Hi again, everyone. I'd like to take the chance to thank everyone who has written comments here on the story or who has e-mailed me. Even after all this time I still get e-mails and I'm still very grateful and thankful that people take the time to let me know what they think of the story. It really means a lot.
The story that I had planned to write next never got written - as you'll have noticed. It was too big, too complicated, and it just frightened me off basically. It involved someone moving to a different country, a married couple, a bisexual, a miscarriage, and eventual true love. If I have the courage and feel I can do it justice, I'll sit down and write something.
One of the comments on part 10 of the story, from Mike, raised a few interesting points. I purposely didn't describe Greg, apart from saying he was about 5' 10" - and the only reason I wrote that was because I wanted just the most basic sense of how he compared to Chris. They were both the same size, and in most respects they were equals. That's all I wanted to give. I wanted the reader to be able to project whatever they wanted onto Greg --- actually, I wanted the reader to feel that they were a part of Greg or Greg was a part of them. I wanted this to be a positive, uplifting story, one that many people could take something from. When writing the story, I had a very definite picture of who Greg was physically - the brother of someone I know. In terms of personality they are nothing alike (he's straight for a start!), but physically he seemed perfect (and of course he'll never know he was the inspiration for Greg!). But as I said, I didn't want to taint the story with MY idea of Greg, I wanted to leave that up to the reader.
As for what attracts Chris to Greg - I'd like to think it's more than just physical. He's a nice guy, a good guy. If you remember what Chris was like at the beginning, the mean, moody rebel in the leather jacket who smokes, Greg is completely the opposite. He's likeable, approachable and dependable. As they say, opposites attract.
I agree that the sex didn't really develop. To be honest, after part 4 I became less and less interested in the sex between them. I would have preferred to focus JUST on them as people, how they as characters develop. But for a "gay erotic fiction" website, that obviously isn't the name of the game. So I put sex in, just to meet the remit, basically. When I write another story, I'll be confident enough NOT to have sex in every part. I'll let the story develop how I want it to, explore the characters more. And I think with that freedom I won't feel compelled to get a sex scene into each chapter and so the sex will be more varied and more interesting. Of course, I have to start writing the story to get to that stage!
When writing the final chapter, I knew exactly how I wanted it to end. And although it seems abrupt, it's how I wanted it to be. I wanted it to seem like they were being drawn apart. As you scroll down the page, you have a visual sense of when the story is coming to an end, and I thought the few lines at the end, where Chris suddenly appears and says he missed Greg too much, that would be just the right twist. I didn't want to write any more than that, I didn't want Greg's reaction, I didn't want what happened that night, I just wanted Chris to appear to show just how much Greg meant to him and let it go. I'm sorry if some of you felt cheated by that, but for me it was how it was meant to be.
In my head, Chris and Greg DO spend the rest of their lives together. As I said, I wanted this to be a positive, uplifting story. Some gay couples DO meet the right person and DO spend the rest of their lives together and they are happy with each other, not needing to pursue anything outside of their relationship, and that's what I want for Chris and Greg.
Again, thank you SO MUCH to everyone who took the time to write something. I can't describe what it means to me that this story touched people.
I do fully intend to write another story, but I have to be happy with it before I'll put pen to paper.