisterous than usual. The Russian sailor and his friends were there, at a table in shadows at the back of the room. They were all keyed up. He could see the flashing in their eyes. They were louder than usual, and there were more empty beer mugs on their table than usual. They obviously were het up about something.
Clint wasn't in the mood for preliminaries. After getting a beer at the bar, during which he sensed all eyes from that table and from several other areas of the room as well, on him, he walked directly to the Russian's table, set his beer down, leaned down, lifted the Russian's chin so that he faced up, and took the Russian's mouth in his in a deep kiss. One of the Russian's arms went immediately around his waist and pulled Clint close in beside him. He cupped Clint's package with his other hand.
Coming out of the kiss, Clint said, in a husky voice in which arousal was obvious, "We always seem to be interrupted. I don't want you to think that it was my idea to stop you the other two times."
"So, you want Sergey's cock, do you?" the Russian asked in a beery voice.
"Yes, if you're Sergey, I want Sergey's cock. Want to go somewhere?"
"Yes. Soon. But I'm with my friends now and with my crewmates around me like this, I don't think anyone is going to disturb us. I want a taste now; then more later. Like I did last time, but with a later this time. You want to wait?"
"No," Clint said. "I want it now. Here. With everyone watching how good you do me." And he did want that. Part of the thrill was that, as he walked across the room, all attention had focused on him. He was a magnate for other men. When he was in heat, all men around him were in heat. He wanted them all to watch him get fucked, for everyone in the room, including him, to feel like they were fucking him at the same time. A double wasn't enough. He wanted it all.
Sergey had already been pulling Clint into his lap, facing the table. "Good, because I give it to whether you say yes or no."
The Russian's friends, including the Baltic hulk, who sat directly across from them, leaned into the table, eyes big and attentive, hands under the table on crotches, as the Russian pulled Clint's T-shirt over his head and palmed his pecs. Clint lifted his arms and locked a fist on a wrist behind the Russian's neck. Their lips and tongues met in a deep, wet, full-tongues kiss.
The Russian was moving his groin underneath Clint, letting him feel the rising strength of his cock. Clint had already been skewered on the cock once before, so he wasn't surprised at the size of it. Still, he gasped and groaned.
When they came up for air from the kiss, Clint muttered, "Don't make me wait. It's been a rough day."
"And you want I should take the roughness away?"
"No. I want it to be a rough fuck too."
"A taste now. Later I fuck you as rough as you can take. Maybe more."
The Russian growled to the man next to him, "Pants, Vlad," and the man fumbled at Clint's belt buckle and zipper and pulled his jeans and briefs down and off his legs. The Russian had unzipped himself too, and his hardening cock was inside Clint's butt cleavage, the upper side of the staff rubbing across Clint's entrance. The Russian pushed Clint's torso down on the table top with one hand on the back of his neck, while his legs widened and spread Clint's legs, and the Russian positioned his cock with the other hand.
"No, wait," Clint gasped. "A condom. Protection."
"I thought you wanted it now," The Russian said with a guttural laugh. "OK, OK. Vlad, anyone. Rubber. Now."
Five packets skidded across the table top between empty beer mugs from several directions.
"Want to see it in his face, Sergey," The Baltic hulk muttered, and the Russian wrapped one arm around Clint's neck and pulled his body up while the other hand positioned the cock head.
Then Clint was panting and groaning and whispering, "Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck yes," as his channel was slowly lowered on the hard, thick staff. The grimace in Clint's face lit up the faces of the men leaning into the table. They licked their lips in arousal and moved their hands in their laps.
Clint sucked in his breath, feeling the loss, as the cock drew out of him. Then he cried out and gasped as it thrust hard and deep back up inside him.
"Rough like that?" the Russian asked.
"Rougher," Clint said with a groan. "Punish me."
"Want it deeper," the Russian muttered, and the men on either side of him reached down and each grabbed one of Clint's ankles and raised and spread his legs further. Clint grabbed the handles of the chair and began raising and lowering himself on the cock in rhythm with the Russian's grunting and upward thrusts, his hands now on Clint's waist, helping Clint to raise his channel up the cock and then thrusting down hard as Clint released the tension in his arms.
"You want it bad," the Russian muttered.
"Yes, I want it bad," Clint answered. He was screaming to himself in his mind: Harder, deeper, punish me, make me forget.
Vlad leaned over and took Clint's cock in his mouth and sucked him off, bringing him to ejaculation not long before the Russian gave an "Ufff," held Clint down into his groin motionless for a short minute, raised and lowered him slowly twice, and then jerked his pelvis three times.
They held there for a few minutes after the Russian had shot off.
"Yes, is very good," Clint answered with a sigh.
"Is better without rubber," the Russian said. "You let me do it in hallway without rubber."
"We don't know each other that well. And I didn't have much choice in the hallway."
"We know each other better in a few minutes." Then the Russian lifted Clint off of him and turned him over to Vlad, who showed every desire of continuing with Clint himself, with Clint not showing quite the same interest in him.
"Hey, I got good cock too. I can show you good time too."
Clint didn't respond other than to brush Vlad's searching hands away. His eyes were following the Russian as he stood and went around the table. Clint believed the Russian could give him more of what he thought he needed.
The others at the table were still as statues, still leaning into the watching in their minds' eyes the fucking that had gone on at the table in the shadows of the bar room. The rest of the room was more quiet than usual too. Most--the ones who hadn't just arrived--had realized what was happening and some had tried to look on without those at the table seeing that they were interested.
The Russian reached the Baltic hulk and leaned down and whispered something to him. He straightened up then and said, "I go take piss now. Pietr here will see you not bothered."
As soon as Sergey was through the door to the corridor to the johns, the Baltic hulk, who Clint now knew was named Pietr, rose and came around the table.
"Put pants and shirt back on now. We go."
"Where?" Clint asked.
"We go to where Sergey fuck you good. Then maybe I fuck you good too. Maybe Sergey and me fuck you together."
Clint shivered. He didn't know if Pietr was saying this to frighten him, but it had the opposite effect. It's exactly what he wanted tonight. The same the Hispanics had given him, but with cruelty. Clint was sure that the Russian and his friend would be cruel. Brunelli had been cruel. That's way Clint had gone with him repeatedly.
The others started to rise from the table. "You stay," Pietr commanded. "Sergey say you stay."
Vlad reluctantly let Clint rise from his lap and then looked longingly at him as Pietr and Clint walked out of the bar.
"Where are we going?" Clint asked after they'd started walking. They were going in the direction of the docks.
"Sergey not tell me to take you--we go to the ship. I want you to see something. Sergey say he fuck you till you can fuck no more. Sergey crazy. I want to show you what Sergey wants."
"I don't know," Clint said, his steps faltering.
"You want to die? If not come see what Sergey does to men he fucks. Then we call police. I have enough of Sergey's ways. You happy I save you, then maybe you fuck with me. I fuck better than Sergey does."
He had a steel grip on Clint's wrist and Clint followed him, knowing where they were going.
No hands were on deck at the Larnaka Star as they walked up the gangway. Pietr led Clint down into the bowels of the vessel--down ladders, through narrow corridors, down other ladders. When Pietr pushed Clint into a small cabin down a long, dark corridor, Clint had no question that this was the killing room the detectives had found when they'd searched the ship.
There was a cot with cuffs at the four corners, blood stains on the floor, and a table with various instruments of sexual torture on it.
He had been with the Russian three times now. Three brushes with death. It had been a close thing each time.
He turned to say something to Pietr, but whatever he was going to say was knocked out of him. A fist slammed into his face and then one into his solar plexus, doubling him over. Then another upper cut to his face and he went down hard on the floor. He felt the kick in the ribs . . . and then nothing.
* * * *
Clint came around and immediately realized that he was on his belly on the cot with his wrists and ankles cuffed at the four corners. He idiotically thought that the cuffs were so tight and rough that they'd bruise. Just like this serial killer's other victims. He was in pain everywhere along his body. The beating must have continued, Clint thought. What might be broken? Who the hell cares what's broken? This maniac is going to kill me.
There was only one area of his body that wasn't in the pain of a beating. It was his channel. It was filled with something more than even the Russian had. There was pain here too, but it was a glorious pain. Clint was getting a royal fucking. Pietr was straddling his hips and fucking him hard and deep, with long, deep thrusts of a thick cock. He had his hands around Clint's neck and was choking him.
Clint couldn't help himself--this was both his tragedy and his fetish. He was coming--prodigiously--and he knew that if he lived long enough, he'd come again and again. This was fucking. This was what sent him to heaven.
He realized that Pietr wasn't wearing a condom. And he knew he was beyond panic when he caught him thinking about the Russian, Sergey, saying it was better without a condom--and, from what he was getting from Pietr--Clint agreed with the Russian.
Pietr pulled his cock out of him, came at his entrance, and then slammed the staff home and resumed fucking.
How is he going to clean that up? Get rid of his DNA? Clint nonsensically wondered. The detective in him had his eyes scanning the room. There was a metal trough and a metal hose on a spigot over in the corner of the room. But could he get it all clean. Maybe he wore condoms with the others. Maybe I'm the last. Maybe he plans to move on now.
God he can fuck. God he can fuck.
This was what, in fact, would send him to heaven, he realized, as Pietr started working a plastic bag over his head.
He was gasping for air, the bag firmly covering his face. Then when he was about ready to give up, having come a second time--and so wanted to wait until he could come again--the bag was being jerked off his head, Pietr was screaming in some foreign language, others were screaming in English, and the weight of Pietr was being pulled off of him.
* * * *
"How did you find me? Were you following me?"
Clint had been unbound but still was on the cot, on his side, his legs across Danny's lap, as Danny held him and rocked him.
"No, jackass. We were following this guy--and the Russian too. From the interviews, we were honing in on one or the other. Quite a performance you put on in that bar."
"Then what took you so long to find me. I was choking here." He'd meant it to take the heaviness off the air, to keep from crying himself. But Danny took him seriously.
"Damn freighter's a warren of hallways and ladders. Even though we'd been here before, this cabin was hard to find."
"You weren't there. You weren't there when I returned from Trenton, Danny. I needed it, Danny. I needed it bad. And you weren't there."
"I've told you this is going to get you killed, Clint. You're a damn fine cop and an even better lay. But you keep looking for it like this and it's going to get you killed."
"I . . . I . . . can't help it, Danny."
"I know, I know. I'll just have to put bells on those balls from now on so that I know where you are--and who you're getting done by."
"But we caught him, didn't we, Danny? And it wasn't Brunelli, was it?"
"Yes we caught him. Thanks to you, this case will be iron clad. And no, it wasn't Brunelli. But I don't regret that he was put down."
"Neither do I, Danny. But it was a stolen judgment. It just isn't as sweet if it's stolen."
But enough of that, Clint thought. There was nothing he could do about anyone's justice now. He needed to think more pleasant thoughts. If the Russian wasn't the serial killer, Clint wondered if he was still waiting for him back at The Dugout.